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Hey hey
well well
I feel I need to do a catch up.
It is Sunday night
had a slow day today
didn't do much
like nothing.
Joan has gone to bed
Zig has gone for a run outside.
I reach for the remote control
I have clicked 365
that is the music channel on TV
It will remain unwatched as I click a bit here.
Yesterday I was at a Greenbelt Trustees meeting.
Great to be together with the team.
I missed the last meeting
a week-end of meetings in November last year.
I was in S Africa at the time.
I hate missing our only w/e residential gathering
we get so much done including being and ........
and becoming.
I felt so drained after the meeting.
I felt like I was fighting a bug.
Flat as a pancake - more than tired.
Today has been a recovery day.
Joan and me had travelled into London
with Connie/pram and all the stuff.
That little beautiful human is something special.
It was great having her stay over for a couple of nights.
Poor thing has been coughing and sweating for two weeks now.
All the train were cancelled fro Wilson Mansions
stink - try getting into London for a 10am meeting -
it normally takes two hours so
we had to drive and park outside town
but Joan met me after the GB mtg to travel home together.
Knackered both of us ................
Now I am, like most people, thinking about the week ahead.
I am still clearing up after the death of my brother.
Really need to get my head into it - I keep dipping
but I need some quality time at it.
Also I need to do my annual tax return - AND
Tax and me don't get on well.
At the same time I need to tackle my inbox
(better called logjambox)
I will be replying dear beautifuls ......
As usual I am stimulated by the humans I meet
or just observe hear/read/view .....
All messages from the mainframe.
Force quit/I sat there waiting for me/shout for joy/punch it in/shush now/don't move or say anything/unknown caller
I believe there are messages in the whole of life
we just need to be aware and tune in to all the signals - divine ....
I pause/turn TV off - it's pop stuff.
I tune my iPhone onto KCRW RADIO,
based in LA, always playing my sort of music.
I can get 44,000 radio stations world wide via wi-fi.
At the moment I am thinking how the
lightening is followed by delayed thunder.
How a situation/conflict/interaction
can be followed by delayed and powerful feelings
rumblings which can go on and on .....
Sometime the feelings from an incident
can be more powerful than the incident itself.
I am planning to write about this
giving examples from my life.
It is a massive need to address
emotional intelligence and emotional health.
All of us catty pressures, often stress,
which can be an ever tightening
metal band around our chest
squeezing the emotion out of our life -
whilst we carry on pretending all is well.
Of course.
Most humans I work with who have social issues
relational/behavioural/compulsive/aggressive issues,
are driven by
a wounded soul
a inbox rammed with feelings
and no tools in the toolbox
to enable them to manage life
- which good for themselves
- and good for other humans and society.
I desire intimacy
(the first three words in my last book)
because I believe that when we get
intimate/close/L5/open/revealing with each other
we can then bond together in the reality
of our strengths/weaknesses/wounds and loves.
This year I have had a greater number of beautiful humans
who have opened up to me about the lighting and thunder
which they experience inside/secret
and of course it is confidential.
They tell me because they see an open door, someone
who is a helping friend,
not a distant professional - but someone who can,
at least, receive/listen/understand and love.
The spilling is a great act in itself.
Trapped inside the hurts continue
the lightening strikes twice
the thunder is in our sleeping hours
and our relaxation times -
not going away ..........
disturbing our soul .....
If these few words touch you in some way
go seek a person in your life
who you can trust - and talk about it.
Please don't lock it in.
Live like there is nothing wrong.
We may feel we are cracking up
and really
we can be cracking open.
¸.•*¨*•♪you♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥¸.•*¨*•♪are♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥¸.•*¨*•♪beautiful♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥
