Saturday, February 26, 2005

This was my first book .....


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.



... I clicked about feelings and tough things even then .....

....... and now I am a long way from home ......

One good thing about being away from home and doing the hospital visiting - we can go and see our team play. We did last night.
Now you non-Rugby League types my not know that this is the most exciting and physical game on earth. Joan and me were there last night with about ten thousand other and we won!
Come on the Saints.
The last time we saw them live was in the Millennium Stadium in Cardiff when we won the Cup.
I love the Team and the whole game.

One strange behaviour observation.
A older man (about my age!!) was constantly f'ing and blinding about his own team. No being positive and urging them on - just slagging them off. Any mistake or any error in the team moves .......... negative.
I guess this man must be tough to live with?
I think my team have;-
Beautiful Imperfection.
I love em. When they make mistakes I regret that and groan. But I understand that they are imperfect.
Do you treat yourself like this. Do you expect to make mistakes and therefore feel liberated in the days breathing - walking - relating?
Or do you slagg your self off?
Just a wee observation and a reflection .....

.... and now .....
My mind keeps a flicking from one thing to the next (that bit was 'cliche' eh?)

From people in need - to what I need to prepare for this coming week.
From daughter Ann in Berlin - to humans in need.
From wanting to read a book which is feeding my awareness/soul and listening to more and more recorded music now on my iPod.
From visiting hospital to trying to get some certainty when there is little.
From needing to do the domestic to yearning for stretch.

I want to tell you who I am and maybe that did - maybe a bit vague?

..... well - today is today and tomorrow ......... I will experience some more 'beautiful imperfection' ......


you are beautiful .....

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Hmmm ....................


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.

~~~~ BLOOMING ~~~~~~~~


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.



... a young man told me yesterday ......... he was talking to a long lost love, the first time for five years.

He was on the telephone looking through the window as he talked.
Daffodils in his room were in full bloom - other than one.
One daffodil was closed.

After five minutes of conversation - he looked again and the daffodil had opened into full bloom.
He said boldly, in front of a group, there is something happening which is beyond me ......

That was a special work of wonder yesterday ......... and sometimes we don't see it ....


Quote;
=====
"Van Gogh saw
the way our hearts burn
like the pinwheel stars
swirling in the night-mad sky,

the way our spirits,
bent and bruised in life's field,
reach endlessly upward
like the cypress trees
full of knotty whorls
curling upwards to mingle with,
and plead benediction from,
the sea-waved sky,

the way wild-maned sunflowers
are almost dizzy with themselves
and the power of heavy seed
flaming within them.

Lose an ear,
lose your mind.
Lose your life,

while your resolve scatters
like crows over the wheatfield
and Lazarus forever blooms
under a fiery sun."

Raphaelle Kosek

.... and I think about ....


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.



"the thing we call 'I' or 'me',
this place I temporarily inhabit and I call 'my body',
is not a thing at all but a place in which things happen.
There is no core to it and no edge to it, either;
and in those circumstances the notion of subject and object,
observer and observed, becomes very difficult to sustain,
because you are in a field of becoming"

Antony Gormley

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

After this I will go to ZZZZZZZZ


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.



.. I am away from home again and I must hit the zedz bed tonight EARLY as I am tired more than the usual at the slowing of the day.

I feel;
Beautiful Imperfection

Tonight I feel a bit more of the latter than the former.
NOW ...... I know that this is a feeling.
Feelings are real.
And important.
What I do know - believe - own - be - is ....... I am beautiful and imperfect.

Sometimes I feel more beautiful than imperfect.
Ha ....... that is just a feeling too!
I smile at the thought ......

The worst thing ...... is when we do not accept the beautiful % in us.
That means the whole of us is 'not ok' .
It can be like freezer in our soul - with the door open.
Still beautiful but not in touch with our beautiful self.

I have no need to talk about this in a smug way.
I was around about forty years old before I could
feel and
think and
say .........
I am beautiful.




I could go on and click more ........... ....... but I think, if you have been clicking this way for any time and scrolling with me, ........ I think you will have enough clues .......

I am going to bed early ...... need my beauty sleep ........!
..... and want to end by saying;-



you
are
beautiful
.
.
.
.
.
.

www.pipwilson.com

'The New Piccadilly Restaurant' and Big John ...... stunned by the 50's decor .......


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.



..... in the special place ......

A few of us are doing a working meal before the more formal meeting of Greenbelt Angels ....... all volunteers for unique community .....

.... more pix below ....

bhp

TheBeautifulJulie .......


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.



..... Monday seems so far away but it was yesterday. By great design there was four of us who met at 'The New Piccadilly Restaurant' to chew on the cheapest steak in the beautiful west end of London Town.

All before the Greenbelt meeting ....

There was Big John and Jules, all the way from the North East of England and full of gorgeous Geordie. A twin birthday gig - both birthdays during the past seven days.
Paul was with us - all the way from Guernsey ......... just about as, within the coming week, he flys to Africa with a delegation from Christian Aid. God bless him and the precious family left back home.

And me ........... pipdotcom ........... Joan could not make it as she is caught up in hospital duties.

beautiful human moments .....

PAULCAM ...... does his work to capture some great moments as we gather for a pre-meeting meal .......


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.

The Greenbelt meeting kicks the darkness 'till it bleeds daylight - with Andy Turner in the Chair ...........


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.

Greenbelt Management gets an interlude to celebrate the 40th of Big John - you can not get 40 of big John - he is UNIQUE .......


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Originally uploaded by Pip Wilson.