Thursday, April 30, 2009


He makes a living out of it.

Today had half a day off travelled into London Poshville Kensington ya ya.

My old friend Len -
we had not met up for years.

We used to meet up 2/3 times a year.

He used to take me to ART!

(What is art?)

We met up and did a Banksy exhibition.
Then we lunched and talked talked.

Loved it loved it loved it
(I would love to that with you sometime).

He is a great man.

I posted a picture of him yesterday.
He is a photographer

I am a snapper.

He has three beautiful kids.

I have two beautiful adults.

He is a Greenbelter

snap !

Beautiful human.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Beautiful Humans ask me::
- how's work?
- how's the search for a home?
- When is 'Gutter Feeling 2' coming out?

They are main ones.
The others revolve around my
listening habits
U2 gigs
I wonder what others ask you?
Beautiful Joy is in Mexico.
A fashion shoot
has been there for a week.
Has had some preventative medicine there.
Now the crew have been asked to stop their work
and get home....... asap.

The last I heard from Sheila is -
she is homebound via LA.
Due home tomorrow - if all goes well.
She was due home on Friday
Just before a Family meal out.
I trust she is OK.
Work is great
Working out has been wondrous.
Working at home - always backlog/logjamming.
A bit up and down in terms of flow.
Quiet times ahead -
and then the telephone rings-
and email pings!!.
Home - still looking.
No home on the Horizon yet.
I keep using the words::
It is no good having a faith
and then not using it
when times are
big times
tough times
hurting times.
I am trying to treat this as
another set of crossroads
just like many
behind us
before us.

Not much to lose really!

Went to see a rental place today.
All short term - no permanence.
Worse than that
no place for Zig to run around.
No back door.
You cannot paint it, personalise it.
Or change the joint in anyway.
So we keep on looking.
Gutter Feelings.
Still want to get this edited
get it on Lulu dot com.
Sell it -

It is all about Gangs
Emotional Deprivation
Emotional Literacy
Group Work
Youth Work
Handling Police injustice
Standing alongside the poor
Faith faith faith in action
Principles into practice.
Relational Work
Experiential Developmental work.
As topical now as ever.
I also have study I did in 1979.
Young Human teenagers
Emotional Deprivation
Structure of Gangs
Working with them
on the streets
in the pubs
in the mini-bus
in groups
Emotional Literacy it is called now.

It is about 25,000 words.
Never been typed since computers were born
Needs a volunteer to type it?
Change real names to pretend.
Lulu dot com awaits
Anyone out there?
I am going to gigs in Dublin and Glasgow.
Maybe more if someone loves me enough.
Maybe no more if we are moving home!
Come to think of it -
it is nice being asked questions
kinda caring of me
interested in me
I like that ...................

Greenbelt: Visual Arts 08 from Nathan Jones on Vimeo.
Please Hear What I Am Not Saying
Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear a mask,
I wear a thousand masks,
masks that I am afraid to take off,
and none of them are me.
Pretending is an art that is second nature with me,
but don't be fooled,
for God's sake don't be fooled.

I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me,
within me as well as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.
But don't believe me, please.

Monday, April 27, 2009

It wasn't the widest spectrum
but last week it was pretty wide.
A week of experiences
always learning
always stretching
always failing
always knowing I will.

I was asked to work in a school
with ten beautiful humans
all day with one group
"challenging and needy"
Nothing more that I desire
than group work,
massive the challenge.
Only one fight.
I love it love it.

I expect to struggle
I welcome every glimmer of hope
I welcome the smallest response
I encourage it.
Hardened faces do not respond.
But I believe that the interior can change.
Vision over visibility.
I believe there are seeds in there.

The good thing
beautiful the feet
I can work with the same group again,
becoming relational,
becoming personal,
becoming Level Five.

I give 100% of all I imperfectly am.

On the other end of this weeks spectrum
a multi billion dollar turnover corporation.
Team facilitation which I love.
Clientele totally different
beautiful humans all the same
beautiful to be with.
Open faces, articulate, responsive.
No physical fighting!

