Tuesday, October 30, 2007

























Writing on a plane.
Tuesday
23th October
the first day
the rest of my life .....




Marrakech bound.


I am tuning in to being on holiday.
Still thinking of recent events in my life.
Still thinking of gigs to come.
The rest of 2007




I am also tuning into Marrakech and all it offers in terms of re-creation.

I don't think I will ever see holidays as seeing the world.
No interest in that.
Want to change the world not see it.
I have no interest in being a tourist.

I only want to re-create for other things.




I like a weekly re-creation - Rugby League/ Movie/ Cointreau/ Food/ Friends/ Family/ Books and the big one Music ............... listening and yearning.




What I have learned this week::
Humans* are scared of feelings. They don't accept them as signals. They don't treat pain as being a signal either.
Pain is good.
Feelings are good.
*Some humans I mean.
Not all.

What I have learned this week::
Also learned that humans see feelings is about an outburst of real intense issues rather than being in touch with our interior and being able to articulate - moment by moment, how we are feeling.
So many humans, when I ask how they are feeling - tell me what they are thinking.
The longest journey - the real road less travelled ......... to the interior, to the depths of the soul, and wondrous buried treasures .......

What I have learned this week::
I still get shivers down my spine when I am eye-to-eye with a human when they are moving from 'being' to 'becoming'.

What I have learned this week::
Humans can be shocked by what they say.
Shocked by the process of digging in the crates of the soul and, when articulating the findings to another human ........ it shocks/surprizes/delights/ ........ and it is beautiful to the core of being ...........

What I have learned this week::
That there is a school who have humans as teachers that really facilitate learning and change and development in young humans.

What I have learned this week::
I am not good at remembering Nigerian names. And - if I don't use that humans name in a group - it is noticed!

What I have learned this week::
That humans understand how humans in Gangs behave and belong. When asked to delve and think - they realise that gangs have all the normal human needs - just like we do.
Needs of security, belonging, achievement, recognition AND that, if they don't receive it, they will go and get it.

What I have learned this week::
That I can still dance in front of 100 teenagers and enjoy it!

What I have learned this week::
That so many humans who have arrived in our country seeking asylum are hard working and committed humans. Sensitive, a thirst for growth, beautiful to get to know.
This week one mature woman, from the Punjab, so beautiful in her responses and exchanges - beautiful in openness. Beautiful in respectfulness of human life - even those so different than her - those damaged by life.
I am oozing with respect for her.

What I have learned this week::
That obnoxious behaviour brings out feelings of love.

What I have learned this week::
That when I stand before 100 humans, I am nervous because I want for them.

What I have learned this week::
That when sitting in a group of 5 or 6 humans, I am nervous because I desire for them .......

What I have learned this week::
I am refreshed in learning and sensitivity when I hear again how so many people workers are abused in their daily work.


What I have learned this week::
That we all have thoughts, feelings and behaviour that are under attack from below from emotional responses. From above from 'shoulds and aughts' attitudes.
That I need to recognise those signals AND respond with loving words and my whole being immersed in love and the creator of love.

What I have learned this week ................


............... and you?




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