Wednesday, January 26, 2011



Mrs Beautiful still not well.
It's the cough.
She is also weak.

I can understand she is fed up
of feeling weak and not the
normal energetic Mrs Beautiful.

I cracked my tax submission today.
It always hangs over me in January.
I am not good at this stuff.
'Add ups' was not my best at school,
tell you the truth,
not many things grabbed my attention.
I liked rugby tho!

It is done now and I feel liberated in life.
My office is in a mess - my shredder protesting
the floor invisible
but I feel liberated.

I need to get to grips with 2011
my looking back ended today hey hey.

I have been doing the shopping.
I said to the young woman behind the Tesco till
'you look tired'.
She answered authentically.
Her face was drained
her body moving minimal
her smile non existent.
We had a little positive exchange
affirmative as I packed my bag
and a beautiful moment passed/ended.

We don;t know how another is.
We can read something in the face
(55% of communication here)
and the body posture
(the rest of % minus 7% for the words)

We carry around with us
our thoughts
humans in special flashbacks
or thinking about them
longing to be with
concerned about them.
We churn through tasks
and flash through scenarios
of how to do something -
a resolution
a conflict
a conversation.....

We can never know another completely.
Only intimacy can get close.
That's what I desire to do.

One question I ask is
'tell me one thing on your mind at the moment?'

Summerising
I get three types of responses.
1 A quick look into space,
eyes looking sightlessly upward.
Then a sharing of something that they are working at,
struggling with, preoccupying the worry glands.
There is usually some real sharing at this point.

2 Thinking eyes, looking sideways.
Then comes an answer which is
of a routine task nature -
I need to do such-a-thing.
No or little conversation ensues.

3 A jokey, witty, superficial maybe,
or maybe just not in a frame of mind
to share with the likes of me.
(I guess they may think a little later!)

I did the same on facebook today.
These are the responses to date::


Vahe coffee
9 hours ago · LikeUnlike

Ulli Sarah Kaiser
8 hours ago · LikeUnlike

Martin ‎1st meeting in Edinburgh
8 hours ago · LikeUnlike

James Natalie Portman
2 hours ago · LikeUnlike

Wendy My nephew Ben, awaiting major surgery...
about an hour ago · LikeUnlike

Dana haggis
17 minutes ago · Like

I like the stirring of the soul
and appreciate that humans response

¸.•*¨*•♪you♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥¸.•*¨*•♪are♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥¸.•*¨*•♪beautiful♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