Saturday, July 31, 2004

............. I often feel better at work than I do when not.
I suppose I have always been on a mission which isn't to have leisure and pleasure and holidays. Breaks are for re-creation for the things I determine as mission. I know that being wholistic is about the whole of life. Breaks and holidays too.

If you click this way you will have clocked that I and we enjoy the beautiful things of life. Love it.
Yet I yearn to fulfil my mission which is about beautiful things happening with humans. The most beautiful is when humans fall in love with
-the human world - the beautiful humans


...... and i have just ordered a dvd

The complete fourth series of the Simpsons! Episodes !!!
1. Kamp Krusty
2. A Streetcar Named Marge
3. Homer The Heretic
4. Lisa The Beauty Queen
5. Tree House Of Horror III: The Simpson's Halloween Special III
6. Itchy And Scratchy: The Movie
7. Marge Gets A Job
8. New Kid On The Block
9. Mr. Plow
10. Lisa's First Word
11. Homer's Triple Bypass
12. Marge vs. The Monorail
13. Selma's Choice
14. Brother From The Same Planet
15. I Love Lisa
16. Duffless
17. Last Exit To Springfield
18. So It Has Come to This: The Simpsons Clip Show
19. The Front
20. Whacking Day
21. Marge In Chains
22. Krusty Gets Kancelled


Friday, July 30, 2004

......... Mother in Law is with us for two weeks so I am doing all the music and dancing. Musical in the front room every evening - all my bad jokes ............. not really ...... but she is with us and, as with other house guests - we do all sorts of things which take you out of the social norm.

But I have had time to record excellent internet radio onto my hard drive and therefore iPod bound.
Weekly now is my Benji B Thursday midnight on 1Xtra. It is the best hip hop station and this is wide ranging stuff with a hip hop foundation.
The other is my long standing 3 hours of Pete Tong. All this is my listening for the week.
Missed out, you may have noticed, is my favourite DJ Gilles Peterson. That is because his programme has moved from my ritual Wednesday to Sunday at 11pm. More travelling vibes for this coming week.

There is now a ne Audio Hyjack to do this capturing and it has, the PR tells me, a system of waking up the hard drive which is an ongoing problem for me. Even when on 'never sleep' the iMac clock stinking sleeps and cocks up my recordings. I will have to invest $16 in the new software.

I note I have gone all techy and no feelings. Stink - what a weed I turned out to be. Or is it a mask? No don't think so. I love my music and feelings are part of that too. I have feelings about my sleeping clock.

I am feeling ok but, as always I am slowing up after a busy week and feel a bit sluggish. M in L duties took me away from some work today so will have to do some funky stuff in the morning.

I have recently completed two articles on Spirituality and Young people as an Asset. I think I will post them on my website when they are well and truly published in the magazines.

I don't know how you are feeling unless you tell me. Many people do. Sometimes by email, often in a group context, often in a one on one. I feel honoured to be given that that level. It is more than just fact. It is trust. It is risk, it is like undressing - the soul. I think our relationships move when we get to that. That level. Relationship building with God too. Those feelings shared with God in relationship - that too - a naked experience. I suppose I think that the best and nearest we can get to an eternal relationship - is that experienced/demonstrated by a good human one.
I am working on both.
I need help from both.

Glad Michelle has left Big Brother - just could not feel good about her insecure hanging on, - cling-on, relationship with her man.



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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

........ I am thinking how 'masks' are not the stereo typical wooden African masks. Masks are moving talking flexible things.

When I am running a group I aim for honesty.
I start often by telling my own honesty - making myself vulnerable.
The idea is, we learn about ourselves when we confront the reality of our lives.

I am paid and my mission is about doing this.
I would love to do more of this with groups of humans other than those classified as 'special needs'.

What I do see often - are masks. Flexey moving masks.
Often they are humorous masks. Jokey to avoid reality.
Sometimes cleverness. Witty comment -another avoidance.
Non - participation - another.
Being hard and aggressive - intimidation. Always there in my groups.
Superficial self revelation which is nor convincingly true.
Masks that move and talk - but where is the real?

When there is a real commitment to honesty - level five communication - that means there is some sharing of the darker side of a persons life - even when it is balanced out by saying a positive too. I like both. Reality through the lips.
That sort always sets a different climate. A climate of trust.
A climate of authenticity.
We are communicating when we get here. This also draws in other group members, which encourages steps forward in growth and development.

I heard today that a young man, under 21, who I know through many group work experiences, is dead. The second young life this year.
He knew that if he spoke up with honesty - the group would move forward and do great things. He knew it - and did it.

I suppose I am saying - we move on when we are real in terms of clocking where we are and, by telling others, we can start to work out the next steps. Positive steps. New direction. New hope. Spiritual. Developmental.

Why am I clicking this?
I guess it is because I believe that this is vital for me and for all of us.
It is also the Christian way - it seems to me. I am committed to that way.
I want to live it real.
I want to work it out.
That is where I am.


"Religion is when God leaves the room and people make up rules to fill the space."  --Bono

............ it is pretty late and I am not pretty.
I am buzzing with things to gush - to express - to unload. I have had so many interactions of challenge and excitement that I want to express them and I think you may connect with.

But not the time.

Thanx for being a pipwilsondotcom maker.
For the first time my webby site has had over 200 unique visitors in a month and this month not done and dusted yet!

You are good to be with ......... stay beautiful ............... and a question;

who would you like to be stuck in a lift with and why?
One question you would ask that person?
One question you would like that human to ask you?



Tuesday, July 27, 2004

............. I am using the post I have done (below) ......
-have a read
-print it out
-give it to someone
-talk about it
-be vulnerable yourself

we all have cracks - that's how the light gets in



A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on each end of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of the pots had a crack in it, and while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water at the end of the long walk from the stream to the master's house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water in his master's house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfections, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you." "Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?" I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work and you don't get full value for your efforts," the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path."

Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of the path but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."


Monday, July 26, 2004


"don't say nuthin"
The Roots new single
I got it on the album
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it is fab
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Greenbelt is ............ Youth festival, music festival, political festival, evangelical festival, development festival, broke festival, harvest festival… there’s something in all these myths about Greenbelt that is accurate, but nothing entirely true.

We come from ordinary Christian communities and from none, from being joined to worshipping families where the presence of God is regularly obscured, from places where artistic appreciation is confined to hymnody and flower arranging. We have a hunch there is more to it than this, that where two or three are gathered we can become more than the sum of our parts, maybe even a sign of another kingdom. For many of us, Greenbelt has been a kind of epiphany – an earthy sacrament, a rocking religion, an unruly faith in an untamed God, Spirit of wonder and compassion, celebrated with noise and passion, argument and laughter.

