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Amongst the group
there was a mixture of humans as usual.
Always a mixture.
Unique humans of course.
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Yes ...... here I am ..... in reflective
post - group mode.
A small number of those who feel at home
in the climate of trust and,
they themselves, are the climate of trust.
They can speak openly.
They do speak honestly and want to.
Words of surprising depth -
forever flow from the young lips
which have lived life to such an extreme.
They struggle because ……
other people are there who don't know how to talk and,
more importantly, don't know how to listen.
Or at least be silent when others are
opening their soul for examination.
The newest humans in the group shout,
not talk.
Swear more than normal.
Interrupt.
And yet these are the ones who need the affirmation
to encourage them to stay
and return another time.
Handling the group is like crawling on egg shells.
Keeping the flow is a work
of gentle human interaction art.
There are beautiful moments but ………
much less than the normal group session.
I need to accept that and go with the flow.
So now .......... I let the night come on me,
come at me.
It is late and night.
I can hear the urban voices ......... shouting.
Police cars racing and alarming the night.
I hear the drunken brawly type exchanges.
The squealing of car tyres.
The smash of glass.
I am tired now
but will not sleep too well.
Never do when I take a group work session
to bed with me.
I feel ................ deep ...... thoughtful ...... yearning …….
reflective ........ quietly-buzzing ...........
dissatisfied somewhat …….
I love these humans
in my soul at the moment.
Their expressions and
their authentic fragility.
Yes these are feelings.
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It isn't a bell until it's rung
It isn't a song until it's sung
It isn't love 'til it is given away
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