I am odd in this environment.
No threat
ignorant in their world
but loving conducting their processing
and stirring their cup with sweetness.
Another privilege.
I love it love it.

I am offering 100% of who I am.
My beautiful imperfection.

Bang in the middle of the spectrum of the week
a little family run Italian Restaurant - Da Mario.
It is the home for our Level Five Group.
We have been meeting for 29 years.
On Friday we met - eight of us - heaven.
(If you are new to L5, search this blog above
you will soon discover the delights of L5)

A bonus was personal to me
A bottle of Cointreau! Champagne! Coffee Perc!
and other beautiful delights.
Thank you for gifts, the best=relational.

I notice that everyone is still imperfection.
Each one stumbles
each one fumbles
each one incomplete
beautiful imperfection
I feel so at home in this wee community.

We will meet three times more this year,
A week end together.
A garden BBQ on a very special day.
Another Da Mario.
Next year we are 30 years old.

Intake a deep breath with me .....................
another deep and slow .................
breathe on me breath of God ....................

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Do You Know Where Your Soul Is? Read Bono @

listening to Thomas Dybdahl
Just listened to Beatspoke.

Been so busy - not blogged
Been so busy not answered emails.

Describe your life right now in five words?
Will ya?

Katie sent me::
focusing on beautiful

Will you do me a favour?
Below - the blog just below this -
could you cut and paste it into your Blog?
(It does the paste thing well with pic and colour)

For thirty years the Blob Tree has only been on a CDR Selection or in several books.
As for just/now/just
it is available as a single download in digital format.

If you Twitter/facebook/Blog
could you spread the news for me.
Email friends?
Tell your own Blob Tree Story
to me and I will blog it.
On your own website

Maybe download yourself and do it with family/friends/@work - it is a wondrous experience

Have so much catching up to do
Must do must do
but also need to blog

Saturday, April 25, 2009

The Blob Tree

by Ian Long Pip Wilson

Copyright: © 2009 Pip Wilson and Ian Long Standard Copyright License
Language: English
Country: United Kingdom
Edition: First
Download: 1 documents , 438 KB (Click for details)


Way back in the 1980s, Pip Wilson and Ian Long generated this image for use with young people who couldnt read or write. 30 years later it is used throughout the world as a tool for helping all ages to share how they are feeling. The tree can represent any group, family, workplace, organisation etc.

Friday, April 24, 2009

What an I say?
I have so much!

I am called in to work with a group
needy - challenging behaviour.
And I love it.
Knowing it will be heart wrenching
knowing it will be hard work
knowing it takes time
knowing that I need to earn respect
knowing it is not given freely
knowing I don't deserve it
knowing that I feel deeply about these young humans
knowing that they are insecure
knowing that I don't blame them
knowing that a relationship needs to build
knowing that they will eventually trust
knowing that they will take away something special
knowing that next time we will be closer to touching finger prints
knowing that this is the long haul
knowing that I will be stretched to limit
knowing that only they can burst the bubble they are in
knowing that the need to see a different option than they are in
knowing that there are limited options
knowing that there is other roads for them to choose
knowing that they see through a glass darkly
knowing that I need vision over visibility.

That just leaked out of the soul.
I cannot tell you the details.
But it is about entering the unknown.
About stretching everything to touch them.
So that they can reach themselves.
And a heavy burden can be lifted.
I believe it can happen.
Have seen it so many times.
Unconditional love works.
Love is the answer.

We can use techniques, skills, tools.
We can have the theories of Emotional Deprivation.
Emotional Intelligence.
Emotional Literacy.
Group dynamics.
But a love that will not let me go .......
stinking wow.

Got so much to reflect but busy.
Sunday is the first time I will be free.
Then I will flop I guess.

I will then answer emails.
Respond to some.
Let others slide.
Especially the ones who love me.

Three new books have arrived this week.
I want to consume them immediately.
Using the wisdom in my life and work = MISSION.

Hope you can scramble through the above
understand some
like some
disturbed by some
love some
puzzle some!!

you are beautiful