In a materialistic, anti-institutional era, where the church is marginalised and mocked, and religious icons of substance and charisma are hard to find, at its best Greenbelt remains singular in its faith-affirming, politically engaged, life-transforming experience. With many understandings of Christian community dying, one way people anticipate a new way of being church is through alternative meeting places and movements like Greenbelt. As the Canadian singer Bruce Cockburn put it, “The festival and the people involved in it are the closest thing I’ve got to a church. There is a sense of community built around a worshipful intent and a shared understanding of the need to question in the context of faith.”

BIG CHILL FESTIVALTHIS WEEKEND - it is a sell out and me missing it;
The Big Chill Festival happens this weekend in the picturesque surroundings of Eastnor Castle, Heretfordshire. The amazing line up features: Senor Coconut and his Orchestra, Ralph Myerz and The Jack Herren Band, Quantic Soul Orchestra, Mr Scruff\'s Afternoon Tea Sessions, DJ Derek, Asian Dub Foundation Sound System, Phil Asher, Mark Rae, Lolly\'s Mobile Disco featuring Chris Coco, Soul Of Man / Fingerlickin Sound System plus too many more to mention. Check for more details:

For those who can?t make it to the festival, you can catch the action on:
Featuring guests Tom Middleton & Mr Scruff in conjunction with Big Chill FM, then over for Gilles? live DJ set.
Keep it locked on Radio 1 for a special One World show straight after Gilles. Presented by festival founders Pete Lawrence and Katrina Larkin, they?ll no doubt be talking about some this years highlights with the odd unannounced guest dropping in.

....... on Saturday we had our first BBQ of the year with our guests Volker and Ulli.
This was also the first time I have sat on the patio this summer .... grrr.

The BBq went well until - right in the middle of me being grilled about the work I do and how bad I was at doing BBQs, when - when I walked to the roaring BBQ to view the gentle cooking of Joans well marinated chicken breasts - when - I found it to be Black as coal on the underside - well - how was I to know ...........

So this was 'black chicken day'. I really did concentrate well on cooking the sausages and kebabs after that.
Champagne helped to settle my nerves - in fact the chicken was nice if the black skin was removed.

We laughed ........

" The un-reflected life is not worth living"

don't know who said it but recall it was some-one with a famous name.


..... i saw this and I felt it - a thought about it so I want to click about it ........

"Those who speak and touch, it is powerful communication"

I saw it happen and felt - so good - to see it.

It wasn't me - but I love it.


Sunday, July 25, 2004

Church was the first gig today. Ulli and Volker with us - a German view of the Church of England via St Edwards in the Market Place - Romford. The 50 strong choir sounded Cathedral like today. The said it was good but certainly a new experience.

Afterwards we hit the Bell where in 1555 some soul was burned at the stake in the pub yard for being a Protestant. Germans shudder at this point.
The meal was fab and we took three hours and more to delight with three courses of stuff which would delight our French Chef friends from over the channel. It was dead heads and sleepy eyes for a few hours afterwards.

The rest of the day we were hanging out in the garden and indoors talking music/theology/communication/human behaviour/loving/being/becoming. These two flow with energy and words. All based in their work. All from incarnational life styles.

Not got any work done over the w/e but THAT'S WHY YOU TAKE A BREAK WILSON ...... I say to myself ........ but I need to do a ctching up tomorrow - I look at the watch and see it is almost Monday ................ so will post this before big ben booms ....... bless you in your specialness ..........

Saturday, July 24, 2004

............ Joan, Zig and Volker and Ulli our guests have gone to bed and I am here clicking and don't know what to say ........

That is because I am tired and ....... if you know me ....... I have always got a lot to say!

Volker and Ulli do a big job in the ymca of Germany and they are visiting us and enjoying a bottle of Champagne with us ...... great people as you can tell. They are doing the uk in their camper van and giving us a treat visiting us. I first met them in ...... think it would be about 1992/3 in Dassel and Kassel - that is Germany. They were at a conference for ymca staff European wide and I did some workshops ........... I remember we were given a challenge to come up with workshops so I advertised a 'kissing workshop' which some were worried about. I was pointed out that the camping workshop did not intend to go off camping nor the mountain climbing going off to mt Everest ....... so maybe the kissing workshop was about kissing - it was more about the theory and talking about kissing ............. which I thought sounded rather boring. The workshop was about how we make love ........................ make love happen in a world where humans cry out for peace and get little - scream out for love - and nobody knows how to give it away. So we did a session on love relationships and passion and we loved it! - and each other.

Otherwise today ..... I have been domestic - have you been to Tescos today?
Always catching up on the emails and concluding an article I have been writing on 'Young people are our greatest Asset' I may post it here or on my website some time later when it is published.

I feel ........ eyes are pricking ........ slight buzz in the head - not a an ache, rarely get those ................... inside I feel beautiful after some quality time with our guests and looking fwd to a fab day tomorrow with them.

Let us get some zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Friday, July 23, 2004

Had more hits on my web-site today than anytime in recent history
thanx if you hit
I feel good that humans take the time to click towards me.
It is like touching a fingertip on yours

had a day in the office today
catching - up - doing replies - communicating
that means filling my diary too
I like communicating - but not when I am late and delayed

James Gheni - a great man from Romford years - have not met him for 18 months
now fixed and delighted
great man
love to spend time with people I love and feel regret that I cannot do all I want

Got Volker and Ulli arriving tomorrow for a visit
friends from Germany -love em
again - I want to be with them more
again I want to 'become' with them more

I feel ok and good like - how do you feel in your soul - the centre of your being?

I feel loving - for many humans - this feels vulnerable as well as positive - loving so many makes me ache.
I guess some reserve love for a few.
I want to love - all.
I don't want to dilute my love
is that a danger or what?

So much to tell you - but feel I need a bit more time to dip the well of my soul
It helps to tell you - otherwise, I am certain, I would keep things in.
Who do you tell who you are?
Who you are becoming?


Thursday, July 22, 2004

Golden lyrics Jill Scott

I'm taking my freedom
Pulling it off the shelf
Putting it on my chain
Wearing it round my neck

Taking my freedom
Putting it in my car
Wherever I chose to go
It will take me far

I'm living my life like it's golden x 10

I'm taking my own freedom
Putting it in my song
Singing it loud and strong
Moving all day long
I'm bagging my freedom
putting it in my soul
I'll be be happy with y'all
Letting my joy unfold

I'm loving my life it's Golden x 10

I'm holding on to my freedom
Can't take it from me
I was born to it - comes naturally
I'm strumming my own freedom
praying to God in me
Representing his glory
hope he's proud of me

Living my life like it's Golden ........

