Sunday, March 10, 2013

At 15 years my Youth Worker said I was too much trouble


Hey Hey and hello from me.

I am writing to you not knowing you, 
your culture
your challenges 
your work context.
people/youth work context 
your ........ everything!

If we were physically together 
I would be reading your face,
which delivers 55% of your communication.
Also your words and body language, 100% of your unique communication.
If we could talk, 
look into each others eyes and 
beautifully connect -
that would be wondrous.



But at the moment I will carry on clicking these keys and 
............... await some feedback!



Scroll Piplife.
When I was 15 years old my Youth Worker called me to one side
and said I had to go.
I was too much trouble and 
the staff and young people couldn't manage me.
The there was a pause - 
'If you want to stay we want you to be the leader
of these 15 boys'? 
You guessed it - I became a leader at 15 
and loved the responsibility.



When I was 21 years old I became a Christian.
I could never understand how God loved me
but I wanted the best life to live - 
so I sold out to her.



This is a quick scan through a few of my life experiences, 
the next being,
Mrs Beautiful and me married when she was 21 and I was 25.
Within one year of that massive event, 
(I could never understand why she loved me),
we had sold our home and moved into a 
Residential Special School for Young Offenders.
All boys committed by the courts - 
and we became their Houseparents.



Since then we have worked for many years in a number of projects.
All of them with beautiful young humans with special needs
in special needs housing projects including teenage street gangs.



I want to share a few stories
with you about the journey 
and my current work.
My stumbling and fumbling journey into living out faith on the frontiers 
and not at all in a church context.



I write and share stories about young lives and their - and my struggles. 
I feel with them in their situations. 
I work and yearn to understand them and want for them deeply. 
I, like you, think that violence and aggression is totally unacceptable - 
absolutely horrific much of it,
I have lived with it all my life and
I hate it - 
but that is not enough. 
It is all so very sad.
Very very sad. 

"We can see a persons behaviour by can't see their journey"
I love these young humans - not always their behaviour
but love them love them - they are beautiful humans.

I struggle to understand.
I strive to understand.
There are ways to see beyond behaviour.
That means getting intimate.
It means getting so close that there is 100% trust in one another.
I do that - try.
I want to tell you how I do it - try
AND by telling you ....... I learn also myself.

My next book is full of stories about my discoveries - feelings 
as I work with beautiful humans
with a passion to see them self determine a different life for themselves.

That's some of me here.
So full of feelings and trying to understand them.
Yearning to become .............