Thursday, January 31, 2013

I wept at 3.45am this morning.

I was awake at 3.15am last night.
I had gone to bed tired and slept deep
but was wide awake and 
on my iPhone by 3.30am
still in bed.

I started to read a book.
One I have been reading for some time.
That is how I read books.
rushes of intake
all non-fiction
sips at the well.

I wept at 3.45am this morning.
This book undresses my soul.

Here are two clips.
You might not get it.


I didn't weep at this part
but it is all about connecting with humans
struggling with life.
It turns my skin inside out.
I feel raw.
I want to feel ....................

Your HEART on a big day - 14th February

14th FEBRUARY so close now
and it is a big day for many

Lent starts.

So I am making this known and you may wish to SHARE it in your networks for me?

It is something which is NOT a book but an opportunity to journey with your own soul.
Becoming - it's a BECOMING BOOK.
Interactive - with you.
Give it a glance ................

Blob Lent

Paperback, 86 Pages 

Lent is a time for change. It has always been so, and always will be. It is the journey towards the most significant event in human history - the death and resurrection of Jesus. This book enables the reader to reflect on why Jesus went into the desert and how we can apply those same ideas in our day to day lives. Each day includes actions and an opportunity for personal reflection using both words and unique images created for this book. An ideal resource for a personal companion during these forty special days.






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Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Inner City Youth Work. A life of scars and learning.

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Emotions on SPEED. Emotional Intelligence.

FEELINGS travel to the brain 4 times faster than thinking.
That's why we need to manage our emotions.
Otherwise they manage our behaviour and even relationships.
A skill to be developed for all of us.


Pip Wisdom
“The human soul is hungry for beauty;
we seek it everywhere
- in landscape, music, art, clothes,
furniture, gardening, companionship,
love, religion, and in ourselves.
When we experience
the Beautiful,
there is a sense of homecoming."

John O'Donohue

Personal bacteria.

As with bacteria,
we all have imperfection.
But differently.

So called 'celebrities'
thrive on a pretence that they are uncontaminated
but they are beautiful imperfection
like us all.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

I have changed. I am somewhere else.

.....and yet I feel we don't know each other

but excited we will one day/s

Love and respect
both apply to you - for me.

I would love a 121
as we have talked about
a curry next best thing
but we must aim for a good 121 
when achievable eh?

Glad/pleased you read the books
Always want to have people read 
when published.
Gutter Feelings ugly in parts
regurgitates ugly feelings/memories 
for me
but real
but where I was then
who I was then
but changed now
forever ...

I have another book 
almost done
about what I do NOW
Training experiences
Group Work experiences

Blob experiences
undressing the soul stuff
Don't know what to call it
'More Gutter  Feelings' ?

Your aim - My advice?
Humans ask me this.

I do not have any. I have no advice.
You know the context you are working in 
or will research to discover if you don't. 
You know what is comfortable for you and the participants. 
You will want to be non-oppressive. 
You will not wish to abstain from 
the spiritual element of development.
As for me, 
I need to belong but also seek.

I like the line 
"I don't want to live within the sound of chapel bell - 
I want to live within a yard of hell"
It seems to me that to live in the comfort zone 
is the place where freedom does not reside - 
because it IS comfortable. 
Working and living at stretch 
will be an encounter with the spiritual and for me - 
that is good.

" A caterpillar looks nothing like a butterfly 
but one develops from the other"
There is stretch in this, 
but ‘to fly’ is the spiritual!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Little Dragon - Twice - video.

A beautiful song I have loved for years.

Little Dragon - Twice

Emotional. Spiritual. Social. All vital.

Defining  Emotional Intelligence

Goleman believes people who have high Emotional Intelligence (EQ) have been shown to score higher on standardized tests, display less self-destructive behavior, get along well with others, are less depressed and anxious, and have better physical health. 
It consists of:

1. Knowing one’s emotions. Ability to monitor feelings from moment to moment.

2. Managing emotions. Capacity to soothe oneself, to shake off rampant anxiety, gloom, or irritability and the consequences of failure to do this.