....... now this is special ...... music again ..............

I have been raving about the pending new single by Jill Scott one of the best live performers I have ever EVER seen.
I had picked up a first listen of the song Golden on digital radio and wow
I am living my life like it's Golden

....... and have just downloaded the very song from iTunes/mac/music store for .79 pence ......... wish I could play it for you NOW ....... if you have iTunes and/or an iPod - suggest you have a wee look.

I want you to consider repeating after me ...........
I'm living my life like it's GOLDEN
...... his is a matter of opinion of course .......... but ..... Gilles Peterson on Radio, his last Wednesday night show .......... hmmm

If you can, I suggest you taste the programme from last night which is some of the best live sessions from his programme over the last five years.
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........ too late for sanity tomorrow ........... this is ......
but it is the last Gilles Peterson radio show for Wednesdays - as he moves to Sundays at 11pm next week.

This is just in from Big John and he gives me permission to share with you ....... it is all part of the Greenbelt build up ........ miss it if you dare ...........
hi pip
starting to prepare now for the main event of the year, mentally and physically.
Tried today  to book for 5 nights at the Thistle Cheltenham, but they seem to be fully stocked up.

The new hotel across the road from the Thistle is available, -  Travelodge -  so looks like me and jules and the baby grace (The Chick as we dearly call her), will have to book in there for the duration.

It would be nice to have a few pints and a cigar with you of a night, so its handy for me nipping over the road to the thistle bar (thats if you guys are staying there this year).

I have sent in all me stuff (forms for clearance and the like) to Katie who is organising the volunteers for the seminar recording and duplicating, i am really looking forward to giving my time and effort, thrilled in fact. Cant wait.

 For me last year's event was so special, i guess in the main because it was really unplanned and the way it worked out couldnt have been planned, by me anyhow.

I think the Great Planner had a hand in it.

If you can imagine it from where i stand.......

 'Accidentally' happened upon Greenbelt 20 years or so back

My girlfriend at the time (Jules) went there the previous year with Traidcraft as a volunteer and came back with good crack, so i naturally wanted to see what the fuss was about, mainly for the bands (being in one myself at the time)

First year i was there, jules says one afternoon ' we are going to see this 'seminar', a guy called Mike Yaconelli, fancy coming?

OK says I, skeptical I, more interested in hanging, getting high, chilling to the music, but ok give it a go.

 Funny name that, i think yaconelli.

Funny guy. He seems to be passionate about what he is saying, ears tickled, drawn to the words, the sense, the nonsense, as i say the passion.

Go away thinking..........

Hey this is cool, maybe call in on another seminar, dipping in to this, and that, when is that yaconelli guy on again i wonder.

 Wandering around after mainstage late on, whats on in here, wow a U2 vid!

Stinking Late Show! Apt! Sit down, wet arse,

@you are a beautiful human person@

 What! Get away! You are taking the piss man!

Oh, he really means it........... getting the vibe

I am a beautiful human person????

He obviously dont know me!

 Year after year, got to go to greenbelt

i have one thing in my diary, dont keep one really, not a planner, this is different.

This is where i got to be, not a church person, am a weak pray-er, still a pray-er.

If i have one this is it, my church.

Like it or lump it.

 Year after year, there, but kind of always on the fringe, not a mixer or a socialiser really, more an observer

John Smith and his God Squad - what the f***

Shit, he means it too

Its real

 Its created, creative.

 Never wanted a harley til i 'got to know' him through his seminars

 Always an observer.....

Close but so faraway

 This place is full of people like me, but not like me

The music, man the music, Bruce, Martin, Ricky, Steve, the guys...............

 2003, new baby at aged 38, big changes, we go back in our darlin's first year here on the big pebble, me and jules.

 Lets do it in style, no camping! no back of a van!

Hotel, pool, lets go back in style.

Let me go to my church and get down on me knees somewhere alone and say thankyou for my new baby, for our new baby, for the most precious physical gift i have ever known.

Lets go back to the place which, though only once a year has been there like a coat hanger for my faith since i started to let it develop.

So we did, and then we met, you and i, pip,  i said hello in the bar of the hotel.

You introduced me to your friends and fellow journeyers.

You welcomed me and i cant say what that meant, still means.

 2003, the year of blessings.
2004 ?

Best not plan it.

God willing,  let us be there.

 Big John



Wednesday, July 21, 2004

‘The place God calls you is the place where your deepest gladness and the world’s deepest hunger meet’.
Frederick Buechner, ‘Wishful Thinking’

...... I feel much with inarticulate speech of the heart ............


Tuesday, July 20, 2004

..... and it is nice to be back here with you ...... thanx for clicking in by my side - late night for me ................ even though for you it is .......... (fill in space)

Have been a bit on a non stop roll with going North for the funeral. Glad we did it and wanted to. Adds of course to busy life. Still in recovery a wee bit from driving - I now think - ten hours out of twenty six hours away from home. I am not in a groove to reflect about that experience but want to sometime soon. I need to click it out of my system.

Thanx for being one of 150 unique visitors to my website this month. Even though it has not changed for months, I am still getting you visit and getting about 10/15k hits a month - all from you unique humans ........ thanx.

I just want to say I am feeling .........

....... some people never say how they are feeling. Is it because it may be intrusion? Self intrusion? I don't know. I can only talk about myself and never use the words 'should' or 'aught' because they are a bit 'Daily Mail' ............. oppressive I mean. Oh my - how I dislike that newspaper and the language of slag - slag 'em off ....... anyone who is different. So full of shoulds ................

I am feeling tired/distracted/sleepless/deep/full on/searching/yearning/loving the people around me and know DAMN KNOW that it needs to be matched with a yearning love for those in the World I do not know.
Bless 'em.
God so loved the world eh!
How can I?

So I feel good but not as fresh as normal. I am aware of my incompleteness and desire to be more on the edge ...........

I will go.........
Leave you with a thought for the night/day .............

The best thing I know ....... the best thing I can say is .......

you are a beautiful human ...................
. thanx for clicking here .............. me? ......... ok/tired/experiential/buzzing/and it is late.

Have been on the road - car - motorway for about 9 hours in the last 24 hmmm.
Funeral of a dear Uncle. The four of us - the sheilas - for those new to the Wilson names - Sheila is the name they call each other - that is daughters Ann and Joy. It was all as a result of a visit they made when they were called 'the pommey sheilas'!

