Sunday, August 09, 2015

At one time I was a driven man

Well ......... life is good 

So life is always re-creation and that is my yearn. 
I have never worked to live ..... always lived to work. 
Work and recreation are one and the balance a life long mission. 
The truth is, I have the passion to work with people 

and I don't want to seek pleasure ..
... just use it for refreshment. 

My mission is to live to love. 
Make my life an act of love. 
That is being honest and it is not sacrificial and 'burn out' tactics. 
Passion for people. 
Being with them, wanting to learn together about the life journey, all so real. 

At one time I was a driven man 
to convert people to the Christian faith. 
That was it. 
NOW …….
I desire yearn for their wholeness
and cartwheel at every small step.
I still yearn for them to freely chose a walk with God, 
to love because they are loved
loved by some major creator beyond understanding. 
Now it is more like letting the light shine 
rather than forcing their jaws open so that God will get in. 
She has to get close if we are open to the beyond ……… the becoming
That was me. 
A driven human. 
This is me  still becoming ……..

I ony became an adult when I was around 40. 
Until then I never accepted myself and always wanted to be 
..."if only I could ......" 
I was once a person who 'couldn't' and I became a person who 'could'. 
I love to see that happen in others in anyway. 
I wil love the summer. 
Love the joys of beauty in so many things. 
I will then love to get back and be useful and not a taker (only) in this world ....... but a 'maker' too. 

God loves. 
In my own experience it is a life of finding that love and journeying constantly, 
constantly excitingly to experience more, 
and give more, like a never filled drinking jug. 

I can tell I am level headed
I am am dribbling out of both corners of my mouth!
hey …..I am excited now
and dribblig down my chin ......... see you soon …… 
I plan to blog all summer that wotk or pleasure ........I never know!!