Thursday, November 04, 2010

Now ..
... me ..
... when I am like this
I always look at my self
and the first question is ..
... feelings.

'Why am I afraid to tell you who I am -
because if I tell you who I am,
and you don't like who I am,
that is all I have.'
That is the title of my favourite book -
and here in internet space
I have the commitment to be as open as honest as I can
because I believe that is good for me,
you,
and us all ..
..... in the journey of self understanding
and everything developmental.....
..... so I want to tell you who I am.

I am feeling positive.
I am reflectively full-up.
I want to reflect.
I want to understand me
to also understand
you.
(and other beautiful humans)

Last Saturday tho
I felt stressed for two hours.
All of a sudden I noticed
I was feeling stressed.

I know what pressure is like,
that is generally good.

I live with pressure all the time.
In fact,
when I am not there,
I am am at my worst.

I like the pressure
I like the relaxing from it too!

But on Saturday
I felt that my blood was boiling
in my veins.
It seemed to be rushing around.
I know that feeling too.
Feelings are signals.
Because I work on my own emotions,
understanding them
giving each a name/word = emotional literacy.
I was able to examine them.

I remember once
back in the early 80's -
I grabbed a picture of the wall in our flat
and just smashed it.
It shocked me.
That was not being emotionally intelligent!

We were living in a flat above a youth and community centre.
Seven days a week.
Pressure and worse kicking off.
I just lost it.

I think reaching our own cliff edge
is good.
It teaches us to only go so far.
I had to learn and
I have been learning ever since -
and I believe you do too!

Have you felt stress recently?
Do you tell anyone?
Do you talk it through?
Work at it?
Or do you contain it
like a capped volcano?
Building up for the next
eruption?

It has got to come out.
There are different methods.
Some are secretly done.
One person silently releasing pressure/stress.

A better way is to spill.
Then SHIFT HAPPENS.

Share with another human.
Otherwise we wear a mask.
We are not being real.
We are not authentic.

Then Shift happens.

We change
We grow.
We begin to love our feelings.
We welcome the signals.
We can read the semaphore.

We can become code breakers.

Emotional Intelligence is for us all.
For our wholeness
Divine ....................