3. Motivating oneself. Directing emotions towards a goal.

4. Recognising emotions in others. Ability to empathise with others.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

I love this mix - different and with quality BASS

Sufi Mix - Secret Archives of the Vatican

I love this mix - different and with quality BASS


couldn't sleep
writing blogs in my head
writing a magazine page
'Pearls of Wilson'

6 am 
up and out for a walk
in the rain
don't care
Gilles Peterson 
plugged into the soul
via the ears
rain on my face
breathing deep

I am at Joy Wilson Mansions
Whitstable resident.
first time
to stay
loving it
strange to be on pause

I walk to the sea-front
the day is light
no sun
the gulls scream
I love it

I walk past the The Old Neptune Pub
past the dinghy racing 
past the Oyster House
past the rent-a-beach-hut-signs
past the rich persons sea-front houses
think a fleeting envy
but don't feel that envy
reality is more important than fantasy.

Jazz in my ears
fused Jazz
hip-hop jazz
funk jazz
I like my life to be fused
I like the mix
desire the new
the unexpected
uneasy comes with ease
love unease
love yearning
love uncomfortable
love change
and the music does that as I walk on

Through the harbour
the tide is out
boats on mud
yet beautiful
the gulls agree
they call it out

I man with a dog says hello - or 'morning
that does not happen in London
50 humans squashed in a commuting tube train
not one of them says hello
or 'morning

Small town is waking up
and I walk and sit on the seawall
I see the mist shrouded wind farm
out at sea
I see large distant ships
journeying the world
I feel warmth inside
without the sun outside

The newspaper boys are on delivery
the newspaper shop is open
He works 13 hours a day
he tells me
then he gets the 'ump
all because I want a newspaper
with a 20 pound note
I don't apologise
But I sympathise
such wasted emotions I feel.

Back to Joy's
one hour of walking
miles of thinking
I am pleased I couldn't sleep.

Wilson dishing some great DUB music


Mala featuring Danay Suarez - 

Noche Sueños // Intimate Performance 4.44

Catch up from Pip

Little Conniepops has been ill all day. 
Good job it's not next week - 
a birthday girl!
Temperature and cough.
Hope it's only a one day bug.
To hear her say 'Hello Grandad'
in a voice like Tom Waits - cracks me up!

Mr Singh phoned today. He has been ill for a month over Christmas too. I have not had chance to curry with him due to busyness and weather in UK. We must curry soon.

Sheila has just dug out a pile of 45's from my garage for my juke box. She is keen to fill it with new/old records. It's great she will spend time on it. One day it will be hers.

Sheila 2 has a new TV DIRECTOR job. It's about 5 months this time. Great for her. It will mean MrsBeautiful also being childminder for a couple of days a week x 5 months.
She loves being a Grandma and Conniepops to the depth of her soul.

I am a out to have a guest blogger - all the way from prison. 
I am really pleased to have this special human adding to this space.
Details soon.

Tax need not be taxing. 
So the saying goes. 
For me it triggers years of failure at school when it comes to all things numbers. 
Mr Gove would say I am a failure in life because I was that at school.
We don't all develop the same way 
AND I believe
PS. My tax is done. A killer this time.

Borgen the best TV in the UK. 
Some great material in these show which could be used for social and emotional learning. 
Yes I will.

My sort of work takes some quality time to prep. Every gig needs real individual design as it needs to achieve the objectives of those who hire me.
Hard work but I enjoy the delivery best.

Enough. It's zzzzzzzz time.


Friday, January 25, 2013



UK view of Vancouver weather- come at me CANADA.

I have started to watch the weather in Vancouver because I am working there for a couple of weeks in March.
It seems at a similar level to here in the UK.
I will be pleased if it is pretty good because I will be spending a big chunk of the time 'IN CAMP' !

I feel for Mali. Fab music from Mali here - love it..

Thursday, January 24, 2013



"Love" in the Qur'an

A study of the word "love" in the Qur'an
Hubb Allah fi al-Qur'an
Farid Mahally

I am reading an article on LOVE
in the Qur'an.

You can find it on the web.

