Monday, May 31, 2004

............. up late chatting last night and early this morning to run Tomek and Anita to the Airport.
U2 all the way. High volume. Roads deserted.

Been a planning today. Both the Norway and a West London gig 'one day' post holidays.Also a little holiday packing and thinking what I need for two weeks in Greeceland. Books and music are priority and I suppose I will need a passport.

Yesterday Adolfus fixed my lapmactop to work in different countries. All too complicated for me. At least I will be able to get into pip@ rather than resort to hot-stinking-mail!

Got some hills to climb this week, before all this. I am looking forward to the holiday.

Big Brother is on now. Recording it in case there is a useful bit for discussion.
I love the settee seating in terms of communication. All twelve sit around on a circular settee and it sets up good interaction. I am keen on creating space which can help bring people together without any pressure.

I feel tired and it is an unusual feeling so early. Maybe I have chilled over the week-end and now - so early - somewhat slower.

Ziiiiiiiiiiiiiig ............ time for bed ...........


Sunday, May 30, 2004

..... and it was great to have a mini Prague reunion for tea today. PabPaul, Adolfus and Richard all came around to hang out, eat and drink ......... hmmm.
Wish you all could be here.

Tomek and Anita will be here soon too. They will stay the night before jetting to Poland to kick their pending wedding into shape.

I love these humans .................

.... now and recently - listening to Benji B's Deviation radio online. It is a 1XRTA radio show.
Hope I can get some digital radio in Greece with my fab little diggy radio. Doubt it. May not even be able to get a mobile signal. Or wi-fi!
Will be blogging from a little bar/cyber cafe I guess.

After Greece I hop the day after into a gig training day with a big team of professionals and then a quick turn around to get to Norway to run sessions at a big festival. I will be there for a week so it means I am away a lot in June.

..... and have you tasted the dates that Tesco do?

They are Medjool Dates with Walnuts tucked inside and a wonderful sweet without the fat-factor.

Tesco do Fair Trade Roses and no-body else does.

I like Tesco.

Jamie Tesco Wilson saying "I will do you TV adverts"

.... I understand that the recent/current disaster was caused by deforestation.
Bruce Cockburn again;-

"Cut and move on
Cut and move on
Take out trees
Take out wildlife at a rate of species every single day
Take out people who've lived with this for 100,000 years -
Inject a billion burgers worth of beef -
Grain eaters - methane dispensers."

..... eat your hamburgers
..... get fat
..... destroy the planet
....... destroy humans
Wilson ..........

I take the point my loving accepting forgiving beautiful Jesus

I need to
-plant and move on
-plant and move on

Kitten's Soft and Furry Side
Despite the hard-edged exterior, Kitten has revealed that she is in fact an insecure individual who has made 'a lot of mistakes' and often feels 'quite worthless'.
Surrounded by the housemates, Kitten said her friends often tell her that instead of attracting people to her, she drives people away with her defensive behaviour.

"I don't like myself most of the time," she confided. "My self-esteem's really low and I don't have a lot of confidence."

If you don't know what I am on about you are not watching Big Brother on Channel four and if you are like me, cable - constantly live BB.

Why do I watch BB I ask myself?
1 It is people watching and this is what I do in real life. Observe people and try to understand with view to entering a helping relationship (and at the same time learning myself!).
2 There is little else on tv late night when I am slowing up before bed.
3 Sleep is boring.
4 I can use clips of the programme in my sessions to help us understand and feel. Issues like 'self esteem' are real and video clips can be useful.
5 BB will become a National popular cultural pursuit in the coming months and I believe I need to be in touch with contemporary culture.
6 It is great to get to see the real humans emerge as time goes on. Interesting to see masks slip and real strengths and weaknesses visible
7 That's enough isn't it?


Saturday, May 29, 2004

... came in as Joan was ending her viewing on Thursday about the families of Omagh following the multiple murders by bomb a few years ago. It seemed to be so powerful and Joan said it was so moving as the struggle for justice was so painful. I must try to catch the repeat.

I did catch a quote by one of the actors playing Mike Gallagher which he was reflecting to his wife on the relationship he had with his murdered son. This is fantastic it seems to me;

"Inside I feel he meant more to me. And I know that is off, to feel like that, because I know how much you loved him but I can't feel the way you feel. Only the way I feel."

...... Joan reads different type of books than me and spots things in the press which I miss.

She is reading a book about the region of Greece we are going to on holiday (don't ask me where it is until I get there!)

She says that early Christians, around that region if you remember - 'prayed like Moslems' - on their knees and that stuff. Interesting I thought. never heard that before.

Interesting item in the Church Times this week about the new man at the BBC - Mark Thompson, 46, a Roman Catholic.

One pip type quote from him was;

"The job of television is to make you think about human beings as rich bundles of possibility"


Friday, May 28, 2004

.... I have so manty things I want to blog about which are more than Big Brother, what is not, but will do that tomorrow when I am not so much 'chillin' for the week-end - the first free for as long as I can remember ............... free ..... I mean we are having multiple guests of high beautifulness but not away for a change .........

....... last time BB was on I used clips as discussion starters in my groups ......

There is one guy on at the moment who is using so much 'hand to face' that is leaking nervous tension ......... hmmm

.... watching big brother ....... this will be an interesting study of human behaviour ....... hmmm

Gilles Peterson News ..........
From July, as part of BBC Radio 1's new schedule, 'Worldwide' is moving to a new time slot of 11pm on Sundays for two hours .......... that means my Wednesday night listening since about 1997 will change ............

Maybe it will be better for listeners I can get the same I trust.

.......... sorry I have been a bit bitty these last few days.
I don't know how I feel at the moment and I am too tired to click them out here ........... I feel ok but there is deeper water in the pip-well than that ..... of course.


......... just seen my AudioHijack click in so I hope I will be recording again for my holidays and on Auto while I am away for hot listening when I get back.

Just got Playdotcom cd's

1 Blue note revisited - mixture of jazz tracks yet to hear but the first one has the name Wayne Shorter on it hmmm.

2 Gilles Peterson in Brazil - my fav DJ with some tracks to dance to in Greece.


Thursday, May 27, 2004

...... just in and I have read the blog below ..... taken from a link to a search about 'seven deadly sins'.
I read again and it is so terrible.
It is so bad, it could be a sick joke.

I intend to do some groups about the '7' but I will have to do some better research .....

......... some more on those 7 Deadly Sins ........

LUST - wanting sex. Like every normal person.
GLUTTONY - Wanting to eat.
PRIDE - Having confidence.
ANGER - Being upset if someone say, steals your car, rapes your life and kills your family.
GREED - Not wanting to be poor.
ENVY - Thinking that someone looks good, and you wouldn' mind that top.
SLOTH - Wanting to relax.

