Caroline says I can reprint this.
I want to becaue if you visit her here
it is in some small or great way
support::
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I will tell you who I am right now:
I have felt overwhelmed this week
I have felt comforted by total strangers
I have felt helpless
I have felt like I don't matter
I have felt like I don't want to matter
I am a mother, a wife, a loner
someone who is more real online than in real life
I am invisible and in your face
I am too demanding and too eager to please
I am off balance, out of kilter, not quite in touch with reality
I am ruled by my emotions, a reactive being.
I am living in a world of mirrors, I am Alice through the looking glass,
I am living in a world which doesn't make sense.
I am living in a world where I don't make sense.
I feel scared, anxious, grateful, supported, unsupported, out of control
I am afraid to tell who I am because...
if I tell you,
if I show you,
you will reject me
and I have that certainty within me
And whether that certainty is true or not
it is true for me
and that makes showing you all of me much too terrifying.
I am afraid to show you who I am because I need your acceptance.
I need your acceptance because I do not accept myself.
Caroline
Caroline
you are beautiful ..................
