These reflections below are about 6 months old.
Times have changed.
Today and another day this week I am due to visit hospital to sign up for serious treatment which must cost the NHS thousands of pounds. A step into the unknown!
They must feel I am worth it!
I intend to keep reflecting & learning - and sharing here - because I need to be real & honest.
Yes - this IS a picture of me from back in the day. I guess I was in my late teens.
Now I am 81 and feeling it only recently.
I am not my chirpy self in recent days. Today we had our usual daily walk and felt to was hard work with every bone and joint aching.
I has been about one year since I was diagnosed with cancer in the prostate. It won't go away I was advised. My treatment has been to hold back the cancer so it does not spread. Next week I will have another of my three monthly injections of hormones. The idea is to reduce my testosterone which the cancer feeds off.
In the first 6 months I was always saying 'I don't feel ill'. Now I feel somewhat like the list of possible side effects they gave me a year ago. Fatigue. Sleeplessness. Hot Flushes.Strength and muscle loss. Bone thinning etc..
It was world cancer day yesterday so I thought I need to be open and honest about how I am.