You're all goingt o go to heel, and i'm not, ima "Christian", I belive that god loves everyone, well except sinners, lesbians, gays, left wingers, the poor, feminists, Jews, Musilms, infact all other religions, environmentalists, people who have fun, anti capitalists, anarchists, and goths.

Source: Father Bigot ...... from the web ...... don't mistake it for my views !!

It seems that everyone who is not Him is going to hell! hmmm

Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ??

Thinking of doing a run of session about these ............... and I picked this up from the web ..... for your interest!

What are you generally doing on a weekend ( or whenever you get time off ) in the morning?
Sleeping ... Or Sitting Around
Eating ... Or Cooking
Visiting Church
Having Wild Passionate Sex
Admiring your Reflection
Counting your money
Seeking out revenge on your enemies
Damning the celebrities on TV with all their fancy stuff

..... and that was just a few thoughts soooo .... I will go on and think and search for advice about these seven things ...... any knowledge from you?
Are you an expert by chance?


............ complete disaster in my life at Midnight last night ............. there I was waiting for my Audio Hijack to click on to record Gilles, my DJ dropper of perfect vibes, and - AND it would not work!
It does work on auto now and I have a whole collection of programmes which can be downloaded on my iPod for our pending holiday. I quickly had to tape the programme. Cassette tape!
Thar means I cannot play my radio Gilles in my car to work today STINK.

I have had problems that when I turn my iMac on - the clock is wrong. Last night it was 17 minutes in advance and that cocks up the recording. I have checked all the settings and the thing is supposed to be on auto time set - stink.
Are you with me? The Hijack records the prog on my hard drive and then it jumps like a frog into my iTunes and then into my Gilles iTunes file and then - when I plug in my iPod and I am iHappy on my iHolidays in iGreece for iTwoweeks iListening to i7000 tunes by the iPool in the iSun - need iGo on before you iBash me?

This morning I think I have cracked it and downloaded a free upgrade to fir the evolving OSX mac system. I will pour over my mac at midnight tonight as it record 'one world' another fine programme for my holidays ................... I hope I am ...........iPiphappy

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

......... and lots buzzing my soul at the moment as I try to understand ................ it is a deep well ................. to deep for me but, but, but this becoming gig I am on demands that I journey that way.

Things buzzing me are vitals such as;


..... and more.
I must string all those thoughts together as best as I am able TODAY ... and carry on on that journey after today.

One thing ............ I have been hanging out of late with people who are able to share the deeper stuff because we have been incarnate together for sometime. There is a mutual trust.
I am thinking that my own untapped well is released in part by the relationships with the bruised and hesitant. Those with me who share our damage together and gain strength from tapping the wells of deep longing. It seems that broken people release in me something significant for my wholeness - and I am supposed to be be in a helping relationship with them!

Also - much of what is buzzing me is touching finger tips in the dark with that U2 Song 'One'

....... more to come, just started


......... and lots buzzing my soul at the moment as I try to understand ................ it is a deep well ................. to deep for me but, but, but this becoming gig I am on demands that I journey that way.

Things buzzing me are vitals such as;


..... and more.
I must string all those thoughts together as best as I am able TODAY ... and carry on on that journey after today.

One thing ............ I have been hanging out of late with people who are able to share the deeper stuff because we have been incarnate together for sometime. There is a mutual trust.
I am thinking that my own untapped well is released in part by the relationships with the bruised and hesitant. Those with me who share our damage together and gain strength from tapping the wells of deep longing. It seems that broken people release in me something significant for my wholeness - and I am supposed to be be in a helping relationship with them!

Also - much of what is buzzing me is touching finger tips in the dark with that U2 Song 'One'

....... more to come, just started


...... have so much to learn by clicking right now because my day has been full of interactions that need sussing. Need reflecting on. Need to be turned over.

Because I am working late I am not able to recall the amazing collection of experiences and also start to understand - in my tired mental mood.

I feel good with the tiredness. My neck aches and has done all day - for some reason. I feel full of buzz because people have shared such real vivid stuff with me ............. it is a privilege that. Also - so much re-enforces all the stuff I click about here. The emotional stuff. The oppressive parents and parent. The centrality of feelings and being in contact with them - as a starter for wholeness.

I want to carry on and rip through the feelings I have and others have shared/exchanged with me. My fingers won't click as fast as my racing heart.

I will let Bonhoeffer end the day for us;

"Let the person who cannot be alone beware of community. Let the person who is not in community beware of being alone"

Lord have mercy


Tuesday, May 25, 2004

If a Tree Falls - Bruce Cockburn

Rain forest
Mist and mystery
Teeming green
Green brain facing labotomy
Climate control centre for the world
Ancient cord of coexistence
Hacked by parasitic greedhead scam -
From Sarawak to Amazonas
Costa Rica to mangy B.C. hills -
Cortege rhythm of falling timber.

What kind of currency grows in these new deserts,
These brand new flood plains?

If a tree falls in the forest does anybody hear?
If a tree falls in the forest does anybody hear?
Anybody hear the forest fall?

Cut and move on
Cut and move on
Take out trees
Take out wildlife at a rate of species every single day
Take out people who've lived with this for 100,000 years -
Inject a billion burgers worth of beef -
Grain eaters - methane dispensers.

Through thinning ozone,
Waves fall on wrinkled earth -
Gravity, light, ancient refuse of stars,
Speak of a drowning -
But this, this is something other.
Busy monster eats dark holes in the spirit world
Where wild things have to go
To disappear

If a tree falls in the forest does anybody hear?
If a tree falls in the forest does anybody hear?
Anybody hear the forest fall?

........ a very powerful song and he is curently on tour


.............. I never eat at Mc donalds because I think they chop down trees to feed cattle to make fat fat hamburgers and other unhealthy stuff .................. but .... I have just had a Caesar salad from there because I missed my one meal of the day.

Do you know the E number which was on the sauce anyone? - I am not into the eNumbers but I would like to know because it was good.

................ love to love you baby ..........


Monday, May 24, 2004

......... and I have been a concluding a 'road less traveled' course today = three of three.

It is special to spend six intense hours with beautiful humans who have committed themselves to journey into life management. It was emotional, honest, stretching, skilling and just beautiful. I want to do more of this because it is where the rubber hits the road, where humans meet and learn from each other and a special group dynamic.

I am thinking about living on the edge and not in the centre.
It is on the the edge where I want to be - spiritually - physically - emotionally - lovingly - ............. that is where I yearn for because the centre is a place where growth does not reside.

Some want to live within the sound of chapel bell
I want to live within a yard of hell.

