I have feelings
don't I always
don't you always?
Sometimes they stick out
and you can't ignore them.
It is usually the the more demanding ones
that stand up and want to be noticed.
I feel lost in space.
I have had a dissatisfying evening.
I am never bored but
tonight I feel hung out to dry.
Man United v Barcelona on TV.
Mrs Beautiful into it.
Me - interested sociologically,
thought I maybe would be able to watch
but that interest slipped away
after five minutes.
So I turned to DrDre headphones.
Much music to be listened to.
Fresh and new.
Exciting and fresh.
Sleep ................
So I awoke to an empty evening
only washing up the pans remain.
So I feel like a wasted evening.
Not relaxing and settling the soul
only remaining restless.
Now that I am working through my feelings
they are disappearing and I can't grab them easily.
Damn
I want to learn from these ugly bits
as well as the glorious ones too.
I never get bored.
Always lots to do.
But sometimes not relaxing.
No blame.
It's me!
Just me!
Mrs Beautiful tells me I am unique!
So Mrs Beautiful has gone to bed.
Recorded Jools is ending
so may watch another recorded programme.
I have so many books on the go
but I am not in the mood.
I will relax now.
A glass of Cointreau
and Sunday is coming .......
