Wednesday, July 24, 2019

"My father always made me know I was fat. I could never make him love me."






Cool Beer
Hot outdoors
Hot Hot in & out
Expressionless faces
Trevor Nelson on the radio
me clicking you
downloading pix
from the week
about 50 a day
fantastic seconds
of faces
always humans
never scenes
drink in the memory
interactions
transactions
I am on drugs
interaction drugs
transaction drugs
I yearn to be with these human
drink in their lives
sip from their cup
of experience
ask questions
always questions
slow with opinions
full on feelings
loveitloveitloveit
cannot tell you
lots of
confidential
thinking about things shared
like
"My father always made me know I was fat.
 I could never make him love me.
 I decided nobody would love me unless I was perfect.
 I felt ugly, as if I was falling down a dark hole."
jane Fonda
and I believe in
beautiful imperfection
of self
of others
governments too
PM too
they are humans
+journalists
so I pour my life
out
never oppressive
I trust
liberating
I trust
always learning
always residing
in
a place called
uncomfortable
so grow
and thinking of you and your beauty
you and your beauty
do you feel like a bud?
of a flower?
or are you fully open
at
potential?
thinking
we need to lean towards the light
the sun
the son
the source of beauty
and

become …………………..