It was great to spend 24 hours with them. We don't often these days but both of them wanted to come to the funeral of Uncle Henry and mingle again with family we see so little. It is only weddings and Funerals which bring some families together and there are less weddings nowadays.

The service was a Catholic Mass and I have not been to one of those for sometime. Interesting how all the other Christian denominations actively encourage other Christians to take communion with them - in the Catholic Church I could not - and others, non Catholics, could not. hmmm

The door to the Church was just not visible to a stranger like me. Eventually by following the coffin and the other people we entered this large unkept building which left me with a mixture of feelings.

I will return to the experience tomorrow when I have slept a little ..... I certainly need 'beauty sleep' ........... zzzzzzz


Monday, July 19, 2004

.......... yesterday a late night four hour drive to get us 'up north' for a funeral today.
Back later into the rush hours traffic in London town.
Unusual for the Wilson Four to be with us but it is good to be together - as tired as we can be.

Yet another experience in the University of Life ..........

see ya later and thanx for a click this way .................... today you ARE beautiful ...


Sunday, July 18, 2004

....... Caroline did my new game on her website and if you paste this in you will see her soundtrack too

Thanx Caroline


Saturday, July 17, 2004


"Der Korper ist der Ubersetzer
der Seele ins Sichtbare"

Chrisitian Morgenstern

translating ............
( "The body is the translator of the soul into visibleness")

... this is what an opposing player say about my team - the Saints!

"........ who would I most like to play against in Super League. I would have to say that it is St Helens. When I was at Bradford, they are always the marker team in Super League and always the team to beat. They are unpredictable and, whilst teams like Wigan and Bradford are hard teams to beat, you know what you are going to be up against whereas Saints' gameplan changes a lot and you do not know what you will be up against. You can predict what Bradford and Wigan are going to do - Saints have an element of surprise about them."
...... this is what Google says when I put my name in the search ..........

Results 1 - 10 of about 35,600 for pip wilson. (0.37 seconds)

..........37 seconds ...... my life is .......... just 37 seconds .......... ........



that is - I guess
the name of the next U2 album

but I do not know where the missing album is


Friday, July 16, 2004

........... I am aware that I 'big it up' - about U2 even though there has been little news of late.
I am a big fan and that will be part of my blog - as is other music ........ music drills my soul full of holes so I leak emotion.

U2 stuff will hot up in coming months but I will connect that music - those humans, with the condition of my soul and the journey I am on ....... the direction - the activity I am proactive in and the reactive stuff too.

At the moment as I click;
1 I have big brother on cable tv - on silent.
2 I have 'one world' radio one - live on my knee pumping out the vibes wi-fi.
3 I am recording BenjiB from 1xtra onto my iMac hard drive for iPod transfer for eternity.
4 Zig is keeping me company.
5 Joan has gone to zzzeds
6 I am smoking a cafe creme and sipping cointreau hmmm

I feel ok - not great.
Life is full of cool moments and wonder-full ones.
Both tasted today.
All give me feelings and that is right and

My little mild cigar has gone out and I pause to click that.

I want to feel and disclose feelings.
Unless I disclose my feelings to you
You don't know me
you only know my activity
you only read my body language
you only feel me through the clicking of distant keys
I want to disclose - it is good for me
it is good for our relationship

sometimes I will be sad, frustrated, lonely, hurt, failing ......
amongst the golden stuff
when I tell you I hurt
that does not mean I am destroyed and lame
it means I am stretching my sensitivity to my interior
and not being an exterior human - only.

Today I met a new human - a number actually.
Within a few moments of meeting I had suggested that this persons life was worth a book to tell there story. I moved on to say a movie and then got excited with the person as I asked if the movie of the persons life would be;
action movie
love and romance
kick box
...... need I go on.
In conversation with the human I had clicked on a new way of doing a group session. Maybe a tick box thing.
THEN I asked - what would the sound track include? hmmm.

Maybe, just maybe, you could let me know via and eMail;-

Your movie -of your life
what genre ?
a couple of tracks on the sound track?

next time I see you (maybe the first time?)
I will ask you that question .......... it excites me .........


Thursday, July 15, 2004

........ I really appreciate it if people recommend my web-site and blog to others. It is also great if other web-sites, or blogs, give me a link so people can piggy back from yours (or your friends) to me clicking.

So thanx if you do .......... if not .......

I like the word 'consider'

... I suppose as a U2 fan I shudder at the impact if the new nicked album was relased onto the web before the reported 22 November release date.

This is how the NME cover it;

They Still Haven't Found What They're Looking For
NME, July 15, 2004
U2 have lost a CD containing songs from their forthcoming album, NME.COM can reveal.

The band have been working on the follow-up to ’All That You Can’t Leave Behind’ for much of the year. The album, which is said to have a working title of ’Vertigo’, isn’t due until the autumn at the earliest.

During a photo session in Nice a CD containing some new songs from the forthcoming album went missing.

Guitarist The Edge said: "A large slice of two years work lifted via a piece of round plastic. It doesn't seem credible but that's what's just happened to us...and it was my CD."

It is a multi million pound robbery it seems to me ...........

I am such a fan ...... I would hand it back to them without a listen .......... yes I would.
It would kill me !


Just picked up from the BBC wesite and I guess on others by now .........

U2's new album is expected to be released in November

A rough cut of a new album by U2 has gone missing from a photo shoot - prompting fears it may be posted on the internet months before its release.

Police in Nice, in the south of France, said the band had made statements about a possible theft after the shoot at a recording studio in the city.

About 20 people are being questioned about the material's disappearance at the Victorine studios on Tuesday.

The album, which has not yet been named, is due for release in November.
big news
can it be true

French police are trying to determine what happened to a CD of U2's new album, which went missing Tuesday night while the band was doing a photo shoot in Nice. The obvious worry for U2 (and Universal Music, for that matter) is that the songs will hit the Internet. The album isn't due for release until November 22nd, according to several Universal Music regional offices.

NME and have stories.



John O'Donohue returns to Greenbelt

"There is a deep beauty hidden in the luminosity at the heart of
soul... behind the dull facade of our daily lives.
Only in your solitude will you actually find it, find the neglected beauty
of your life!"

John O'Donohue

stinking wow


Could this be the Title of the pending new U2 album?

These website ads have been registered by a key U2 worker and it sounds like a good exciting title to me hey hey


“I’d say that one of the great dangers we all face in life is numbness.

We cease to notice we’re quite alive.

We forget our own potential, the richness of others and the complexity of things.

In this numb state the world seems predictable, known and boring.

