I really hate being dysfunctional.I have been for nearly 2 weeks.
Since being away at the week-end,
facilitating and growing in a fab styli.
I went downhill.
No work done in or out.
Lots not done including
Blogging, emails, responding,
loving, supporting, writing, yearning NO!
I have been yearning but not in a co-ordinated way.
Now I am on drugs.
I have slept today
I have rested today.
I have not read today.
I have not clicked today.
I have been out of focus today.
I hate being out of focus.
I hope I can kick-start tomorrow.
I have lots to do
but no week-end away for a change.
A Greenbelt Trustee meeting Saturday
and free Sunday (to avoid TV football
and get back on the planet!)
5 Words to describe my life at the moment::
Lame
Useless
Feeling (for others)
Desire.
Re-generater
I would love to see yours.
They leave a mystery behind them.
They are only chapter headings
BUT - I love them
because you are telling me who you are
- a little.
I will feel your pain
maybe
I will feel your scars
maybe
I will wipe your tears
maybe
I will taste your love
maybe
I will hear your every word, emotion, facial expression, palms open, stumbling words,
maybe
Lets make maybes - definite's eh?
"Your life and my life flow into each other as wave flows into wave
and unless there is peace and joy and freedom for you,
there can be no real peace or joy or freedom for me.
To see reality -- not as we expect it to be but as it is --
is to see that unless we live for each other
and in and through each other,
we do not really live satisfactorily;
that there can really be life only where there really is,
in just this sense, love."
Frederick Buechner.
