Tuesday, July 19, 2005



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"do something everyday that scares you"
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my favourite fridge magnet
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"I slashed my arm to the bone"
A statement to me from a young man who I had 'known' for six months - but these were the first ever words spoken to me.
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"I am a spiritual person"
"I am an alcoholic"
Two seperate statements from a young man which were separated, proceeded, followed by nasal noises, grunts and unheard stutterings of a drunken soul.
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I cannot survive my work without reflecting.
Four books have come out of this.
I need to do it - even if nobody clicks those keys to read my reflections.
I need to put my soul throught he shredder daily - and then put it back together in a new way to be able to move the next fat leg, the next step along 'the Road less Travelled'.
As I do this bit of reflecting - I will insert a few links below so, if you wish and have time, you yourself can go deeper ..........

I do my reflective practice on on a weblog now - this is it folks - sometimes called a "blog".
After years of paper trailing my reflections I want to say 'how it is' in public.
Also I want to do something practical which comes from my favourite book ever:-
'Why am I afraid to tell you who I am'
http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0883473232/104-1434854-8311935?v=glance
I want to tell anyone who wants to read 'who I am' and in that journey of discovery - how it is working out.

The truth is - I don't know who I am unless I take the mask off and examine the human behind the behaviour - I need to take my clothes off my soul.

Someone asked me recently - where do I get my wisdom.
(Don't laugh!)
My first thought was - get lost - you are asking the wrong person.
Then I thought differently.
I went deeper - I tried the 'eyes wide open' trick.

We all have wisdom - all have had unique lives AND still having ...... becoming ....

So I answered the question. http://www.greenbelt.org.uk/insight/page.php?id=260
In short - I said - I get what I yearn for by working - being - and becoming by feeling those who are fragile, hurting, damaged, homeless ............. because in that environment I myself discover who I am.
That is my take on 'wisdom'.

I am midst ........ Believing that I need/we need to change all the time.
That is why I yearn for disorder, dissatisfaction, unease, incompleteness and by pressing the refresh button often.
Refresh the unease.
refresh the irritation.

So the man with the slashed arm http://pipwilsonbhp.blogspot.com/2003_05_01_pipwilsonbhp_archive.html
I offer my all to him.

And the groups I lead .........
This risk stretches me – too.
This risk troubles me.
This risk hurts when I fail to do what I aimed for.
This risk hurts sometimes.
This risk is sometimes failure.
This risk fantastic at it’s best and better than that so often.
I never fail to be impressed at how humans can respond to challenge.
http://pipwilsonbhp.blogspot.com/2004_03_01_pipwilsonbhp_archive.html

And I am reminded that the greatest of us humans ........... nothing in my hands I bring ...... it is not so much as what is in 'the hand' - IT IS 'the hand', the leg, the body, the heart - the ........... every thing.

"God want what we have not what we haven't" - as is says in the Living Bible.

When I friend died ....... I blogged about him.
About how great he was.
He was even more honest than that - read my blog about him:-
http://pipwilsonbhp.blogspot.com/2003_10_01_pipwilsonbhp_archive.html

..... and remember you are special and unique .....

bhp