One of the advantages of travel, and love and literature can do this too, is to reawaken us, to remind us we didn’t know what we thought we knew … “

Alain de Botton
The Art of Travel

U2 have revealed details about their 'aggressive' follow-up to 2000's 'ALL THAT YOU CAN'T LEAVE BEHIND', born out of guitarist THE EDGE's anger at BONO's involvement with world politics.

So says the headlines ......................... and me ........... I searched the web last night and a few websites say the new album will be out in November with a single in September.

There will be a great flood of increasing news as we get closer and maybe a few secret shows to deliver the single live and warm up for the major venues.

My favourite U2 website is
I click daily
Usually my soul is blessed
More excitement to come .......

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

............... using this with a group soon .........
Noise ......... see how it touches you ..... dig with it .... connect with it ..... ask yourself questions from it or with another human who is becoming ......

"Cynthia wanted some peace.
She boarded up her windows.
Lined her walls with egg cartons.
She blocked the chimney and ripped the phone off the wall.
It didn't work.
The bass from her neighbour's stereo came through the foundations.
A helicopter chopped her quiet into coleslaw.
Cynthia upped the ante.
She inserted ear plugs and covered them with ear muffs
Then she climbed into her bed and put a pillow over her head.
Only then did she become aware of the noise coming from the inside."

Someone leaving next week and looking good ....... from a hell of a life.
Someone messed up and ugly ..... feelings that is. I think beautiful.
Someone not speaking but involved in everything else.
Someone chocked and saying, gagging on the words, "my mother died".
Someone stumbling to link words together without making any sense.
Someone looking rough but mind still alive and saying real things about life.
Someone with eyes that match the chemicals of the day.
Someone fresh from spliffing plenty.
Someone, no two, hanging around within earshot but walking all the time.
Someone who said I am happier now than ever.
Someone once an addict to heroin, and a street sleeper, last week a drunk and this week looking smart and clean and clear headed..
Someone who has been rejected by parents and determined to get life together.

A group of late night humans sitting around with me and me trying to forge some sense of cohesion. Young uns age sixteen and a few a little older. They have lived a life too vivid for a soap opera. I know so many have never been so close to humans in such a mashed state and I love em.
We talk, I facilitate with all my might to have them settle down and focus, and we do .... eventually. Out comes real stories, life experiences, of a 'down time' in their life. We all have them eh? This was facilitated by a new blob figure drawing sketched today by my own hand. But anyone can read this paper ..... no words you see!
Once the first person opened up and was honest, the rest followed with ever increasing honesty and openness. We ended again with sharing a positive each. Never do I want to re-enforce the negative and hopelessness ...... hope is a vital concept and essential dream even though it maybe only one step, the next step.

I feel good because it was tough going at times but a developmental experience for all of us including me.

I hope all this makes some-sense to you rather than non-sense!
I write this stuff to unpack and trust it will interest you ass you interact with groups in your daily life.
One thing from me now. I found myself sharing with the group that the best peak in my life was packing in my big job to be with them. I feel so accepted by them. I feel so worthwhile and ........... a becoming beautiful human.

Uncle Henry has died.
He was a fond favourite Uncle on Joans side of the family. He used to play for Manchester United and later and longer for Stoke. So am am told. I never have been a Soccer fan. Rugby League like a stick of rock is me - lad.

We are doing a full family St Helens visit on Monday - travelling late Sunday night and back to the smoke late Monday.

Funerals are part of life - as is death and it is good to know it, face it feel it.

Remember the best of a person and support the living ones.

Someone said to me in a YMCA Hostel
"I am dead already"
Now that is something to be more concerned about. The ones who are physically alive but dead to themselves and others - and to God?
I don't know about that because I do not know the expanse of the love of God. I only dip my toe into my own expanse. I yearn for a greater plunge into the deep well of love - made available by our creator.

The glory of God is a person fully alive.

How near are you to the 'fully alive' end of the spectrum?

..... what can I say ...... I suppose I usually start with 'feelings'.
After many years of people development work - some people call it 'informal education', it is a regular activity to reflect on the day - the work - the mission (that is what it is for me) and some people call this 'reflective practice.

I wrote my first book from notes I did over years. 'Gutter Feelings" it was called. It was launched to a press who called it 'the cross and the switchblade of Britain'. That may not mean much to some. This was a book based in a New York context with street gangs etc..
I can go back to my notes thirty years and see details of who had a broken arm and how I built on a human contact because of this knowledge - remembering to ask about the arm could be vital when working with humans who did not give much away of themselves.
I added to the book my feelings - faith I was testing and discovering afresh - and my studies - especially 'emotional deprivation'.

So these late night clicks could end up being a resource for another life story as the first book only covered the first forty!

So how am I FEELING? - I feel good, tired, satisfied, sleepless, stretched and aware of screaming outside which turns my soul - the are not screams from a comforted soul!
I feel best when I sense humans have stepped forward a wee bit. I have seen people trust me a little and also the group they are in. I see them stretching a foot outside their comfort zones where growth resides. I see a new gentle smile on faces and some lingering later and later.
I will need to reflect now and come back at this - and I need to drink a pint of water.

.......zzzz good night - precious beautiful humans ............. bbelievinginthat ......


Tuesday, July 13, 2004

......last month .... I had 12,703 hits on my website ................ thanx to you and thanx to Charlie who has been working for months to totally turn it, the new website, into the best in the world ............ well ..... forgive me ......... you usually do .............

It will ROCK ........

you are special .................


I am living my life like it's Golden

.............. the rest of this week is full on work .......... back to more a normal life after gigging around for the last month.

The beauty of my life is being with a spectrum of people.
Those at the bottom - disregarded.
intelligent high flyers.

Which one are you?

...... today Joan ...... the woman who I married some (almost) forty years ago, I wonder if it will last, ........... we found a FAB new pub which serves meals which gets it into the Michelin Red Guide for the UK.

We slipped out and, midst the day of doing a mixture of things and prep, we did the pub which will now become a favourite 'day off' haunt. I would love to take you there ............. how about it?
We started the meal with a half bottle of Champagne ........... what more can I say.
We were celebrating ............... er .......I cannot think of anything ...............

............... downloaded THE ROOTS today from iTunes/music store costing £7.99 for the album.
Fab to get it instantly.
Fab to get it and burn it on a cd as quick as a cup of coffee.
Fab that there is no wrestle with credit cards and forms
Fab that ............ I just like it .............

ps the album is called 'the tipping point' and it is rap/hip hop
...... been to a Greenbelt Management Group tonight - the people who really put the festival together - the best experience in my life

I first went to GB when I was working in the east end of London - leading a project working with youth Gangs ........ the highest crime rate in the country ...... the worst schools ..... worst housing ............ and I was battered. I hit a time in my life when my Christian faith, hot gospel, up front ten years of experience MENT NOTHING and I crumbled and had to learn that there was a difference between
................. I had to change to a team approuch rather than the 'I am the leader' type.

