iRamble
Wilson Mansions here::
I feel like I need to ramble tonight.
I have feelings which I can share from interactions and activities which I cannot share.
I had a cigar tonight.
First one for a couple of months.
The last one was in the sun in the garden.
The sun was shining - must have been a long time ago.
You BHP's in distant lands may not of heard of our UK August downpours.
The most since records began.
It was also the first cigar in my new car, when I went petrol free motoring,
back in February - before the rocketing gas prices.
It is a Toyota Prius, and it charges the engine power
when I brake
go downhill
go under 40 mph
and the engine stops even when I stop for one second at a traffic light hey hey.
I would love to say that I have had a Cointreau too.
But - at £19 a bottle - no sireeee ....
I have had a single bottle of beer and a great catch up with Joan,
a chicken pasta dish and some plumb crumble hmmmmmmm
(the Sheilas will kill me when they read about the crumble bit!!)
I am feeling guilty, not about the crumble, but about my inbox.
I get oppressed by it's bigness and my inability to love humans by answering them.
I have learned a lot today, this week, this year.
I am set on fire NOT by being with major success stories but
by young humans at the bottom.
I love seeing these beautiful buds of flowers-
opening up to the sun.
Showing their imaginative colours
which are often hidden by all sorts of thorns and leaves -
sometimes called behaviour.
I am encouraged to hear beautiful reflections coming out of their mouths,
direct from souls, so ravaged in poverty.
A poverty that imprisons the spirit.
We can see the behaviour,
but we cannot see their experience.
It is only intimacy which reveals this.
It is only trust which frees the logjam
It is only a climate free from rejection which warms and opens.
It is only time and love that waters the colourful humans into choosing to be all that they can become.
I work to create 'an experience' in a group.
Something which generates feelings.
Level Five stuff.
It takes time - depending on the insecure/secure state of the individuals and therefore the group.
Revealing self needs a climate of trust.
Once this experience happens - it will live with the human for days.
The experience demands attention. Of the reflective type.
A sensitive, aware and skillful worker will ask the appropriate questions afterwards.
NOT 'was it good?'
but 'Tell me what was the best bit'?
The first question will stir up an answer of yes or no.
The second example will result in a human digging into their soul -
Googleing the soul, scanning it all until they can say::
"I felt ...................." and out comes a reflection which makes the earth spin along with it's Creator.
Tennis, Football, a Cigar, a Cointreau,
even The Saints - the best Rugby League team in the world - cannot beat that for thrills in my book ................
I have learned a lot today ...................
... and I would love to reflect more on it ........