..... AWAY IN A CONFERENCE CENTRE WITHOUT WI-FI ...... WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO?
This place was a sortof-mini-retreat centre.
Ideal for small groups.
Bit too holy for me.
I like wholeness not the holy!!
So I have not told you who I am for such a long time and want to offer that.
"why am I afraid to tell you who I am -
because if I tell you who I am
that is all I have"
Title of my favourite book.
You can see from the title that it is about
revealing
self revelation.
ridding the masks
peeling the onion
getting inside to se the Russian Dolls in their fullness
wholeness!!
Over the past weeks
I have been revealing my self to others.
It leaks out all the time
it is sometimes
deliberate
on purpose
sharing the vulnerable bits
lots in there you know
that is the tough bit
I strive
He who was rich became poor..........
Also I see those around me
amongst
contacting
working with ..........
I have experienced
the locked in
the hurting locked
the fearful locked
the tender locked
the untrusting locked
toothache
....... and what does a human think about when they have toothache?
TOOTHACHE.
But I don't have a key
only they can unlock
only they can decide
only the can take the risk for their own development.
ALL I can do is unlock myself
show they are not alone
in inadequacy
in hurt
in damage
in disability
emotional disability
Then there is something fantastic happening
electric
liberation
salvation
freedom
because all the energy used
misused
in keeping the locked
locked in
can then be used to be real
be free
be liberated
be unlocked to work on that damn toothache.
Sometimes I reveal a hurt
and there is no response
(someone throw me a life-belt)
I feel that isolation
but believe it does not stay untouched
every drop of honesty
touches another
beautiful
I ask why do this
why I behave like I do
analysis
my behaviour
my communication
my transactions
body mind and spirit?
And others
I seek to understand
the hostile
the obnoxious
the blunt
the hard
the hard hearted
the non-listener
the pointed finger person ..........
....... and I journey on along the road less travelled
and I get tired
and I love it love it
.
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