The big issue with people who have failed through experiences of drugs and education and social norms ......... it is not that they have failed ....... it is that they need humans to love them in the very state that they are in.
The one thing they need is people around them who affirm them in their reality. Unconditional acceptance.
As we associate with people who are at the bottom there is such a massive learning. We can learn so much from the poorness of the spirit and I want to be there.

Tomorrow I don't know what I will face in terms of sadness and setbacks. Whatever the day brings there will be a test of love. Of valuing. Of accepting. Of loving.

I trust I will also see some shining faces which radiates when humans are stepping out of their bubble trap. Eyes start to shine and skin looks healthier than ever.

There is new life possible in these beautiful humans ............


Sunday, May 23, 2004


So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Soundtrack : stand by me (1986)

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we see
No, I won't be afraid
Oh, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me, so

Oh, stand by me
Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Ot the mountain
Should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry
No, I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me

Whenever you're in trouble
Won't you stand by me, oh stand by me


...... hey
how are you ?

Makes me think what is happening in your life to cultivate those feelings.
Have you some decisions to make.

Me ............ feeling tired now. At peace - mainly.
If I had some strong emotions they would be there in my gut and in my head like toothache.
-Q-What do we think about when we have toothache?

Our current pain can posses us and preoccupy us so much that we cannot function well in other life areas.

So I feel sensitive about the week ahead because I have stuff to prepare so I can love people.
I have decided to make my life and act of love.
I have decided that the best we can give another human is - love.
There is no love without self disclosure - otherwise we are only giving the surface, the crust, the mask and a performance.
Authentic love is self disclosure.
Real live is self disclosure.
Love is self disclosure.

I have told God where I live

I have told God where I live

I have told God where I live

I have told God where I live

I have told God where I live
I am found wanting
I want more of what God offers freely

I will tell you where I live
anytime when we can talk
anytime when we can open up
I am always willing
Not always able

Whoever abides in God - abides in Love.

didn't mean to speel and spill
too tired for that but it just clicked out
I will reread at the end and see if it really is .............. really.

Last night me and Joan spent two hours amongst the wolves.
@Warrington Wolves - a good Rugby League Team in a new stadium and we loved it.
Thought we would melt under the spotlights of last weeks success but we scored nine tries and won 50-20. I loved it.

Being up north at the right time made it possible.I wish I could be there next Saturday to see The Bradford Bulls come to the Saints. They are the current Super League Champions and will want to bury us.
Saturday night - sky sports - 6pm - don't miss - get on your knees and scream - don't you always?

I like you being close.
Recently there was something happened and no-one turned up for a group I was leading. Then there came one person who sat with me ........... and stayed and then another came and we ended up with a few.
That first human 'stood by me'
'stand by me'
That is beautiful. Words slip into insignificance alongside human presence.

'Presence and availability are the essence of Love' Gabriel Marcel

That is what Jesus did. He came and touched is flesh with ours. Hugged the leper. Hung around with the least, the bruised ............ being there.
helping my becoming


Saturday, May 22, 2004

....... and here I am on a BT line 'up north' visiting family and I can receive emails but not send.
Sorry if I have seemingly blanked you.

So another w/e away and only two weeks before we go to Greece for a dollop of sun. ...... and other good things.

I hope to see the Saints tonight for the second time this season at the local Warrington ground. My fear is that they will struggle to raise their game after the big win last week. Wolves will growl and, like all RL teams, will want to topple the Saints.

............ bt line rather strange and not being out there with you is mad mad mad frustrating ggggrrrrrrrrrr

.......... this link pasted into your browser is a person writing to me about a course I led sometime ago called "The Road Less traveled".

These courses I love to do because it is about the reason for living. They are about the internal person not just the outer view of things, our activities, human contacts, work, pleasures ....... it is about how can deal with our emotions and manage life more beautiful - for self and wondrously - others who we interact with.



Friday, May 21, 2004

.............. and sometimes in a group we struggle because there is a language difficulty. Mine ........ I cannot speak the hundreds of African languages or the multi eastern European ones. So we are left with my one and only English.
Some struggle with this and it holds up the group BUT ...... it is fantastic cultural awareness and you see a drug dependent human struggle to help someone from Iraq understand what the hell we are taking about. Beautiful.

Sometimes in my clumsy humanity I cannot understand if a person before me is;
-chemically influenced
-mentally disabled
-mentally ill
-or .............. ?

The hope is that human, through the haze, will feel good enough about the experience that there will be further visit to the group WITHOUT the behaviour disturbing intake.

............... Clumsy spirituality here ....... signing off until I can get to the keys and express myself .............
...... woke this morning with a group of people in my head ..........
Some groups I work with, an ever moving group of individuals, are made up of various Nationalities. Mainly they are asylum seekers and refugees. Mixed in with these are people who some would consider are humans from the bottom of the social pile. Hopeless.
I don,t think so.
I could not work with no hope.
They sometimes have diminished hope.
Fragile hope.

I have hope and it is great to see people respond to affirmation - something they are often starved of.


Thursday, May 20, 2004

.....I am a little distant at the mo and may not be able to get on line to you beautifuls ............ thanx for being only a click away .............

.......... someone emailed me today and asked did I really believe in Jesus ............. hmmm

.. tell you more soon



Wednesday, May 19, 2004

.......... long day today and a bit tired and reflective midst that.

Read it somewhere ....."blogging is a writers visit to the gym"

Well this gym visit will be short due to late night and early morning. Cannot say my sleep craze is alcohol induced. I have however - just had the last drop of the famous Czech liqueur called BECHEROVKA.
The reason it has took me three and a half years to drink this one bottle is, it is at the bottom of the drink pile when it comes to a late night tipple.
I would think that the nearest drink it would taste like is paraffin. And that is not for drinking.

Get the climate right and the atmosphere of non-threatening discussion and people open up. My recent experience. People who are a million miles from opening up - are ready to share. There needs to be a structured experience, otherwise the same superficial banter ensues.
The inner life is so powerful and can be so beautiful and yet so many keep it locked away. Chains, ropes, gags and handcuffs on the soul.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

........... pix are fab when working in hostels with people with special needs ....... it is a non threatening environment to be pouring over pics together - from the past and right now. my mac laptop is an angel when it comes to a delivery of images.

It is amazing how, following the death of a young person due to an overdose, the significance of photo's to those who have suffered a loss. There is a desire to hold on to the memory and want to see and posses a photograph.

It all helps me to get close too.
Being involved is a shared experience and as you know -I think you know me - I believe that humans develop when involved in/ or have experiences of:-

- love
- security
- participation
- new experiences

It is wondrous to lead a group and people talk about things they have never done before.
They are finding the language to talk about feelings and expression of their life experiences.

