Why am I afraid to tell you who I am*
Since being 26 years old
until about 30 years later
I worked mornings
and evenings
four days a week
often five or six.
As a Youth Worker it was
admin and programme design
in the mornings
(afternoons a few hours off)
and the young humans way into the night.
I spent time off with family
and with the community -
I lived/worked in communities of sorts
for some thirty nine years.
Family was always 'away from it all'.
Different and believed that a family,
living in a residential community,
needed special family time.
I have never been good at social things.
I have never made many friends.
I am not good at those things -
seems to me.
I reckon that that is why.
I have never given priority to it.
Maybe I have become better
in the last five/ten years or so?
'Why am I afraid to tell you who I am'*
is the title of my favourite book of all time.
I strive NOT to be afraid to tell you who I am.