Greenbelt met me where I was
thin theology
charismatic leader
know it all
black and white
I had qualities too ........... but at the time I needed a button to refresh the faith.

I became a radical Christian. I guess other labels could be used. I became a 'doing theology' Christian. Massive still as a passionate Christian - but wanting to step outside the faith I was converted into - to a contextualized one - a faith worked out in the flesh.

I have been on that road since - the road less travelled - the road where I want to be unsettled, uncertain, incomplete, restless, yearning, becoming, ....................

Greenbelt does something to the fresh faith glands and I am pleased/come yearning for more ...............


Monday, July 12, 2004

.......... anyone want to come a clubbing with me to see some great stuff and a Bud and at my Favorite Club?

this is what they say about it
August 14th
Mark De Clive Lowe drops tracks from his new album at Destination Out August 14.
He?ll be performing live with guests Kaidi Tatham (Agent K, Bugz in the Attic), Abdul Shyllon & Vanessa Freeman (Chillifunk).
1 Xtra?s Benji B is on the dex alongside Solid Groove, remixer of Casual Records stomping new single ?Almighty Father? by Sunship.


If God had a refrigerator,
your picture would be on it.

If He had a wallet,
your photo would be in it.

He sends you flowers every spring.

................ for you
....... and I was telling you about the APS conference last week ....... I belong. The principle of belonging to a peer led association of staff who serve 7000 members covering the home four nations is primary it seems to me. Of course we are fragile. We struggle with a large group of takers and only a few makers.

I am off the committee after about five years of work including being editor of Y's Talk the APS magazine see
I believe yet I am out of the making but will support as much as I can. I believe and want the network to become stronger.

One of my memories of the conference was Sheena and Kelly appearing in front of me like angels - and passing to me a bottle of Bud ............ like a little blessing - freely given hmmm

My mind is full of wee pictures of the people and our interactions hmmm

..... I wept tonight when I saw a Jew and a Palestinian hug each other.

It was a TV programme which I taped for possible use, as I do with Big Brother when I am in.
I suppose the issue is about;
-there is no Jew or Gentile
-slave or free
-male or female
all are one in Jesus ................ (pip stumble through a Bible verse).

It does NOT mean, it seems to me, that we lose our sexuality when we fall in love and attach ourselves to the Maker. It does not mean that our nationality will change, or which football - rugby team we support or stopping being an Hells Angel to become suited and booted! What it means is an interior transformation of a continues kind.
It means we can hug.

It means we can hug a human from another racial group who associate with the the persons who murdered their son - as in the TV programme tonight.

It links to the 'oppression' blog I did below - methinks.

'I am wearing my freedom like a chain around my neck ......'... these are the words from the Jill Scott song I mention below.

I am living my life like it's Golden .......... that is the song title .......... one day you will be singing it too.

You are Golden ................

Sunday, July 11, 2004

......... here I am just raising my head from a brain shower at home. Mainly doing nothing structured. Nothing strategic. No deadlines. Just chill man.

Last week I was at a conference of YMCA staff from around the four home nations. One session we were shown images of people and scenes of horror or beautiful places. We were asked to put our finger on our 'passion' as indicated by a photograph. I was interested how I picked two
1 was in the positive - a number of pix depicting art forms.
2 was in the negative - I chose an image of children behind bars - in a cage.
My passion is for the beauty and the experience of creativity/art. I believe that this does deep things in our soul. We are made in the image of God (it says and I believe). Being creative is doing 'shalom'.
The second and deep passion is against oppression. Children of course. But equally the day to day oppression which we humans can drill down on each other. Churches do it, homeless projects can do it, even educated flees do it.
(Ghandi was asked what was the worst thing he had experienced in all his years of self sacrifice, violence against his person and poverty. His answer was
"The hard hearted of the educated")

One of the worst things we can do is be oppressive. God save me from it as I click these keys. We can put people down. Ignore. Turn off the ears, turn up the mouth and we have eyes that don't see and therefore not feel the pain of those we are oppressing.

So this little time with myself and a group - spoke to my stumbling soul and reminded me of my inner passions which need to be outer passions MORE.
Down with interiority and up with exterior lifestyle.
Mind you the 'interior' is the place to start the work.
Jerk the soul till it bleeds daylight!

Everyday is a learning day.
I am living my life like it's Golden*

* Just wait 'til you hear this new song by Jill Scott.
Who is jill scott?
Just paste that one line into play dot com and buy the album
BUT the song above* is yet to appear - watch this space.

.you are precious ................
It’s funny: I always imagined when I was a kid that adults had some kind of
inner toolbox, full of shiny tools: the saw of discernment, the hammer of
wisdom, the sandpaper of patience. But then when I grew up I found that life
handed you these rusty bent old tools – friendship, prayer, conscience,
honesty – and said, ‘Do the best you can with these, they will have to do.’
And mostly, against all odds, they’re enough.’
Horror's index: The cost of the Iraq war

987: Number of coalition forces killed between March 19, 2003, and July 5, 2004
693: Number killed after President Bush declared the end of official combat operations on May 1, 2003
9,436: Minimum estimate of the number of Iraq civilians killed as a result of the U.S. invasion and occupation
40,000: Estimated number of Iraqis injured
14: Average number of violent deaths per month in Iraq in 2002
357: Average number of violent deaths per month in Iraq in 2003
30: Percentage of Iraqis unemployed before the war
60: Percentage of Iraqis unemployed in the summer of 2003
$151,000,000,000: Amount spent on the war through the end of this year, pending Congressional approval
$3,415: Monetary cost of war per U.S. household, on average
54: Percentage of Americans polled who felt that "the situation in Iraq was not worth going to war over" (Annenberg Election Survey)
52: Percentage of soldiers who reported low morale, according to a March 2004 army survey
28.2: Percentage of soldiers in Iraq who screened positive for traumatic stress, anxiety, or depression
34: Number of detainee deaths as a result of interrogation methods currently under investigation by the U.S. military
20,000: Number of private contractors performing traditionally military jobs in Iraq
1: Percentage of Iraqi workers involved in reconstruction projects
$160,000,000: Amount spent by major contractor Halliburton on meals that were never served to troops
82,000,000,000: Number of U.S. children who could have received health care coverage with the funds allocated to the war by the Bush administration

Sources: Foreign Policy in Focus, The Wall Street Journal.

