Greenbelt Festival Reflections from the stumbling soul of this human ....I love Greenbelt
I loved Greenbelt
Love it's edgy
walking to the edge
risky
wide view
broadband
looking sideways even.
I belong
I want to belong forever
It is incomplete
stuttering sometimes
fail fail and fail again sometimes
and
that's me too
beautiful imperfection .......
I bump into so many I know
Always more,
however,
always more new humans added to those I want
to meet/develop alongside
not annual
I want to love you forever ......
I want to
interact with you
touch/get to know.
I feed off you.
Every place I go
I am asked
'how is your Festival'?
'Fine' I say - love it love it.
On Saturday I decided to tell the truth
It was doing the L5 thing =
Level 1 = Cliches
NOT doing L5 but L 1 !!
Greenbelt is great
BUT
as for me
my personal satisfaction - not OK.
I want to do things at Greenbelt.
I was a restless as a wolf
I was walking around
dipping into lots
walking on
feeling alone
being alone
amongst 20,000 beautiful humans.
I am always restless
I am restless at home
restless at liesure
can never read fiction
unless away on holiday ......
I want to reside
in a place called uncomfortable
at least ......
stretched.
I did lots of bits around the festival
I filled in
meetings
introducing
one-to-ones-
-late-nights
and I love it
but
I only had one session this year.
Little profile.
No Youth Worker sessions
No Urban worker sessions
and that is what I do
live to do
feel fulfilled in doing.
So I started saying/
communicating in Level 4
started responding with truth
the nut that I am!
So my Greenbelt was that.
Do I stop going?
or
Do I start to change and become non-restless?
I don't know.
I will have to think/reflect
when my soul has recovered.
¸.•*¨*•♪you♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥¸.•*¨*•♪are♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥¸.•*¨*•♪beautiful♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥
