I automatically think these things. I hope you are OK?
More important I hope you are aware of your feelings.
It is not that easy. Geting intouch with them means unzipping the soul. Looking inside.
Some times INSIDE is a place we don't want to visit. It triggers more feelings but ..............
Where I am - I believe we need to journey catch that bus to our inner being to our inner joy disturbance wonderings yearnings wounds dreams .....
I am feeling somewhat burdened. A few humans I know and love are in testing places. A cancer operation Imprisonment Repeated ill health MS Unemployment Lostness Deep fears Dementia Broken relationships.
All these I think of the persons. They are real to me. I have just named and tagged them. I can see their faces hear their words flickers of pain as they speak flickers of warmth to me deep expressions etched on their faces.
I had a little sob today. It just came up from my gut through my throat into my mouth and face. Unplanned.
So my feelings are with them but I also I have my own.
I feel with two friends in S Africa Another who has just been mugged over there.
I have feelings about the gout I have experienced a few times. Ugly stuff. I felt it returning these last few days. But it did not develop. Hope it has gone. My foot feels OK now. One strange thing my nose develops red spots as part of the gout starting also leg cramps and I stop enjoying a glass of red wine. Odd eh?
My spots have faded the last two days. My foot pain faded to zilch. No leg cramps.
I have been diagnosed as over producing adrenaline. I do that it seems when I am busy doing what I love so I want to fulfil my mission yet I get some negatives in my human frame.
My soul yearns to do what I do yet I guess my body would like less. I am doing less gigs. Writing more. But some big gigs coming in and I Lurve them.
So I have feelings about these things.
I want to share the great things the vulnerable things I want to be open and real not only showing the best bit. THAT leads to really bad scenes I certainly don't want that.
I wonder how you are feeling? I guess they have changed if you have read my clicks and carry some empathy with me?
You are a beautiful human to a great depth of your being.
