I am working at home today.
I don't understand my mood.
Unusual for me.
I guess others feel like this
sometimes?
all the time?
So I try to understand
then I understand me
understand others.
I don't feel flat.
I don't feel depressed
I don't feel sad
I don't feel ill
I don't feel tense
I don't feel worried
I don't feel - you can tell
I don't know how I feel.
I think I am not as 'on the case' as I was.
Not as sharp.
Not as energetic.
When I am with humans
going out to them
conversations, discussions,
questions responses,
buzzing, laughing,
reflections, soul digging -
I am energised.
Sometimes when I am working at home
I feel flat and unmotivated.
Cannot think straight.
If there is a deadline I take it to bed with me
wake up with it in the morning and
push the envelope of creativity.
Maybe I need some head space?
Maybe I am not relaxed?
Maybe I am a workaholic
yet all I do is mission
not work!
So I will have meal,
read some Anne Lamott,
view some 'Six Feet Under',
play Pete Tong loud with my new Dr Dre's,
cuddle Zig
feel .....
I wonder how you are feeling .........................
