Wednesday, December 03, 2008





"do something everyday that scares you"
my favourite fridge magnet

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"I slashed my arm to the bone"
A statement to me from a young man - these were the first ever words spoken to me.

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"I am a spiritual person"
"I am an alcoholic"
Two seperate statements from a young man which were separated, proceeded, followed by nasal noises, grunts and unheard stutterings of a drunken soul.
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I cannot survive my work without reflecting.
Four books have come out of this.
I need to do it - even if nobody clicks those keys to read my reflections.
I need to put my soul through the shredder daily - and then put it back together in a new way to be able to move the next fat leg,
the next step along 'the Road less Travelled'.


I do my reflective practice on on these electronic pages.
After years of paper trailing my reflections I want to say how it is in public.
Also I want to do something practical which comes from the title my favourite book ever:-
'Why am I afraid to tell you who I am'

I want to tell anyone who wants to read 'who I am' and in that journey of discovery - how it is working out.
The truth is
- I stumble
- I don't know who I am unless I take the mask off and examine the human behind the behaviour
- I need to take my clothes off my soul.

Change
Believe that we need to change all the time.
That is why I yearn for disorder,
dissatisfaction,
unease,
incompleteness and

by pressing the refresh button often.
Refresh the unease.
Refresh the irritation.

So the man with the slashed arm
I offer my all to him.

And the groups I lead .........
This risk stretches me – too.
This risk troubles me.
This risk hurts when I fail to do what I aimed for.
This risk hurts sometimes.
This risk is sometimes failure.
This risk fantastic at it’s best and better than that so often.
I never fail to be impressed at how humans can respond to challenge.

And I am reminded that the greatest of us humans .......
.... nothing in my hands I bring ...
... it is not so much as what is in 'the hand'
- IT IS 'the hand', the leg, the body, the heart - the .....
...... every thing.
"God want what we have, not what we haven't"
- as is says in the Living Bible.


..... and I remember you are special and unique .....
.......and beautiful

bhp