Tuesday, June 17, 2008


I am tired
I am flaked
I have not recovered from our holiday yet
I am not in the blogging groove.

Funny
often I am drained and I just blog stuff
it just pours out of my soul.
I need to undress -
my soul.

I feel I have not stopped since returning from a weeks holiday.
Joan said tonight, that she feels she has not been on holiday.
It was different, great, wondrous but, maybe, we did too many things and did not chill enough.
?

I have been working in Kings College today.
First time there.
All the beautiful human students are in their last week of their course - and I go in to
disturb their comfortable
(and comfort their disturbed)
I hope!

I was with 21 humans.
Objectives::
Experiential, emotional literacy, communication ALL under the heading of 'every child matters'.

It was great.
They were beautiful to work with.
They were responsive, co-operative and, as you would expect, intelligent in all things learning.

I felt that it was fertile ground- partly.
They digged in to all the active 'doing stuff' but I sensed a holding back.
I am used to working with 'special needs' humans more than student/professionals.
I find that these groups, with their raw needs, are far more willing to 'self disclose' ONCE there is a climate of trust established.
This can take some time - sometimes.
Other times - fools rush in ........ they take the advantage of permission given
opportunity given -
to capture the new experience full on

As you know, if you click this way often, I believe that vulnerability is a strength - not a weakness.
It is better when we deliberately disclose weaknesses rather than wait until they leak uncontrollably.
So many are unwilling to move out of their comfort zones.
Growth does not reside in a place called comfortable.


Today - great steps were taken. New experiences were felt. Considered - reflected upon.
We had some massive participation and feedback - reflective practice full pace.
I feel for them.
Many going into their first teaching jobs.
At least one with an interview this week.

From their generous feedback - they appreciated an informal educationalist, who knows zilch about formal education, going into their space and offering a life of experience - all offered with encouragement that they take what they want, transpose anything they can, into their own context.
They did.
I appreciate what they offered me.
Acceptance and I felt valued.



So here I am.
I have lost 100 or so emails.
Not answered.
One, The John O'Donohue memorial reminded me, was from Kristine his partner and beautiful human.
I also have 120 emails that need an answer and I have no energy for them.
Week-end is a light at the end of the current tunnel .............

I said on my face book update
'I want to love'
'I want to be loved'
MY face book name is 'beautiful' - thanx Torgrim for fixing this for me so so so long ago and I still like it.

My Mission Statement says on the bottom
"I have decided to make my life an act of love"
That means I am trying.
It is a Mission objective - a life purpose.

I have lots more churning in the washing machine of my soul
but must leave you to knock out some zedzs
and run a spell check on my vulnerability .......................

Just want to say
you are beautiful
it does not change the fact - if you do not feel beautiful.
Not many 'feel' beautiful.
you are beautiful ...............