...... it has been a domestic catch up day today with the vital Tesco visit.
Great to have a curry with friends. A BBQ would be the social norm this time of year but ............ the current weather both here and all the UK is 'cool' and I don't mean trendy!
It is also wet wet wet and I don't mean a Scottish sloppy pop band.

The next few weeks will be busy with a range of bhp guests in the wilson home. I will keep you briefed so you can tell me if we are good enough hosts.

I have yet to unpack the week behind and I am already living the future. hmmm.
I need to reflect and I will do. The soul yearns for self understanding but the well is so deep - I need the rest of eternity to yearn and discover.

It is late and I cannot even focus on the things I have done today BUT one is - I have booked the Polish flight for our visit to the wedding of Anita and Tomek.

Signing off .................. you beautiful human ................ see you in my dreams ....... and back here on this channel tomorrow zzzzzzzzzzz


Saturday, July 10, 2004

Friday, July 09, 2004

... this is really Friday ..... the blog below was clicked on Thursday/late wednesday night when I was away and now posted. This is real time and just want to say i am home and tired and drained and need to relax - but got the w/e off hey hey.

I have lots of feelings and happenings to reflect on - so - you will get them - like it or not.
It's like this
- I 'have' to blog
- you have the choice or not to read!

hope it will be worth a glance when it comes. This is just to say hello and - will get back to you as soon as I get my head on!

beautiful - you are!

..... I am offline and well into tomorrow as I battle with early morning after a long and wondrous day.
I have moved from working with beautiful humans in the depth of London Town - great but often full of struggle humans ................. to a conference of people who are working with people like ~~~~ I do.

Here I am after a few drinks in the bar following the evening fun - clicking because I wnt to express myself as much as I want to be with you.

I have met today some people who I have had - they tell me, a profound influence on. I have never met them close before and here they are telling me these things.
At the same time there are people here who have are having profound experience here and now.
Me too.
It seems there are generations of people who are of significant to each other. I confess that it seems that I am at the end of a the generations and others are following on. It is surprising that there are people so influenced by reading or using my books, visiting The Rolling Magazine Show, or have been to workshops over the years. I forget these things. I forget how much influence we have on one another - it is good to tell.
It is a delight to see those people now being a similar influence with others. WOW. Lovin it.

It has been a long day but I wanted to express who I am NOW as it is fresh and not contaminated by tomorrow.
Tomorrow is Thursday. (I will post this when I get home).
Tomorrow is a new day.

I am living life like it's Golden

Tuesday, July 06, 2004


“Maybe nothing is more important than that we keep track, you and I, of these stories of who we are and where we have come from and the people we have met along the way because it is precisely through these stories in all their particularity . . . that God makes himself known to each of us most powerfully and personally.”

Frederick Buechner (Telling Secrets , 1991)



True drops of love

We must not think that our love has to be extraordinary.
But we do need to love without getting tired.
How does a lamp burn?
Through the continuous input of small drops of oil.
These drops are the small things of daily life: faithfulness, small words of kindness, a thought for others, our way of being quiet, of looking, of speaking, and of acting. They are the true drops of love that keep our lives and relationships burning like a lively flame.

- Mother Teresa


........ here I am at the office ................. of the big industry of dealing with the human crumbling kind ......... and as usual they are helping to put 'humpty dumpty pip' together again.

I find that being with bruised reed, with dimly burning flaxes - I am touched by the stories and the journeys so that it inspires my soul. I am on stretch making contact with so many new people and sensitively renewing human vibes with those I have met and still don't trust me.

A group just now included an 86 year old man who is walking the Thames river and he dropped like an Angel to visit us. Here we all were - listening and interacting with a D Day soldier and a fit one. At the same time I was meeting the newly hurting homeless and hostel humans residing. The affirmation comes at me too - it is great that, when there is a climate of trust cultivated, the people at the bottom of the economic and social pile AFFIRM each other and even me.

......... I am reflecting deep here and will need to take time out to dig deeper .....

so work like you don't need the money
sing like no-one is listening
dance like no-one is watching
love like you have never been hurt


I like this .............. it says deep things ...............
They asked of Aslan,
the lion,
"Is he safe?"
Those who knew him replied,
but he is good."

- CS Lewis, The Chronicles of Narnia.


Monday, July 05, 2004

U2 news or speculation fro @U2dotcom .........

July 05, 2004
posted by: m2

Overheard on various mailing lists and via emails from fans to @U2....

According to sources in the touring industry:

Tour will start in March in Miami.

Tour will be in arenas.

Signatures Network (group that runs will take over the role Propaganda served before, offering a paid fan club membership with one member benefit being access to concert ticket pre-sales.

Ticket pre-sales are scheduled to start in late November, around the Thanksgiving holiday in the U.S.

As for the album, a fan who recently returned from Dublin was fortunate to be able to hear 12 new songs (probably the whole album!) and says "They're fantastic!!! Two are ballads, and three are pure rock, very fast rhythm. One has "Electrical Storm"'s guitar riff, I suppose it's the same as another fan told it is between "Electrical Storm" and "Beautiful Day." One has a bluesy tone and the others are more melodic. Two have a very powerful bass line." (Thanks to K and R for reports....)

In somewhat-related news, we have removed the link to the "All Because of You" clip at the request of the person who made the original recording. The recording was shared with other fans, one of whom ignored the taper's request to post anything online. Welcome to U2 fandom in the 21st century....

........ well .......... how are you?
How is your soul?
Have you done something today which scares you?
Have you met a new human?
Have you used that persons name?
Looked in the eye?

Have you stepped one step onwards for today?
Have you also stepped one step for tomorrow?
Do you feel beautiful?
You are beautiful.

I have kicked a little darkness 'till it bled daylight - today.
I have met some special people and set out some options for the future.
I have planned some for the week away this week.
Other things I will have to busk it.
I don't know how I will find people tomorrow.
Some will be gone - out of my life.
Others will be there as newday humans.
They will have moved like - 'you never step in the same river twice'.

I have been changed by Greece and Norway.
I have new scars - new experiences - new awareness.

So I will move from being close to those with special needs to my peers together in conference.
I will meet their needs with my needs.
I will lead.
I will take.
I will make.

I want to receive and discover new things.

New Experiences.

I am moving ahead as I click tonight. Yet I am aware that I have not told you who I am.
I feel ok and, I guess you know, I feel reflective.
That's ok for me.
Still yearning.
Still searching.
Still wanting to walk in uncertainty.
Still becoming.
Still refreshing the irritation.

And to you ............
.............................. hope you are ok and,
even if you don't feel beautiful,
you will live to make your life an act of love.


Sunday, July 04, 2004

........ being on holiday has been an influence by Joan and me on the nation of Greece.

