Why am I afraid to tell you who I am .. .. ... ... ... ...
..... my favourite book of all time.
About how we present to others a person who we feel will be acceptable to them.
Attractive to them.
So we present, on the outside, a person who is really not us.
We wear a mask.
A journey of a lifetime - becoming a person who we really are.
And that begins with being in touch with our feelings - and telling others who we really are.
That in it's-self ....... a process of learning who we really are.
So I want to tell you who I really am right now ........ and that means telling you my feelings.
In the positive and in the negative.
But I don't know what to click.
I am committed so I will do it NOW.
I feel negative about myself;
I know I am am not well educated. A refusal, my refusal, to learn at key times - rather than poor teachers.
I feel I am not as strategic with my life as I would like to be. When I am doing a full day/or more training course I am totally tuned and focused for days before. Smaller gigs I drift into it - a bit - not a lot!
I don't feel really bad about these - but I know there is a tendency to be weak here.
I feel positive about myself;
...... and these things are more sensitive to say ........
I feel I am accepting and valuing of most people. Would like to say all. I believe in accepting all ...... but sometimes there is a gap between belief and practice. (For you too?)
I tell humans they are beautiful and always mean it.
Sometimes their behaviour is not nice, and I dislike, but I aim to always see beyond the behaviour.
That is enough. Have scraped the barrel of my feelings tonight.
Other than - I feel for you.
I don't know how you are right now.
But I still reach out and feel with you.
May you be a beautiful human being
and
a beautiful human becoming
"Man, do you think yours is the only soul?
Look around you.
Everything that you see quivers with being.
Though your thoughts are free,
one thing you do not think about:
the whole."
Gérard de Nerval
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