Wednesday, October 26, 2011

ALWAYS …………….
.. I try to understand
other humans
then I understand me
so I can
understand others.

I don't feel flat.
I don't feel depressed
I don't feel sad
I don't feel ill
I don't feel tense
I don't feel worried
I don't feel - you can tell
I don't know how I feel.

I think I am not as 'on the case' as I was.
Not as sharp.
Not as energetic.
When I am with humans
going out to them
conversations, discussions,
questions responses,
buzzing, laughing,
reflections, soul digging -
I am energised.

Sometimes when I am working at home
I feel flat and unmotivated.
Cannot think straight.

If there is a deadline I take it to bed with me
wake up with it in the morning and
push the envelope of creativity.

Maybe I need some head space?
Maybe I am not relaxed?
Maybe I am a workaholic
yet all I do is mission
not work!

So I will have meal,
read some Anne Lamott,
view some 'TV',
play DJ Edu loud,
cuddle Zig even more,
and wait for the energy to visit tomorrow eh?

I wonder how you are feeling .........................




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