Tuesday, October 17, 2006




....... PipPilgrim here .. .. .. .. .

I am a Pipgrim - on a journey and that is a journey of 'becoming' not just 'being'.

Years ago I made a big step - the biggest I believe - ever.
I decided to hand over my life and life journey to the designer and creator of life as I understood it.
I have moved changed - been shaken and stirred - comforted and disturbed.

I was 21
I was pulled by some greater force than feelings......
I decided to become .........
I knelt down and prayed ......
I felt no difference .....
I was just the same .........
But the journey had began .......
Life decisions were made with eyes wide open .....
I became a three diamensional
A 360 degree human becoming .......
I knew I was moving out of my lonely little isolated world with it's population of one ......

I remember shortly after beginning this new journey ...... I was on a Rugby Team Tour .......... and I knew I was different.
All the lads were in the Bar having their drinking games - line em up and beat the clock stuff.
I walked out of the crowd and down to the beach in front of the hotel and threw pebbles in the water ........
Thinking towards God
I was wrestling .....
I wanted to carry on drinking and playing rugby and getting on well with 'the boys' but...... also .......
I had a more I wanted to do - as well.
During those times I had a sense of always having God close
in that I could reach out my hand and there was a finger tip waiting to touch mine ...
I was being transformed and wondered how long it would take to be real and complete ........
Now .............. I understand it is about the journey and the continuos becoming .....

I have always wanted to be an effective lover
To be able to love
Love the unlovely
Love every human
Because
God is love
Love is God

I know I need love
to be loved
to give
receive
experience
hurt with it
joy with it
failure in it
yearn in it

It is only love when it is unconditional
I have it
I HAVE it
Given to me
I cannot
do that
But I am becoming and will not give up on it ................


"Who am I my God that you come to me
in tenderness and intimacy .................... "




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