It is a strange time here in the UK as all the schools are on holidays and the population has dwindled as many seek the sun abroad.
Even the London Underground it quieter. The roads, shops and ...... yes one thing remains the same .......... the TV programmes are just as boring.
I am giging and prepping and refreshing the irritation where growth resides.
I am pretty all right really.
Satisfied in a restless sort of way.
I hope you get my drift?
I want to to be uncomfortable
I want to be dissatisfied
I want to uncertain and yearning and wanting to become .....
I dribbled these words down my chin some time ago - I think I was driving at the time::
Growth
does not reside
in a place called
comfortable
Human Development
does not reside
in a place called
certainty
Wholeness
does not reside
in a place called
self
Freedom
does not reside
in a place called
Security
I have been on F*cebook for sometime
you can find me by name:- 'beautiful human person'.
I once asked if anyone ever felt anything other than happy
(it seems to me that f*cebook seems to cultivate a 'I am happy' culture
and not level fiveness of telling it how it is.)
'Cheer up Pip' clicked someone!
"Perfectionism is the voice of the oppressor."
Anne Lamott
'Bird by Bird'
I am one person who has never felt depressed
I have lots of friends who suffer
and have worked with many over the years who have extreme pain in that area.
But I do have a range of feelings
signals I call them.
They are crucial signals
like pain (- pain is good)
because without pain we can be in serious trouble.
I want to feel the feelings I have
I want to have the ability to get in contact with them
they are a valuable part of me
I want to be a feelings person
and not reside in a place called pretence.
I repeat - I am feeling pretty good
but we can oppress others if we pretend we are happy all the time
do you get what I am on about?
"To be free is to know who we are,
with all that is beautiful,
all the brokenness in us;
it is to love our own values,
to embrace them,
and to develop them;
it is to be anchored in a vision and a truth
but also to be open to others and so,
to change.
Freedom lies in discovering that the truth is not a set of fixed certitudes
but a mystery we enter into,
one step at a time.
It is a process of going deeper and deeper into an unfathomable reality."
Jean Vanier
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