At the moment I feel good about people feeling good.
I feel good that a clamshell human has opened a wee crack in their tightness and moved. Moved from the security and yet fear of silence - to the edge - insecurity where development is ........... stinking wow
.... I get an email every day from the YMCA national office so I can clock the issues of the day ........ the ones related to me and the YMCA I guess.

Another report out today looks at:-

Religion in England and Wales: Findings from the 2001 Home Office Citizenship Survey - Research study 274
There is a file to download %A0(file size: 571 Kb) in the website
Home Office Research report, Date of publication:17/05/04
This report is the first to map the relevance of religion in the lives of people in England and Wales today. In a period of renewed interest in religion, in policy development and research, it provides much needed quantitative information about the importance of religion in shaping social attitudes and actions.

... thought you may be interested ........ I am

..... new report out today

saying the majority of people with mental health problems say they suffer from loneliness and isolation. I have been going on about the social support recently and this report is from surveys published today.

Two surveys, by Mind and the pollsters NOP, found 84% of those with mental health problems felt isolated compared with 29% of the public. Young people were most likely to experience this: 92% of 18- to 24-year-olds with mental health problems reported such feelings. Again the issue of feelings and how they can bring us down if not managed.

The NOP poll found people were less likely to feel alone in some regions than in others. Those in the north had the best support: 83% said they had never felt isolated.

I wonder if you ever feel alone?
Sometimes I do in a room with lots of people.
Sometimes I go out on my own and not talk to people I know. Sit alone and feel it. Also to see if there is anyone out there who will chose me to sit with. If I am always sat with those I feel comfortable with - I will never step out side my comfort zone - that zone where development does ny reside.

People in today's survey who have these feelings say that said the chief cause of their isolation was others' lack of understanding of mental health issues. More than two-thirds said their isolation made it harder to recover or cope.
It is back to the issue of ....... 'broken leg' is visible and the 'interior' issues are not - and scary.

...... there is a journey here for all of us ..............

...... emotions are strong and beautiful emotions are hard and ugly .............

...... emotions are strong and beautiful
emotions are hard and ugly .............

Depending how you feel right now ...... and sometimes we are not in touch with our feelings, often we feel not well because the emotional system touches the body - punches the body - prods the body - cuts the body - sometimes.
I mentioned a few blogs ago how the lack of social support has been found to have impact on health up to 3.8 times more than those with a network of support.
Emotions impact the body.

Depending how you feel now ...... the opening lines will ring true.

If we have been brought up by someone placing their face close to yours and hurling the words
'you are a bad boy'
'you are a bad girl'
............................ often it is not the words we remember but the snarling lips, the flared nostrils, the spitting mouth .............. and a big feeling that "I am not ok"
'I am bad'
We demonstrate our value/love by our non-verbal communication
Abused become abused - it is said.

When our house is getting on our nerves we remove the items around us and put them in our attic.
You don't want to see our attic.
It has more junk than all the charity shops in Romford.

Whe something ugly happens in our lives we can so easily push the thought into the attic of our lives. Not the conscious part of us but the unconscious part of us.
eventually there is overload up there and there is a creaking and a big weight of responsibility hangs around us and it won't disappear.
Out of site is not out of mind when there is a big and looming emotional storage problem. We become more aware of the physical impact of our emotions. Sooner - rather than later , those emotions - buried alive inside us, need to be dealt with - disposed of properly.

The big trigger to get this process going is someone who loves us unconditionally. There is only one person who can do that with some great willingness and certainty .............. and that is the creator I decided to hold hands with at the age of 21 and has been helping me with my emotional attic ever since, (But sometimes I won't let him in!)

I believe that there is no human person who will not respond to love. Human love is the next best thing. We all need at least one person who will love us.

When it comes to children .............
Love needs to be evident in the scolding of a child - far more than the particular 'wrong' which is on the parent agenda at the moment. The behavior is one thing and the 'beautiful human' is another.

Joan read an item in a Sunday newspaper magazine and I caught it today on the London Underground. The feature was about a twin brother and sister from the Guinness family - not people without dosh.
He said something like this; "I was sent away to boarding school at the age of eight and I didn't want to go and neither did my mother. It did not matter - I went. Nobody ever asked me how I felt. There was no language to use to talk about feelings. No-one asked me how I was feeling and no-one cared"
To me that is powerful and I thank him for this honesty. (He ended up a victim of drugs and other problems) So so sad.

I find this all the time with all sectors of society.
I work with those at the bottom of the heap - homeless and disregarded.
I meet the professionals and the business successes.
I see people full of feelings and stuck in a hole.
A hole - full of a swamp, .................. stuck in a swamp of feelings they cannot express - touch - own - handle.

................... Feelings are the first point of call it seems to me and then - FROM THAT SENSITIVITY - going on to be - becoming ................ a more beautiful human for human kind and eternal God ............................


Monday, May 17, 2004

..... these are major artistes in my life who I admire and love ................. and the purpose ................... hmmm .............. wish I could go following our fab time in Cardiff .................... stink

.................... ticket details for the Warchild benefit gig in Cardiff:



C/EXCH 02920494917 OR TICKETLINE 02920230130 & SPILLERS


Sunday, May 16, 2004

Hold on, hold on tightly
Hold on, hold on tightly
Rise up, rise up
With wings like eagles
You'll run, you'll run
You'll run and not grow weary
from the Drowning Man
U2 Album 'War'
St Helens 32-16 Wigan
Match Report.

St Helens, inspired by the on-fire Sean Long, outclassed Wigan side to take a well deserved victory in the Challenge Cup final.

In front of a sell-out 73,734 crowd, tries from Lee Gilmour, Willie Talau (2), Paul Wellens and Paul Sculthorpe - allied to Long's six kicks at goal - all watched by Joan and Pip Wilson hey hey.
................ been and had a great week-end in Cardiff and a nice city it is.
Had a fab meal in an Italian restaurant which set a good holiday vibe start for me and Joan.

The big thing was the the great win at the Millennium Stadium by my team St Helens- The Saints.
I cried at the end.
It was exciting and nervy throughout.
They played great ......... we played great.

I have few words to had to describe the game because I am still overwhelmed.
I will mention a few of the big experiences:-
The mass of crowd in the city centre right alongside the stadium - unlike the stark concrete of Wembley as it was.
The crowd all mixing - both teams of supporters, in the street and the same pubs and cafes.
The number of fans in fancy dress and having a great time.
All the families there for the occasion.
The smiles on all the faces - all of the day.
The stadium with such a great view and a feel of intimacy.
The city - compact and feels good to be there.

It was a whole big great experience and I came home shattered and emotionally drained - and we WON!