One of the most compact, penetrating discourses on love is found in I John 4:7-21. 
The word is used 27 times in these verses. The central basis for men to love one another is rooted in the nature of God Himself. "God is love." 
What is accepted as commonplace in Christianity is a dim reflection in the Qur'an. While "God is great" [Allahu akbar] is a statement of faith, affirmation and expression, "God is love" [Allahu muhibba] is absent from the attributes of God. 
Such a profound contrast between the two religions, Islam and Christianity, demands an inquiry as to why. 
Since Christians are known as "the people of the book" referred to in the Qur'an, it is appropriate for us to look at the Muslim holy book to seek to discern those elements of God's character described therein. 
This article seeks to categorize and analyze the various Qur'anic verses that incorporate the word "love."
A good read ................


"I have 
a lot of faith. 
But I am also afraid a lot, 
and have no real certainty about anything. 

I remembered something Father Tom had told me-
-that the opposite of faith is not doubt, 
but certainty. 

Certainty is missing the point entirely. 

Faith includes noticing the mess, 
the emptiness and discomfort, 
and letting it be there until some light returns." 

— Anne Lamott

Wholeness does not reside in a place called self.

does not reside

in a place called

Human Development
does not reside
in a place called

does not reside
in a place called

does not reside
in a place called


I scribbled this as I sped down the M1 one evening
guided by the unseen
but believing in
satellites .........

I had a piece of paper between my thighs
a pen in hand and/or mouth
head buzzing from a gig
beautiful humans
from the corporate world.

I was pumping adrenaline
motivated by intense interactions
challenging me
challenging them

So this came out of getting close.
Getting close enough to feel the vulnerabilities of other
mine as always ...........

I had to translate it when I got home .....

Wednesday, January 23, 2013


Male suicide rate 'at highest level in nearly a decade'

I have blogged about this times and times before.
This is a live issue.
Any human considering taking their own life
needs a friend to know that and offer/get some help.

The number of people taking their own life in Britain increased “significantly” in 2011, official figures revealed today, as the male suicide rate hit its highest level in nearly a decade.

A total of 6,045 suicides were recorded among people aged 15 and over, the Office for National Statistics (ONS) said, up 437 or 8% on the previous year.

The number of male suicides increased 8% to 4,552, which at a rate of 18.2 per 100,000 was the highest level since 2002. Female suicides also rose 8% to 1,493 or a rate of 5.6 per 100,000.

Last year, the Government announced a further £1.5 million in funding for research into suicide prevention among those most at risk of taking their own lives.

The pledge came as ministers unveiled a new suicide prevention strategy which aims to cut the suicide rate and provide more support to bereaved families.

The overall suicide rate in the UK increased from 11.1 to 11.8 per 100,000, the ONS said, while the highest suicide rate was among men aged 30 to 44 at 23.5 deaths per 100,000.

Among women, the highest rate of suicide was among 45 to 59-year-olds at 7.3 per 100,000.

In 2011, additional guidance was given to improve the classification of narrative verdicts at inquests in England and Wales.

A narrative verdict is a long-form, factual record of how and in what circumstances a death occurred and is used as an alternative to short-form verdicts such as suicide.

There had been concerns among researchers that these classification rules forced the ONS to record probable suicides as accidents.

So in 2011, the ONS identified common phrases used by coroners to terms allowed for the classification of intentional self-harm.

This additional guidance could have resulted in an increased number of narrative verdicts coded as intentional self-harm in 2011, the ONS said, which in turn could have contributed to the increase in the suicide rate.

Care services minister Norman Lamb said: "Losing a loved one to suicide is a tragedy. Even one life taken by suicide is one too many.

"The rise in the numbers of people committing suicide causes very real concern. We need to tackle this head on.

We published a refreshed Suicide Prevention Strategy last year precisely because we take it seriously. The strategy targets those most at risk by providing the right interventions at the right time.

"We also need to make sure information about treatment and support is available to those who need them, including those who are suffering from bereavement following a suicide.

"Giving greater priority to mental health services, and to improving access, are also critical. The Government has made its intent on this very clear through the first NHS Mandate."

from THE INDEPENDENT Newspaper.