I love questions. I ask them. Love them asked of me.

I love questions.

I ask them.

Love them asked of me.

Here

a beautiful human asked me,

and I delay the reply,

as normal.

Then I gave time to the reflection.

With permission

I publish my reflection

followed by another reflection
from the beautiful human.

I love the dialogue.

I yearn for such.

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How does HOME feel? - was the question

(Pip in black text)

hey

I am terrible at replies

in what way terrible ? - first of all you replied and secondly your replies are always good ones !

but did some notes

on a train

about the question asked

don't you just love thinking on the train and writing as you are moving along ? usually i need to move around to be thinking creatively - but on a train the world is moving around and it is great to be able to sit still for a bit and think..... and watch people eh ?!

Home

for me

a place to come back to

refresh

sleep

drift

refocus

drive the next ................

i never had a place feel like home - but i like what you were saying before about home being where you are understood - where you are 'got'

At the moment
I am becoming

feeling 'home'

I am restless

not satisfied

I wonder if I want to be

the jews call it senschut - longing for 'home' in a way that all of creation groans for heaven - longing to be 'got' - to realise our potential - to fully become - to 'come into our own inheritance' - sometimes i think in times of transiton in life, we feel that burst of longing more keenly - but we often don't know what it is we yearn for

usually I can work hard relax hard

not enough work for me at the moment

need to be proactive

usually I am just on call.

Nothing wrong with the flat

it is home

it is ME!!!

tricky to be in a stretchy place - to live on a growing edge - dangerous you are.......because you want to keep growing

So I am::

restless

part relaxed

distant

unsettled

disconnected.

disconnected is all i know - don't have the right wiring for the connected part - those are five good words (although technicaly partrelaxed is cheating and i have noticed that you are allowing it to creep into the exercise more of late - should that be alowed to continue ? sometimes the tighter the constraints the more creatively eloquent and expressive we have to be ??)

my five for today would be - hurting (bad back, an old wound), sad (bad news, a friend newly diagnosed with cancer), shivery (there is a cold wind blowing everyone about), excited (holidays just beginning), octoberish (with all the trees stripped bare.....my mind is on the one who goes on and on.....)

I am ok really

it is just me
digging deep

trying to work it out

I need to

all this will push me

Is that ok after such a long wait?

it is only a wait if i was expecting - but i have come to live with few expectations - so your reply is a lovely surprise - i don't need you to feel that you must try and work hard at this - i know that you are good..........and true...........and always there.......that is enough for me to know and to be sure of.......anything more is a joy

You have always been incredible

at responding to my questions

(not all I think?)

tell me the ones i missed if you like - i have not realised - i will always try to answer

so we have connected

I like that

i like it too - it is hard to become

bdangerous

xx

bBeautiful

bhp