The only bad thing - next year the same Challenge Cup Final has been moved to August Bank Holiday week-end ........ the same as Greenbelt!
How is that for a conflict of interest?

Friday, May 14, 2004

This may be my last blog until I return from Cardiff. If you watch the game, look for this man. My team hero. I love him.
His name is Keiron Cunningham and he was enduring the worst few months of his life just 12 months ago. The man rated as the best hooker in the world was at risk of sliding out of the game after being innocently caught up in a drugs nightmare. The supplement given to him by a medical officer he thought he could trust but who has since been discredited turned out to be an illegal steroid.
And in the middle of it all, he considered his playing days might be all over.
"Maybe, yes," he admitted. "I was just mentally not there last year. It was a terrible year for me and Saints."

But Cunningham's reputation has been rightfully restored and he is in the best form of his career ahead of Saturday's Challenge Cup showdown with Wigan.
"It feels very good, very good," said the Welshman.
"I don't know what emotions are going through my head right now. It has been a very tough week, but once we get to Cardiff, that is when it hits you.

"After last year, I keep thinking the next final could be the last. Not because I am thinking of giving up the game, it is just that you don't know whether you will reach a final again.
"You are not guaranteed anything."

Cunningham is in an exclusive club of players who have appeared in Challenge Cup finals at Wembley, Twickenham, Murrayfield and now Cardiff.
It is even more special being in South Wales because I have lots of family and friends down there And he reckons the Welsh capital will be the best of the lot.

"Wembley is pretty special because it is Wembley; Twickenham is a good place and Murrayfield is a good place; but Cardiff is something else," said the hooker, who played at the Millennium Stadium for Wales in the last World Cup.
"It is the only ground I know that has an atmosphere when it is empty."

He added: "The emotion is there because it is a final - they always bring a tear to the eye when you walk out.
"But it is even more special being in South Wales because I have lots of family and friends down there. They know what kind of game it will be - crash, bang with a lot of flair."
see you later ........ I am excited and nervous ............

Thursday, May 13, 2004

........ tomorrow we go to Cardiff and stay one night - see one game of Rugby League and drive home deflated or wowee .......

2.30 Saturday afternoon on the BBC TV ......... hmmm

Today my new postcards arrived. Fab, fab.
The are pink and have a Non-sexist Blob Tree in bold colour (and a copyright note)
I am delighted - thanx Len - and will use wonder - fully in my mission.

Today I had the full-n beautifulness og Gilles Peterson music on my iPod pumping loud and deep in my car. I have fitted the special equipment on my dashboard and tuned in the thing to my radio and boom ............. fab fab.
All I need to do is drop my iPod into the holder;
-it charges
-it radio waves to my Ariel - to my radio
-it plays 7500 tunes at the touch of a button
-it retains my favorite radio shows
-it is music for the soul

.................... bbeautiful

Working with people:: a group works if humans can feel the climate of trust so good that they self disclose stuff they have never revealed before.

....... here I am again, late night on the armchair watching the end of newsnight on beeb 2.
Just in and catching up after a day offline. Feeling good-ish.

Working with people ........... a group works if humans can feel the climate of trust so good that they self disclose stuff they have never revealed before. It may be ugly, often is, but so important to own it - admit it - name it - feel it and then feel the liberation in terms of feelings and facts. From then on all can say that nothing can be changed from the past but the future is a range of next steps into a chosen way. This is the function of a worker, to use non-directive methods to open up the self development opportunities. I am excited.

One bit which stands out from recent groups .......... I often go around the group and ask all to answer a question. Usually this is an easier one which moves on deeper with following questions. It is fascinating to observe the group as the answering of questions moves around the circle. I see the body language change. Sometimes the non-verbals are painful to see as someone contemplates sharing something powerful. Sometimes I observe facial contortions, thumb sucking, hand to face movements, rapid eye movements ....... all i adults. I can be more sensitive as I couch the question again for them/that person as an individual. Then out it comes - usually a massive ownership of self harm, abuse of self, or from another. It is repeated by others in the group. That is fantastic support from one human to another. That is beautiful in terms of human development. Now there can be a move forward.

hmmm ....... I honestly don't know if you are with me in all this. I can picture it and see the faces. I can feel the vibe - the pain - the freeing of a human soul.

peace b with you ................................

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

I will confess
I am in love with a man.
He is number 9 and will be on the field at Cardiff on Saturday.
My hero.
He is:-
Keiron Cunningham (hooker, 27)

Injury and off-field distractions marred last season for the Great Britain hooker but he has been back to his brilliant best this year with his magnificent trademark runs from dummy half. The Welsh international will realise a dream by playing at the Millennium Stadium and is sure to make the most of the opportunity.


............... Sometimes I cut out an article from a newspaper to read as I commute around London the town. When read I discard on the seat nearby and it is interesting to observe the number of people who pick it up and read - sometimes take it away ............ well I think it is interesting.

Just about finished reading a book I started on 22.11.03
'Group Process, Group Decision, Group Action' by multiple authors.
It isd a Social Psychology book which, as usual I have been reading alongside another 8 to 10 books of differing subjects. It is amazing how the unique mashing of the subjects feeds the soul. Some I read from cover to cover and stays in my commuting bag until read, others I pick and mix.

today's spark was a report on surveys about how social support does influence health. 'Without social support men were 2.3 times more likely to suffer poor health and women were 2.8 times more.' This was several surveys over differing nations.

Working with homeless people who have failed or left a majority of their support systems - this is interesting. Often they complain about their support and certainly cannot, or struggle, to take advantage of what is available.
If the emotional deprivation high, it is really tough to get through with support. The incarnation model as seen in the scripture - seems to me to be the only route. Getting close by being there and sharing the pain. Becoming in fact, part of the social support and being a helping relating friend when the person is ready.

The incarnational model was not touched on in the book but one of my underlings in the book highlights a quote which says:-
' a large number of studies indicate that the prescience of others' makes stress easier to tolerate. The same observation are made with rats - and the same conclusions. I don't think I want to be incarnational with them.
B-being alongside people matters.

The last chapter which I will finish tomorrow is about 'crowding' and I am really into 'space' and relationships/communication at the moment.
One thing jumps out at me:-
Humans when they are in a crowded situation ....... the males react aggressively and the women the opposite to that. Women become closer and engage in more mutual eye contact and self disclosure. Hmmmm.
I will have to think that through and make sense of that here on the ground. 150 humans living in a hostel - could be classed as 'overcrowding'.
What about your living situation?
What does all this make you think?

............... will leave you now ....... if like me you are thinking, contextualising, visionising ........ becoming ........