Congratulations Greece

I rejoice with you.

I can see our holiday town dancing in the street as I delight for you ..............

..... had some big problem with multiple repeated posts below but think I have deleted them now ........... but there seems to be a delay at bloggerdotcom

wished I was a nerd!


Saturday, July 03, 2004

....... this/these are the words I did sometime ago about the workshops I am doing this week ................

Workshop for APS

Human Being and Human Becoming

-          eyes wide open

-          enlarging the capacity to love

-          emerging the real

-          living with PASSION

 A workshop looking at ‘life management’ and development of our whole person

A workshop of journeying with a group to step forward from routine.

A workshop of gentle stretching our potential.

A workshop touching spiritual self and Christian principles.

A workshop developing the ‘ymca taker’ and the ‘ymca maker’

A workshop to ‘take away’ only what you chose.

 Pip Wilson will lead a group which will be facilitating a journey into whole person development.
Methods will be group processes and experiential learning in a climate of trust.


..... this I did some time ago when asked to do a Biog for the Conference brochure .............

pip wilson biog
APS Workshop
Pip Works with several YMCA's as a group worker with Residents and also as a Staff Trainer. He works experientially to create learning experiences and reflection which facilitate the development of individuals, the group and wider into the community.

Former life was leading a large ymca on the east side of London, leading a youth team in the East End of London working with Youth Gangs as part of forty years of experience working with young offenders.

He has published four books but carries far more scars than that.
Life has been feelings of failure more than success.
Life is considered a mission not a career, a journey not a destination and an irritation to be refreshed regularly.

Books and other published works are usually games and exercises to create fun, thought, self revelation, development and a beautiful experience for both participant and leader.

Christian faith is not as important as 'wholistic development.'
Love is a doing word.
Peace making
is not as good as
Love making.


Some four years ago my album of the year was 'who is jill scott'

I saw her first life show in London town.

Her new - second album is ready

long awaited

yet unheard

today I heard the first play of her new single
from the new album

"I am living my life like it's golden"

. I am a bit more chilled than yesterday ..........

Watched a movie on tv last night to relax and thats a laugh. It was about the Krays, infamous East London gangsters. Hmm.
I know a little about that scene - or did in a certain era and - they got it bad and sad. I also saw the worst death scene ever. It would have been better in a Dads Army programme. hmm

Tried to relax by watching the Saints on tv and they got beat. Well beat. We played well but Wakefield were into a giant killing mood and hit us hard. We had some of our stars missing and it told. hmmm

The Cointreau was good last night and a cigar Joy got me on return from Majorca. It was a Davidoff 'Geneve'. hmmm

Downloaded my first album from iTunes/Apple music store yesterday. Cost 7.99. Much cheaper than play dot com - my usual drug supplier. It was a Bugge Wesseltoft album, all jazzi and moody. hmmm

Seeing the Sheilas tomorrow after Church. Lunch at Joys. Love these daughters who are adults and accept me as one. There are so many parent/child relationships that keep the kids 'down' and the kids keep the parents in a 'parent ego state'. Never relating adult-adult. I find I love them more as years go on. hmmm

Beef on the bone .............. Paul Sculthorpe our captain fantastic is to be the new Gillette face. The tri nations Rugby League games are due here in the Autumn and he will be on telle doing a shave or two. Big scraggy beef-on-the-bone hero ........ and I guess somewhat richer. hmmm


Friday, July 02, 2004

.... I am still up after a strange day. Really didn't feel relaxed until we had a meal around 6pm. Otherwise I was restless and flat. Lack of energy. Trying to do stuff but dragging a weight around the home.

The plan, the game plan is to have a w/e to get our heads together and ready for next week when I am away again for most nights.

So feel good no other than natural sleepiness.
Have BenjiB on my mactop and recording it (I hope) for multiple listening on the iPod. Having problems again with the system.

I am going zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

They asked of Aslan, the lion,
"Is he safe?"
Those who knew him replied,
"Safe! No, but he is good."
- CS Lewis, The Chronicles of Narnia.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

...... this worth a hmm or two hmmm

hmm is........
The evidence suggesting the new U2 album title comes in the form of three domain names which were registered last week,,,

The domains were registered June 22nd by a James Cooke of Dublin, and all domains point to nameservers at Digital:CC -- that's the Dublin-based web and multimedia production company co-owned by Adam Clayton's brother, Sebastian. Cooke is listed as the contact person for Digital:CC at the company's listing at



........ if you had asked me I would have told you

U2 have been voted the best band of the past decade in an online survey of 100,000 people.

In the survey, conducted by FHM, U2 topped the poll for best band, ahead of the Red Hot Chili Peppers, Oasis and Coldplay.

U2 also scored well on the album poll with 'All That You Can't Leave Behind' being voted the fourth best album in the last ten years.

The Red Hot Chili Peppers' album 'Californication' topped the poll as the best album of the last decade, while Oasis' claimed the second place spot with 'What's The Story, Morning Glory'.

Eminem's 'The Marshall Mathers LP' was voted the third best album of the decade.

In the same poll, 'The Matrix' was voted as the best film of the decade, with 'The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King' placed second and 'Pulp Fiction' claiming the third place.

© RTE, 2004.

.......... if you paste this into your browser you can read a fab interview with Martyn Joseph



LONDON, England (CNN) -- The two most senior members of the Church of England have told British Prime Minister Tony Blair the Iraq jail abuse scandal has damaged the coalition in the eyes of Muslims.

The Archbishop of Canterbury Rowan Williams and the Archbishop of York David Hope delivered their rebuke to the Blair in a letter that was posted on the church's Web site Wednesday.

"The apparent breach of international law in relation to the treatment of Iraqi detainees has been deeply damaging," said the letter, which was written on behalf of 110 English bishops.

"The appearance of double standards inevitably diminishes the credibility of Western governments with the people of Iraq and of the Islamic world more generally," it added.

"More fundamentally still, there is a wider risk to our own integrity if we no longer experience a sense of moral shock at the enormity of what appears to have been inflicted on those who were in the custody of western security forces."
..... feeling a bit flat today
dirty clothes
tools of engagement
Games fax - my filofax containing every game I ever created
receipts - need to do the finance bits too

zig keeps lying down in front of me and rolling on his back

I am in a cuddle with a milky coffee

Gilles Peterson streaming loud

unpacking ..................

..... I don't have many fridge magnets but the post below is one of them

from the bhp-Julie Benson

and yesterday when I arived back to planet wilson - there was a little parcel from Julie Benson Julie Benson
from USA
with a tee shirt
printed front and back
I am unique