Sunday, August 01, 2021

A rambling from my mind - encounters with humans sharing or struggling to ...


I am desiring to be L5
(if you don't know what L5 is -
read a few blogs of mine)
I want /aim to share L5
tell you who I am

I have moved around the world introducing 'L5"
I have entered into a new:-
groups ............
I feel lonely in a new group
NOT all the time!
Just for a few moments
I feel that isolated feeling
I feel it
thank God for feelings
and spring-board from them.

It is not the fault of the group I am with
The centre/conference/hostel etc..
They are my feelings which sweep through me like
restless winds
(and you too - I believe)
but I want to be in touch with these feelings/signals.
I want to feel them all
learn from them all
And that is my striving for emotional intelligence.

When I share feelings about life
It is not the fault of life.
Not the humans around me -
not their fault.
It is not even my fault
they are the GIFT of shared human feelings!

Feelings are not right or wrong.
It is behaviour which can be bad or good.
Feelings are real and, unless we reveal them,
others - appropriate others
it builds up =
a volcano will arise in due course........

So I have felt periods of NOT OK-ness in life.
Something for me to work through.

At one Greenbelt Festival
so full of goodies for me .......was.....
Being able to say to the woman,
that the highlight of a Festival was;
when I wiped away a tear from her cheek,
with my right forefinger
as she was sharing L5 with me.

The many 'Mint Tea Moments' with individuals/
small groups/couples.

Many meetings of new humans.
Meeting and greetings.
L1, 2, 3 and 4 which will lead to
if we meet some more. Risk more.

The YMCA Cafe and encounters with lots I know from when I worked there full time.
Humans - the work horses of the project
who pour their Love out into every cup of tea.

.... and in the same project
the young guns working there.
Many I know from leading groups/conferences
with them as passionate participants.
Some who have had tough lives.
Hard times
mashed up years
Now living in Hostels
Not awaiting A level results
but whether they will have a bed to sleep in tonight ..........

To see them
meet new
feel their warmth
feel the connection

And late night drinks, which is the context
not the depth and the purpose.
Meeting new and old friends.
Meeting once-a-year-friends
Facebook friends for first time.
I Love Love the exchanges.
I loved so much............

Love it
Loved the interactions
the contributions I made
the feedback too
He was a dissatisfied human.
Read one of my blogs 
(via SEARCH RIGHT side bar.)

So I am OK.
I am buzzing.
I am positive
but got lots a feelings
mainly about individuals ................

Who do you follow
I know my choice.