Tuesday, August 31, 2004

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...... I have made a list of 55 things to reflect on at Greenbelt - the Festival I have just wept at and given my everything at.
Some of the things are people, gigs, feelings, books, music and ...... mainly humans and interactions with ................... a drank at the well ..... hmmm ......

I pounded the pavement to the train/tube/train this morning with Golden in my ears.
I have fab ear plugs that remove the train/tube/train and take me to the song of Jill Scott "I'm living my life like it's Golden Golden ....."

Yes I am living
Yes I am alive

"I am taking my freedom
Pulling it off the shelf
putting it on my chain
hanging it 'round my neck"

She sings it so powerfully as people around me move jaws and lips in words I cannot hear because I am plugged to Golden.
She sings also so gentle and love - full ....... sensitive to the core.

I have listened to my first album play on the move;
-on the train
-on the journey to the future where I will spend the rest of my life
-on the air, as I leave Greenbelt and still live with it in my soul.
-on the water - yes - I feel I can walk on water ....... and now I will be with humans in the coming hours and days who are in extreme life pain.
Life hurts
Life pain
Life rejection
Life chemicals
.......... one of them or all of them

I have Greenbelt to 'be'
I have Greenbelt to 'belong'
I have Greenbelt to 'become'

I enjoy the feel of Greenbelt now and yet I want to do that with passion.
I will reflect on it, the experience, for a long time and then - soon - I will be listening to the GB CD collection as I did not catch one seminar ........ but the GB experience will run on as I listen and drink at the well.

The last thing before I try to catch some catch up sleep ..........

Whatever your experience in life, at work, in relationships ............ I believe that yearning reflection is the way of growing ........ we learn from all experiences - good - bad - boring - painful - ................... dig deep dear humans ...........


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