Friday, April 28, 2006



MTV2 is on.
Zig still out playing with d boys.
Joan in bed.
Cigar.
Cointreau.
Just about relaxing from the week.
Yes I am.

Greenbelt meeting all day tomorrow.
ABM then the Trustees meeting.
Always stimulating as hell.
Being with humans who are living
becoming
stretching
thirsty souls
always good.

Big John will knock me up out of bed in the morning.
He on the road from the North East of England.
Sleepless.
Will be great to see him.
Wish
Oh wish I had his brains.

Then it is a long w/e.
Note non- UK humans - it is a Bank Holiday w/e here
Monday is an extra day off.
Will be able to catch up some ....
Must.

I feel OK.
Was a bit of a zombie earlier.
Are you sometimes emotionally flat and need to recover?

On Monday - hope to be seeing both the Sheilas.
Joy-Sheila back from Paris Sunday.
Missed her.
Ann Sheila got some job news but will need to check the permissions .....

I still have mac G4 issues.
I get on line here with my wireless - all ok
but
When I try to do a download for software update
It tells me I am not connected to the internet.
Whats that all about.

Also - when I go into another ethernet cable away from home
I can send emails but not receive.
So damn ............ - what a pain.
Sip the Cointreau

The new Gotan album - so good.

I must catch up on the depths of my inbox
reply to you
or someone as beautiful as you ............ as beautifuly imperfect .......

Have learned so much this week
Need to reflect
Evaluate
re-position.

Over Easter
at bedtime
I sat in the dark for a while
thinking
revisiting my life
Then I turned the light on and conducted a SWOT on me.
may take the risk to share the spider notes/mind map.

did the dark sit again last night
Then I sat in the light and read.
The first lines I read were ::
"Life may be brimming over with experiences, but somewhere, deep inside, all of us carry a vast fruitful loneliness wherever we go. And sometimes the most important thing in a whole day is the rest we take between two deep breaths, or the turning inward in prayer for five short minutes."


My pencil note just says 'WOW'.

It is the book of diaries from Etty Hillesum ................. she was killed by the Nazis in a concentration camp in 1943.........................


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