Monday, May 10, 2004

the St Helens Team for Saturdays match which I hope you will be watching.

Wellens; Gardner, Gleeson, Talau, Albert; Hooper, Long; Fozzard, Cunningham, Mason, Joynt, Gilmour, Sculthorpe (capt).
Subs: Feaunati, Bibey, Edmondson, Wilkin.

This mornig I woke up thinking about the team and putting the team together and the all so important bench. Thereafter I could not sleep

................... I always continue the dots as I feel this is an on going relationship between you and I.
There has been a little pause for breath ........and here we go again ..........

Just in from the Greenbelt meeting and now chilling to the radio - Late Junction on Radio 3 - Mon to Thurs weekly. Love it.
I meet new music here.

Zig and Joan are having an early night. (shush ..... it is her birthday tomorrow and I am working away!)
A cigar is here with me and a glass of Cointreau - my favorite tipple. Must take a bottle to Cardiff to have a late night drink in the hotel.
I hope it is celebratory!

Started the course of 'the road less travelled' today and it was fantastic. The people present gave so much and dropped their guard quickly to enable me to lead a group which was not superficial but depthy deep. These humans connected and I love em already. The challenge for me is to facilitate the next two and 'walk on' as U2 would say/sing.
The experiential start leads to raising real issues of human life and tools being made available - a take away service.
I always say it is not a Q&A. The objective of the course is to grip reality, raise awareness and on to the area of skill. I love it.

The rest of the week is working away and then Friday we go to Cardiff. Just one night without zig - poor cat. His parents neglect him you know!

Onwards - everyweek end is booked with things until we go to Greece for a two week break. I cannot find a hotspot there for my wi-fi even though I have searched the web and all my fav sites. Maybe there is a cyber cafe where I can post a sun drenched blog to you. Mind you, I could be stuggling with the problem of women clawing my body as I relax by the villa pool.
It is a hard life.

Must go .............. will see you later ......... bbecoming ..............
To laugh is to risk appearing a fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas and dreams before the crowd is to risk their love.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The one who risks nothing does nothing and has nothing – and finally is nothing.
He may avoid sufferings and sorrow.
But he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow or love.
Chained by his certitude, he is a slave, he has forfeited freedom.
Only one who risks is free!
..... had a great time in a little north London Greek cafe last night. It was a birthday special for Joan and we had the Sheilas and Peter who feels well at home in that environment.
I love the little place where the food is cooked within four feet of you and everyone else eating feels part of the family...... and they added to the 'happy birthday' song when Joan got the big fat Greek cake with candles.
It was also great to see the girls again after a months gap of physical distance.
I got my gadget for the car which will allow my ipod to be charged and send a signal to the radio - wireless - of course. I will use as we wing to Cardiff at the week-end hey hey. Also Joy had got me 501's Jeans x 2 and some nice cigars - all from Miami. hmmm

Today I am starting a "Road Less traveled course".
It is three Mondays for 12 people and will be a journey of depth and wholeness.
The blurb for the course goes a bit like this:-

Content: Listening skills, communication skills, spiritual awareness, assertiveness training, observation skills, self awareness, affirmation, managing feelings and giving and receiving from a special group of people ? AND GOOD FUN!!

The objective is to spend three sessions together actively exploring communication. No experience necessary ? only a willingness to participate at a level decided by yourself and the group. It will be interactive ? meaning no-threatening discussion led and guided to provide a whole new experience of communication ? body, mind and spirit. It will be enjoyable and life affirming.

After that it is a pop in meal at the New Piccadilly and then a Greenbelt meeting. I will connect with you later tonight eh?

Sunday, May 09, 2004


I am posting this full article taken from ...
because I believe it is important and moreso
during Christian Aid Week ......................
We Know Bono's Christian By His Love
Lexington Herald-Leader, May 08, 2004
Rich Copley

Earlier this year, Christian musicians rallied behind U2 front man Bono's charge for the church to fight the AIDS crisis in Africa.
They put together a 13-song CD of covers of U2 classics such as "Sunday Bloody Sunday" and "Beautiful Day," with proceeds going to World-Vision's efforts to combat AIDS. For someone who's followed contemporary Christian music and U2 for two decades, it was so cool to finally see the faith community embrace a band and a man who has walked the walk outside the mainstream church for most of his career. It was even cooler to see it happen in the name of doing the work Jesus called us to do: reaching out to help the sick and the poor.

Then I read the "Feedback" section in CCM magazine this month and caught a note from a guy named Christopher Stone, who was upset that the catalyst for In the Name of Love: Artists United for Africa was Bono drawing attention to the AIDS crisis.

"Why did it take him saying something about it for us to do something?" Stone wrote. "Jesus said for us to help those in need long before Bono's grandparents were even thought of, and he's not a very good example of the Christian walk either. He promotes attention to the AIDS in Africa problem; yet with the same mouth, he proclaims profanities. Am I the only one who sees a problem with this?"

No, Christopher, you aren't.

I, too, think it's a shame that a rock star had to come in and guide the church into doing something ministers and evangelists should have been addressing long ago.

But moreover, I see a problem with your judgmental attitude toward Bono. But you aren't alone. Despite U2's numerous statements of faith and unflagging support of humanitarian efforts and social justice, the band members and Bono in particular have regularly been the objects of derision inside the church because some Christians don't like their lifestyles.

Look, can we get off this jag of downgrading a guy for some four-letter words and a little drinking, when basically he's spent most of his life in the excessive world of rock 'n' roll standing up for bedrock Christian principles such as caring for the impoverished and oppressed.

OK, I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that when judgment day comes, the Almighty will be a lot more interested in what we did for the least of these than how many times we dropped the F-bomb. The shame is that in the duration of U2's career, the band has done a lot more than the mainstream church has done to lead people to a concern for their fellow humans.

You say it shouldn't be that way?

You've got that right.

I'm not saying that there are not wonderful ministries to the poor and needy in churches in Lexington and in the United States. I was extremely proud to see the Faith Community Housing Foundation on the front of our City and Region section Wednesday, because it is one of the organizations in Lexington that is truly doing God's work. Around the world, groups such as Habitat for Humanity and Compassion International also do great work in God's name.

But all too often these days, the images we see of Christians are the faithful carrying signs with vicious slogans denouncing gays, evangelists on talk shows shouting down fellow Christians critical of The Passion of the Christ, and similar bile in the name of Jesus.

I have no idea what they think they're accomplishing.

They'll know we are Christians by our love?

You can stand up for your beliefs without being mean and ugly. I talk to people all the time who think Christians are basically about judgment and condemnation. In light of this, Christians really need to think about how they present themselves and their beliefs.

