Do you feel that your feelings
are a BRICK WALL.
If so right now?
if so has been?
I feel with you
I want for you.
I have been in that place.
Faced with pain.
Internal.
My own inability.
Others inflicting threats
violence
sourness
abuse
and yours is unique
but non-the-less - pain.
I now believe that feelings
are not a brick wall.
I believe they are a curtain.
One we can walk through
with a a hand movement
a little head down
and a step in the right direction.
Feelings are signals.
Not a judgement on our preciousness.
Feelings are good
even the bad ones.
They are there to be owned
and grasped with you whole self.
Not let them control our behaviour.
Not to control our mind
but to help in decision making.
We can try to control them
which is a sort of suppression
and that isn't good because
they are still there.
Better I have found
is managing them.
Not wishing them away but
learning to surf them
walk through them
understanding them
like we would a friend
with all their up's and down's.
Feelings will always be with us
until we are dead.
Some try to
soften them
run from them
along a road called alcohol
or the rapids called 'drugs'.
The trouble here is::
When we stop that numbing process
numbed via alcohol/drugs
we start to feel again.
Often in a more powerful way.
Rehab
post rehab
can be the most pain.
Walk through the curtains.
Share feelings.
We all have them
and many never learn about them.
They are your unique signalling system.
Love em.
You are beautiful.
Not what the mirror says
not what the scales say
not what our feelings say
not your regrettable behaviour
now or in the past .....................
You are beautiful
BEAUTIFUL IS
the content of your soul.
© Pip Wilson
