A young man of 25 killed by a bomb under his car. A 22 year old woman murdered after she left a nightclub. A 14 year old girl stabbed multiple times outside a school A 5 year old girl shot in the chest by youngsters riding bikes. All these in the UK. All these wrench my gut. Daily I view the news to see if anyone I know has been stabbed has been shot or has shot someone .............
I feel a bit flat today. Mrs Beautiful says it is because I have no pressure today.
I face a day of being a TAKER. Not a day of being a MAKER.
Those bhp's unemployed waking up daily with nothing to do have it tough have it massive having no motivation no demands no stretch.
I am used to being a MAKER.
I have not gigs until after Easter Meetings YES Writing jobs YES Thinternet YES but what drives me what motivates me What inspires me Is you What inspires me Are beautiful humans stretch.
Church does not stretch me. Belonging YES Beautiful humans YES Worship YES but I need stretch .......
I need my soul scraping Easter is coming My soul needs spring cleaning I need a respray of my soul. I need to attack the cobwebs. Dusty corners eradicated .....
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Lots I write never gets typed never appears never even read by me
The process of writing/emotions/thoughts/reflections/ is powerful in itself It takes me outside myself It takes me inside myself ......................
I can never tell you I can never tell anyone Some of the things I do My mission activities My mission conversations It would not be right It would be wrong It would change the human that I am. I would not be trusted and I believe I am.