Here's something that stunned me. I just read a book by former CCM magazine editor Matthew Turner called The Christian Culture Survival Guide. In it, he talks about the many, many churches he has visited searching for the right one. In one section, he lists eight common areas for people to get involved in churches -- things like small group leader and worship team member -- and not once, not once does he mention missions.

I'm not going to fault Turner for that. The shame is that in the mainstream Christian church in the United States, a person could visit dozens of churches and not once be impressed that God commands us to care for the least of our society.

No. But don't say cuss words or drink alcohol, whether or not you're getting drunk.

Meanwhile, in the late 1980s, Bono was out there telling us we needed to care for starving people in Africa, that we needed to stand up against the cruelty of apartheid -- that we need to be the leaders in making this world a more just, fair and humane place.

So, you tell me, you Bono bashers who just cannot stand the fact that he occasionally uses profanity in public and likes his Guinness chilled: Who is modeling a Christian walk?

Our churches need a revolution to show the world that God is about compassion and healing. And if that revolution starts with a salty-tongued Irishman...well...God's used stranger characters.
© Lexington Herald-Leader, 2004.
I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well, yes, I'm still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
And my shame
All my shame
You know I believe it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
========the spirituality of giving =======
............. beena catching up with admin and chill today.
Both needed some time!
Then there is the domestics like some quotes for the Car insurance and playing with zig. No garden life with the wet weather in these parts.

Ordered flowers today for Joans birthday vsoon shhh and we eat with the Sheilas tomorrow as a special day demands - so long overdue - I miss em so much.

Yesterday I led a training gig for a team of fab humans. It always gives me a buzz. There is a major difference doing something with professionals than people with extreme special needs. It isn't the value, they are all of equal value, nor is it the personalities, the passion ................. in all groups that is there. The pro humans are passionate about other humans and yet still stumble over themseves - self - and the others around them. Just like me. The striving to care and love and serve and strategically manage - always stretches and in that situation we bump and stumble into ourselves - trip over ourselves - and self.

The ones who are homeless and messing with their heads chemically etc ....... are centered on survival and the yearn for security - and the journey to find a sense of belonging. They passionately need and want friends and family but often lack the social skills and emotional capacity to retain family or friends.

Next Saturday look out for me and Joan with our faces painted red and white as we stand on the terraces of the big and wonderful stadium in Cardiff. Supporting the best Rugby League team on earth of course.
hmmm ............ hope that is so on the day.
Come on the Saints

Saturday, May 08, 2004

Help change lives around the world this Christian Aid Week.
spiritually of giving ......... that got to me ...... because ....... if my spirituality is anything, it must be about the world as well as the immediate ............ that means, for me, for me, that I need to give until it hurts in terms of cash ...... and life ........and all things soaked into the pipsponge.
I believe in life before death and will work with Xian Aid as much as I can.
They/we have a role at Greenbelt and I have a role as a volunteer with them year wide.

Christian Aid Week - the UK's longest established and most successful door-to-door fundraising week - is running from now to 15th May 2004. This year's theme is 'We believe in life before death' and Christian Aid is calling on people across the UK to help give desperately poor people all over the world the chance of a better future.

God so loved the world and we are his hands, his feet ......... his flesh.
Probably the smallest YMCA with the biggest impact in the world opens at 5.00pm on Friday 27th August and closes at 12.00 midnight on Monday 30th August 2004.

Greenbelt ymca

It happens at Cheltenham Race Course in Gloucestershire, England during what is probably the biggest Christian Arts and Music Festival in Europe - Greenbelt.

For three years now the YMCA in England has been an associate partner of the Greenbelt Festival. This involvement has included providing a full programme of activities, seminars, a 24hour Café and a space for reflection and this year promises to be better than ever.

A range of discounted prices has been negotiated for staff and young people attending the Festival from YMCAs - please contact for details on pricing and a free promotional video.

You can find out lots more about Greenbelt, including line-up, speakers and site facilities by visiting the Festival's excellent website.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

........... I was thinking and driving today ... I have lots of weaknesses and failures.
That is ok, I thought as I past a 10 mile line of traffic on the otherside of the M25.
That is ok because if I own it and admit it I then don't need to exhaust myself worrying about this.
I can then just work on the DIY - improvements and kicking the weaknesses too.

Some people may think I am all together. I have the masks like us all. Mine are different than yours. (Mine is ugly!!)
Some people may think I am falling apart BUT I am working on it. Becoming Pip.

The glory of God is a person fully alive.
a famous/favorite quote.

I feel alive but I know I am not 'fully' because that is completeness and ................. That's not me.

When I drive - I think and wished I could recall them all ........ I want to feed off them.

............................................................................... bhpBecoming

Wednesday, May 05, 2004


So you never knew love
Until you crossed the line of grace
And you never felt wanted
Till you had someone slap your face
So you never felt alive
Until you almost wasted away"

I love U2 lyrics ....... I turn to them as I do to the Bible.
I feel I have grown more through hurt than I have from pleasure.
I am preparing a session for the future about 'pain'.
Pain is good. Without pain we would have no signals to tell us about our body in trouble. Without pain we would be a zombie, we would be numb. pain is good.

That idea does not feel good to people who have struggled with pain for years. I am having a person helping me to prepare a session who was shot through the throat at the age of seventeen. He is a walking and talking miracle.

"As long as we want to get something from God in some kind of exchange, we are like the merchants. If you want to be rid of the commercial spirit, then by all means do all you can in the way of good works, but do so solely for the praise of God. Live as if you did not exist. Expect and ask nothing in return. Then the merchant inside you will be driven out of the temple God has made. Then God alone dwells there."

- Meister Eckhart

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

........... I am away from home working and clicking a pc which makes a mac man feel sick. Bit like going to B&Q or a Garden centre ....... there I go, feeling sick as I mention these pictures of hell .................

I once gave a talk and mentioned this sort of thing and lost the whole audience! For some strange reason, some people get off on things like that. Give me the concrete and the iMac anyday.

Have been working of late with a group who were disruptive to say the least. Sometimes chemicals. Sometimes the old fashioned, and legal, alcohol. Sometimes a restlessness that comes from insecurity and tension.
I cannot but welcome them and accept them ...... the group process is always less important than the value of the human person. My mission is to aim for self determined development not order or control. I need them to feel. I need them to feel good about some part of their life without cocaine. I need them to come again, enter this safe space and relax more. Give more. Hear more from other group humans and to soak in that life like a sponge with water. Hmmm.

I know many have come from homes were they cannot be managed. Homes which they have rejected from. Homes were there is inadequate parenting. Broken homes in more ways than one.
Adults they know are full of 'shoulds' and 'aughts' have rejected or been rejected. Strong or/and fragile young people want to make their own way and by 15 have often given up on parents. Even in 'good' homes. They need, in my view, accepting parent and parents who will allow them to be 'free to be free'.

