Tuesday, January 20, 2015

How it can I have a positive outcome in LIFE? - or JOURNEY?


Working with people who have met 
stress, depression and forms of mental illness, 
it is good to be .......... 
discussing a celebrity emotional crash ... . 
What is he famous for? 
What is he infamous for? 

These questions have brought out 
a range of observations 
which have come from the gut,
not just the head. 

We go on to warmly, with affirmation, 
to speculate about the benefits he may have 
from the bad experience ....
.. how it can have a positive outcome. 
That triggers all sorts of debate. 
Personal experience of a mental hospital
and the drug controlled climate, 
plus the only added benefit
of a smoke filled tv room. 

Then a lead in to talk about detox, 
a withdrawal from dependancy on alcohol or drugs. 
Individuals spilling their soul
about 20 years addiction to hard stuff. 
Great now just to see them struggle 
with being alcoholic not addicts of
the killer chemicals. 

You like me have had periods of emotional pressure. 
maybe you with depression. 
Breakdown or on the verge. 
We all have ability and disability ....
...... even though we try hard
to hide the ugly bits eh? 

Imagine what it is like without 
having a loving framework of family or friends. 
I love these humans who I cannot name
for confidentiality sake. 
The damage is in their faces now as I picture them. 
Beyond the hurt and scars there is a beautiful person, 
still articulate,
maybe slurred, maybe ugly to your eye. 
I soak it and feel blessed
as I struggle to understand 
and , non oppressively, help. 

It seems to me that we can never really meet 
as humans 
unless we meet at the point
of commonly grounded hurt. 
Never, we will never truly meet when we share 
only our best qualities, and success. 

At the end of another day 
Radio recording - another electronic/dance DJ, 
iPhone charging and uploading music for coming days
... Gilles Peterson still fills my soul
with music ....
I was pleased this week
when someone guessed my age was 50 !! 

So ....
... I take one deep slow intake of breath ....
.... and breath out slow ..
.. the new comes into my soul and the waste is expelled .....
....... breathe on me breath of God .....
.... fill me with life brand new ........