Today
It was my last day as an employed human.
I started employment when I was 15.
Straight from school.
I wouldn't call it education.
That came later.
I am still on catch-up.
I wish I had started telling you earlier.
How ignorant and stupid I am.
I pretended for years
that I was cleverer than I was.
I believe we all do that.
Pretend to be more than we are.
More than we feel.
Do you agree or -
am I off the planet?
Anyway -
I have left the workplace.
Sad but not shattered.
Not destroyed.
Not worried.
Full of feelings.
I am sad to end belonging to a community.
Meeting humans regularly.
Team work.
(So much of my work as a freelancer,
is going in and doing a one-off gigs).
I believe in belonging.
Maslow lists 'belonging'
as the third step in his hierarchy of human needs.
It was core income tho.
I never work for money.
I need some tho.
I go and do some gigs for nowt.
I always deliver my fee schedule,
but I also I work free
if the charity is poor.
I will miss individuals.
Regular contact
discussions
Level Five - undressing the soul.
Offering a helping relationship -
by sharing my vulnerability,
always best first,
and listening the theirs.
I will miss mixing with such a wide range of humans
multi-faith/race/age/colour/personality/beautifulness
I will miss the stretch in prep and delivery of training.
The learning I have to do to deliver.
The interactivity as bubbles burst around humans
as new experiences expose learning.
As whole groups learn from one another.
Me too.
So I am totally freelance now.
The best promotion is
POSITIVE WORD OF MOUTH.
Maybe you can be that word-of-mouth?
Broke a bottle of Champagne tonight.
We, Joan and me, felt like a treat - it was beautiful.
Sparkle into my life and I .......
love it love it.
