Monday, April 29, 2019

A Beautiful Human disappeared from my Facebook She stopped posting.

















I have been internal weeping.


In my short history of life
a few years ago …….

2011.......today.
A Beautiful Human disappeared from my Facebook 
She stopped posting. 
In fact she had stopped breathing. 
I don't want to say her name 

Heroin I believe. 
I don't want to say her name. 

She always came 
when I led late night 'Donuts'. 
That was the name for a group work session. 
Late night in a special needs Hostel.
same hostel 
same time 

same day

same opportunity for 100+ to come. 
And they came in small or large numbers.

She did 
I don't want to say her name. 

She always carried a screw top coke bottle. 
It did not contain cola 
only 
I don't want to say here name. 

She always sipped on it. 
She had other addictions too. 
human and chemical 
friends 
I don't want to say her name. 

She loved me
I loved her 

she always joined in 
She knew if one human 
in that group of 8 to 25, 
(whoever how many turned up)
had the courage to be honest 
open up 
share vulnerability 
that it would help the whole group. 
She did it 
and it was dynamic.

I don't want to say here name. 

She helped by opening her self 
to all of us in the group

and giving permission to others 
to do the same. 
I don't want to say her name. 

She had experienced 
massive misuse by men. 
She was fragile and vulnerable 
She was beautiful 
I don't want to say here name. 

I have lots of photos of her 
none which I will post here. 
She would have liked to see her picture 
she knew I loved her 
She knows I love her 
but I cannot even ...... 
I don't want to say her name. 

She died alone  
and I am still here 
but I weep as I click 
and 
I will remember her for a lifetime.

Each time I remember her I delight & weep. 
I don't want to say her name. 

But I wanted to tell you about her. 
A true beautiful human
a loss to the world

Her name is ..................... 
I so would love to say her name
but I won’t ………...




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Cash Converters, 
turning televisions 
into Heroin 
since 1988


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