Sunday, September 08, 2013

This God stuff and LEVEL FIVE.



THIS is God stuff.
Trying to connect again
because it has been so long 
that I became - 
I want to understand 
what I have become.

I know that I once committed 
life
(all?)
and made big decisions
on the way.

Now it is all happening
in the flow.
I am doing because 
I always have done
since I became
but
I need to always be becoming.

I am aware
that others have spiritual lives
aware/unaware.
Conscious/unconscious.

But I don't know
what goes on in their interior.
I would love to know
not to compare
because I would just love to know.

I know a few - their interior.
We do 'Level Five' together.
But we don't meet enough.
So I don't know their every breath.

As for me and God.
It's like being married
to Mrs Beautiful.

We talk about feelings.
We ask each other feeling questions.
These are faith questions too.
About who we pray about.
What has inspired us.
What troubles us,
about others,
about ourselves
together
or as individuals.

There is less about our 'individual' lives.
More about our entwined lives - 
but we are always individuals too.
There are individual activities
and always shared activities
but we have our own interior lives.

As I say about God Stuff,
it's like Mrs Beautiful and me.
Entwined.
Breathing together.
Walking together.
always connecting.

I don't pray nowadays.
I consider breathing as praying.
God is a constant partner
as we journey together.
Entwined.
NOT just when I reference the Divine
but when we walk side-by-side.
When we sleep together.
When silent together.

I don't feel my entwined condition
is an equal thing with the Divine.
Nor is it a submissive
superior/inferior thing.
It is a closeness like 'Level Five'.
It is a closeness like a human friend.
Like Mrs Beautiful
but also Divine.

But I am interested
how others relate.
How you connect/relate with God.
I just don't know.

I would love to know .........
without cliches or religious language.
I know it's tough to describe
an ever moving relationship.
With an ever 'unseen' ever present God.

In the struggle to 'language' it
it must be a worthwhile struggle.
We must learn as we struggle.
Worth a try.
I would love to try.
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8 September 2013