It is not easy being a parent. Sometimes horrible. Sometimes full of pain. Such feelings of failure - sometimes.
I have apologized to my Sheilas for failing them through my tiredness or through my inadequate self. What happens now is a fab vibe were I feel valued and respected by them and I love it - and them! They seem to manage my weaknesses so well. Still tell me off for certain mannerisms, still pull their faces when I wear the wrong things ................ But there is that little phone call so so often which delights hmmmm ........ A sloppy moment.

So when a group goes bad ....... I accept it and pull out just one moment of beauty ................ Of late it has just been a moment when the group stills in body language and facial expression ........... Some deep moment shared by all. That is worth it. That is fantastic. That experience will stay with them because it touches the soul ..................

Thanx for listening .............. and for you ........ allow your soul to be touched .............. if you can take the risk .....

You are beautiful to extreme ........... even though you do not feel it ......... or have around you some people who remind you of this.


Monday, May 03, 2004

you must paste the link below into your browser .........
it could change your life .............

....... been to Church today and cracked a bottle of Champagne because of the special day at the Wilsons ......... it was a day of chill and a preparation for a working day tomorrow.

I love the word;
often used as a negative but is beautiful in the positive ....
- out burst of joy
- outburst of love
- outburst of openness
- outburst of .......................... (fill in your own)

Love this word, say it out loud
It is a new band. Heard it on Gilles Peterson - fine stuff and nice name.

as is 'Spirit catcher' ........ I like that too.

Sounds like I have sunstroke eh?

Sunday, May 02, 2004

I first went to Africa, to Ethiopia to work in a feeding station following Live Aid in 1985. One summer that stayed with me for a lifetime. But I don't see Africa as a cause. To me, this whole thing is about justice.
The fact that 6,300 people die in Africa everyday of AIDS, a preventable treatable disease, for lack of drugs that we take for granted in Europe and America -- that's about justice, not charity.
That we hold children to ransom for the debts of their great great grandparents is not a charity issue, it's a justice issue.
That we won't let the poorest of the poor put their products on our shelves yet we flood their markets with ours?

This is about justice.

DATA (Debt, AIDS, Trade, Africa), the organization I work with, takes that as the starting point ..........
Bono being interviewed and full interviw can be found on

feel it

Lord have mercy

Saturday, May 01, 2004

..... my latest album
Gilles Peterson Exclusives

Track Listings
1. Wheel Within A Wheel - The Cinematic Orchestra
2. Puffin Dance - Umod
3. The Show - NSM
4. Sophisticated & Course (Everyday Thoughts) - Ty feat. Eska
5. Couldn't Hear Me - Eric Roberson
6. Wanin Moon - Nicola Conte
7. The Blessing Song (Take 1 Mix For Worldwide) - Build An Ark
8. Batacumbele - Deadline vs Batacumbele
9. Boom Klicky Boom Klack (That's What We Do) - Jazzanova feat. Shaun Escoffery
10. A Matter Of Time - Outlines
11. The Night Of The Dancing Flame - Matthew Herbert & Rosin Murphy
12. Brilliant Circles - Two Banks of Four feat. Canning Socalist col Choir
13. Light Blue Movers - Zero 7
14. Paris Texas - Gotan Project


so show/me/how to feel good enough/
about being me/so that I can leave my shell/and shout
and jump and kick/until something gets changed/because
the future is mine/and I don't want it to be like/the past/and I hate/
seeing people starve/in order to give me/cheap trainers

...... this might get me going again on my repeat saying of ......."Two shots of happy and one shot of sad" ........

U2.Com is reporting that Two Shots Of Happy and One Shot of Sad, originally written by Edge and Bono for Frank Sinatra, is going to be used in a new film called 'The Casino'. The show will be broadcast in the United States during June and includes star Matt Dusk performing the song.

hey hey ............


Don't talk of stars
Burning above;
If you're in love,
Show me!

Tell me no dreams
Filled with desire.
If you're on fire,
Show me!

Rest is the ultimate humiliation because in order to rest, we must admit we are not necessary,
that the world can get along without us, that God's work does not depend on us."

Mike Yaconelli

According to the Portuguese newspaper Publico, U2 are staying in Portugal .....
They are there to shoot some pictures for the next album with Anton Corbijn. ....... now this is exciting and makes the new album a bit closer to my ears ......

Some of the places they have visited are "Praia Grande" (Big beach) near "Sintra", the Expo region of Lisbon, the restaurant "Bica do Sapato" and the "Lux" night club.

I wann hear it ............ eat it ....... love it ...............

..... and here I am saying I hate clicking a blog and it has not moved and I am left with yesterdays news/views/groans/vibes .............. and here I am, having missed the daily click to you beautiful unknown tribe.

As it is said, I have a good face for radio and for blogging too!
You know, I am not good on the phone and I am certain it is because I don't like the sound of my own voice on the phone, don't feel comfortable also because I live in a passion to communicate NVC style.
We are made of 86% water
86% of our communication, at least, is non verbal.
I feel inadequate without the NVC.
Am I the only human who feels surges of inadequacy?
Maybe there are other reasons too ........ will have to think.

Been off at a conference and working away so have been off line so ........ sorry.
Feel a bit tired now. Always buzz like mad when I am around people and then, after a period of intensity, I feel flat and need to chill.
Are you like that?

When drained I have found that certain tricks bring me back to refreshing passion.
1 Reading a book .......... got at least six on the go at the mo. I know the one I can pick up now and it will tickle my fancy.
2 Listening to vibes. Hmmm. So much music I have on my iPod. Radio and new albums.
3 Watching my team play and win like they did last night. Wow! They played the unbeaten super league leaders ...... UNTILL LAST NIGHT and we thrashed them 54 - 10!!
We decimated them with such rugby it was sooooo thrilling that me and Joan were on our knees screaming in front of the TV. We now have our tix for the Final of the Challenge Cup on the 15th at Cardiff ................ hope hope hope they can play like that on the day and thrash the 'pie eaters'.
4 Being with Joan and doing the simple things like a milky coffee .... talking ....... we talk so much ......
5 Hanging out with the Sheilas. Love these humans. Joy gets back from Miami tomorrow after a long two weeks away .......... a special day. She will also have for me a new gadget which I plug into my car cigar lighter. In that goes my iPod which then links without cables to my radio and charges at the same time hey hey. Long journeys come on!!
Ann is full on filming - 11 days non-stop ............ but always finds time to ring and text.
Special day.
6 I could go on ............... but they are the best tricks.