Sunday, September 09, 2007













Hi
1 hi - you all-right?
2 been away
2 now back
3 it has been good for me - being away

Notes on the above::
1 = Level one
2 is Level 2
3 is level 3


I am feeling ............ a bit strange because I didn't realise that I was not relaxed and going away triggered the reality
I was
My first day driving to the wedding, see below - it was fab, I was constantly thinking of the things I had to do.
I was feeling the pressure without feeling myself.
Only when I escaped from the log-jammed inbox - only then did I realise that I needed to get away.

On the day of the wedding, a12 hour event, I had three power naps as I returned to my hotel bedroom and just crashed.
AND I slept solid each night too.
I have had on my mind a few gigs I have coming up
I have spent a couple of days designing them
and got no-where
so all this unresolved 'what can I do - what are the options - what can I do?????
The pressure is always in the prep.

Now I feel better
more relaxed I think
but don't always know that
I like pressure but not stress
maybe (and I hate to say this) maybe I do stress a bit too .....

the three paragraphs above are Level four.

All this is real and I repeat
"Why am I afraid to tell you who I am"
is my favourite book of all time and I want to tell it here because I want to be mask-less but have long way to groove with that
but that is what I want

Telling you is helpful to me
growth does not reside in a place called comfortable .............

I feel I have a long way to go before I learn to love and accept the human I am going to be spending the rest of my life with ........




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