Friday, July 15, 2011

I have been through a strange few days.
I have not left Wilson Mansions for 8 days
I have been wounded
but it also retches at the emotional too.

The details are below on my blog
but I want to express/reflect.
The worst was when I couldn't touch
even touch the floor with my L foot.
So
I had to crawl to the the bathroom.
The smallest act was punishing.
I tried hopping -
a bit tough for an older human
15 stone weight and-all !

Mrs Beautiful was away Conniepopping.
So I felt alone in it all.
I could not do any work
didn't want enter my computer
Blogging - NO
not wanted to Twitter or Facebook.
Read/write/think/design .......
I was static
looking into space.

It all made me more thoughtful of others
some disabled every day.
Some carrying pain everyday.

I am not used to it.
Never been in a hospital for more than a day.
Hardly ever visited a Doctor until last few years.
Mainly experienced pain via others.

Yesterday I started to come out of it.
Mrs Beautiful is tired.
I have been more useless than ever.

Today I am somewhat better
able to limp to my car/drive
but not yet walk anywhere.

I am keen to get out and walk
Catch some rays
Get on my bike
Walk the usual miles through
London Underground
Local sunshine/shops/newspaper.
That will be soon though .......

Now I am feeling more alive
some energy back
started on a to-do-list/strategic/priorities.
Hitting my inbox - forever a challenge.
Starting to have words with the Divine.
Wanting to reflect - dig into my soul again.

Tomorrow, until Monday,
we have Ann and Connie staying.
Joy is excited about her new home.
That will be busy for us all.
Connie, still not 2,
will be a bungle of fun and a whirlwind.
It is ages since she saw Granddad.

I think
the big learning
has been how the physical
can affect the mind, soul,
the emotional and the social.
I will
be more
aware
sensitive
supportive
in future ......

5 Words to describe my LIFE at the moment
Alive
Limping
Catchup
Head-up
Standing at the Bus stop to catch the next BUS into living ....
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...... and you?