Family whispers
secret presents
from lists provided
secret parcels from Amazon.

Big build up
Tescos started it.
Fou days left
Then it slides away
so quickly into Christmas Day.

New
jumpers
slippers
shirts
socks
and
(underclothes)
in brackets.

I wish we could get toys again.
I guess gadgets fix the men.
What do women get?
All the hard work I guess!

Christmas fills all space
busy with family humans*
busy with tinsel*
busy with food*
busy with alcohol
busy with TV*
busy with no time to think/reflect
busy with presents*
busy with NO TIME

* and then I think
*of the beautiful humans
*who live in homeless hostels
*who are dysfunctional in relationships
*who are in conflict with family
*who are rejected by family
*who are without a loved one
*who have dependancy issues
*who are with humans they don't want to be with
*who stop me in the street
and boast about their
new place to sleep
because it is under a stairwell
with an air-con extract
= warmth
= for Christmas ...............

*I am dwelling on those who are facing Christmas in fear.
Little children who are in the way.
Teenagers pregnant without a shed to sleep in.
Teenagers who have complex violent relationships.
Humans who will not chose to be - alone.
@Christmas

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Reading Mary's #Magnificat again.
Like discovering favourite auntie
is member of revolutionary socialist party.

Graciousness is a quality of mind that does not separate truth and beauty.
Talk of truth always makes it sound as if truth were the cardinal virtue.
yet without beauty, truth becomes blind and can be turned into a blunt and heartless imperative.

When we hold beauty and truth together,
truth will always have a sense of compassion and gentleness.

Sometimes the so-called facts of a situation actually tell us little or nothing about the heart of an experience.
Only in the light of beauty
can we come to see what is really present.


This is true also of the way in which we view our own life.
If we were to describe our life strictly in terms of its factual truth,
most of its interesting, complex, and surprising dimensions would remain unmentioned.
The gracious eye
can find the corners where growth
and healing are at work
even when we feel weak and limited.
It is no wonder that Jesus said;
the gentle shall inherit the earth.

From Divine Beauty, The Invisible Embrace, by John O’Donohue.
From the BLOg below

scott in brief 11/12/2010 22:43 Scott P advent 2010

Richard phoned today
from Seattle US.
45 beautiful minutes.
We have not talked for ages.

Sorting through papers today
writing letters
setting up for Monday
dealing with the deceased.

Met mR Singh for a Curry
Thursday Brick Lane.
A great man of wisdom.

Met up with Andy T
stink, it has been so long.

Spoke Albanian
to a man in Koha Cafe.
Rushes of Kosovan memories.

Travelled on a Train
The first time since Cape Town
when I travelled in.
(Caught a cab returning from LHR
- re
returning with my Gout)

Must go to the Docs
just not had time.

Bobby didn't show.
Concerned.

I am concerned about a few humans.
Some really on the edge.
No home/money/family/hope.
Christmas is dread.
I want to feel it.
Not ignore it.

We are surrounded by snow.
Joan committed to going to London
tomorrow to look after Conniepops.
She will have to go early
daylight travel
trains disrupted
dangerous under foot.

Conniepops is a star.
I am looking forward
to enjoying her first Christmas.

I need a break.
Feel - yes feelings again,
that I have not relaxed/stopped.
No working OUT this year
but rammo with jobs to do
and must crack my TAX
before the new year grabs me
and I dive into the things I love to do.
It is where I become ......................

I made it known that my Christmas list
was headed by
Three Apples!

Visiting Tomek and Anita
last week-end,
Anita presented me with all three Apples
;-)

The current weather restricts
walking
biking
social life
life full stop.

I am not used to being restricted.

I am feeling reflective.
Not deep,
meaning of life stuff,
but late night pondering.

I feel
I also want to understand them
and take the signals
learn from them
action the results
become .......................

I would love to know how you
really feel?
Like 5 words would help?

How about 5 Words from you
to summarise you life
at the moment?

Me::
Concerned
Refreshment needed
Space
Loved
Music.



.. and you?






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