Friday, November 07, 2008

I am aware that I periodically close down communications with you and beautiful humans everywhere.
These are the times when I am extra busy and mind blocked.
I have to concentrate on the prep and delivery of my gigs.
It is those times I draw into my shell in terms of blogging and emails da de da.


Sorry.
Apologies.

The Pipturesque on this page describe some of my week.
It has been a bit frantic.
It has been stretch.
It has been stimulating.
I have learned so much.


The blog I did below, I don't want to touch on it again.
But that has added to my distress as I feel the vibe of all who have been shaken by the event.
The Project Manager says that I can help. (Maybe you?)
That is to pray.


I have seated on the floor with young humans this week.
They, all of them, are vulnerable.
Unable to make decisions about their complex lives.
Toothache - they are preoccupied by one issue which blinds them.
The biggest issues are not violence, pregnancy, being cashless, being drunk or drugged - the primary issue is their lack of response-ability.
That is their emotional incompetence.
It hurts like mad. It hurts me like mad.


I see beautiful humans who are growing into adults with little preparation to be mature and balanced adults.
Emotional literacy.
Emotional intelligence.
Self esteem.
Confidence - all far away.
They have a poverty that imprisons the spirit - poor to the depths of their being.

I articulate to them - that they are beautiful.
I say it non-verbally too.
As I do on these pages to you.
It is so foundational that we accept ourselves as we are.
God does.
Acceptable NOW - not because we have the potential to change.
Not because life can be better than this.
NOW.

It is only when we admit where we are - that we can go forward from that place.
"I am an alcoholic" is the first place to start the 12 steps into recovery.
Until we take the mask off, the pretence that we are ok, we stay in a place call MASK where change and growth does not reside.
You are beautiful