Thursday, May 14, 2009







Hi - this is one of those
start-a-blog-and-have-no-clue-where-it-starts-or-ends.

Hello. I wonder how your soul is?
I wonder if you ever undress your soul
with anyone?
We need to trust someone if
we get naked - yes?

It is wondrous to undress the soul.
Like a shower after a hot day.
Like preparing for clean clothes.
Grime gone
sweat gone
tiredness gone too.

I have this principle -
be as open and as honest as possible.
(It is L5 stuff
It is about mask-less-ness)
To be as honest as possible is
Undressing in public -
that means you !
because you are generous -
generous enough to click this way.

I am clear headed.
Much time,
since waking at 5 am,
thinking about a new home,
the downsizing.
The parting with
garden
space
cd collection
video archives
garden furniture
books (please no)
60's wardrobe (please yes)
Training manuals
resources
reference papers
journals
got to decide - got to got to.

We have a possible new home.
We are going through a process.
I am not excited.
I reserve that for later.
If all goes through -
I will then start breathing deep again.
and wake at 7/8/9 - I hope?

I am now undressed
and feeling calm - still.

I know I am full of feelings.
Always am
and try to manage them.

Half full of faith too.
(The opposite to faith,
is not doubt,
it is certainty).

I believe as much as ever.
Not more.
As much as ever.
I avoid words which disconnect humans
without an experience of faith.
So my words are measured.

The faith I started with
is still my main driver.
It has changed beyond words.
It has aged and matured,
as a bottle of good wine,
just like my body
(but I hope a more pretty).

Back in the day
it was a fully human person
that I decided to follow
who was also fully divine.
I started a journey,
vision over visibility.
I don't believe I found the answer,
I believe I found the Way.

No turning back.