Tuesday, May 25, 2021

I reflect on life - keeping myself & you uptodate. I feel like you are holding my hand.

 These reflections below are about 6 months old.

Times have changed.

Today and another day this week I am due to visit hospital to sign up for serious treatment which must cost the NHS thousands of pounds. A step into the unknown!

They must feel I am worth it!

I intend to keep reflecting & learning - and sharing here - because I need to be real & honest.


Yes - this IS a picture of me from back in the day. I guess I was in my late teens.

Now I am 81 and feeling it only recently.

I am not my chirpy self in recent days. Today we had our usual daily walk and felt to was hard work with every bone and joint aching.

I has been about one year since I was diagnosed with cancer in the prostate. It won't go away I was advised. My treatment has been to hold back the cancer so it does not spread. Next week I will have another of my three monthly injections of hormones. The idea is to reduce my testosterone which the cancer feeds off.

In the first 6 months I was always saying 'I don't feel ill'. Now I feel somewhat like the list of possible side effects they gave me a year ago. Fatigue. Sleeplessness. Hot Flushes.Strength and muscle loss. Bone thinning etc..

It was world cancer day yesterday so I thought I need to be open and honest about how I am.

So I need soul food