Freedom Writers
This is a fantastic movie.
Powerful
powerful
real
challenging
wrenching
loveit
I never recommend anything - but I lurve this.
Feeling a bit on the edge tonight.
Meaning ................... expectant.
Feel a bit strange - and I am
I'm ok (you're ok)
Yes I am ok but digging into the soul and trying to understand the deeper me.
Me and Joan
wedding anniversary tomorrow - today by the time this hits the world web.
One thing I said to her today
we talked on from it ........
I never understood why she liked me in those days.
and loved me ...........
I think I was 22 when we met.
I could never understand her attraction
to me!
I think I had little self esteem in those days
wrong - I didn't have any .......
(I didn't even know about self esteem)
(( I had never heard of self esteem))
In church last Sunday
I was deep in the emotion of it
"Lord have mercy" was the words emanating out of the choir of 30 humans
I don't understand how I can be loved
sacrificial loved
that came to me again
fresh.
I remember when I became a human of Christian faith
I remember asking others about it ..............
because I couldn't get it -
how a creator God could find me acceptable
how someone as thick as me
someone as 'course' as me
someone as foul as me
someone as uneducated as me
someone with a language as me
someone as rough and hard as me
could be accepted
acceptable.
Believe me - I was dead rough.
Real
rugby player
factory worker
pub drinker
rough ...........
..... and yet I believed I was acceptable
blind faith
because I couldn't understand it.
I handed over my widows mite
reached out my hand - held on
held on to that mighty hand
walk-on-wilson-walk-on.
I have mentioned before on these pages that I was::
4o years old before I became an adult.
40 years old before I accepted myself.
Joan accepted me
God accepted me
before that
still do
good eh?
Now - I want to accept everybody
there is no human person who is not acceptable
beautiful
imperfection
Nothing in my hands I bring .........
Simply ................
.
