So the cancer was in my
spine
pelvis
one rib
as well as prostate.
IT STILL IS
It is still there my oncologist tells me -
I guess forever
BUT it has been stopped the cells from multiplying
which is the killer.
When I first went to my Doctor
6 months ago
I mentioned my poor urine flow.
I had a blood test the same day.
Next day my great Doctor told m that ::
The count, if it is a more than '4'
It will mean cancer.
It was then that he said my count was '49'.
I did not know the significance of this at the time.
I later learned that that is big time C
On Friday this past week I was informed
that my count, following treatment, is now::
0.7
Unbelievable.
And now I can carry on as the fix is long term
with an hormone injection every three months.
HOW I AM
RIGHT NOW ?
I feel a bit flat right now after the swirl of gratitude
to all the supporting humans who have been kneeling on my behalf.
I am trying to put my finger on the feelings - and why.
As an Emotion Detective -
I am investigating my inner being
(and outer too)
all the time.
I am only clicking here because I need to.
Mission developing - that's one.
I feel I have a future now.
I know I have been off colour for a few months.
Still -
Reflective but a wee more tired than normal Pip.
I am not on top of things.
Not
'a glass half full' because
I don't feel negative.
Not lonely.
Not unhappy.
I feel easier to click the 'nots' rather than direct feelings. hmmm
I have this commitment to myself that
I will self disclose.
Tell you who I am -
here and now -
every day ........
They are the feelings.
I have been in too much - working at home
LOCKDOWN like you.
Bit tethered
I suppose restricted in my normal free flow.
I get my stimulus and drive from
reflective writing, books, music and many things -
but mainly from humans.
So that's it.
Level Five communication.
....... and I think of you ............. and how you may be feeling right now ....
Stay Safe
✅💲T🅰Y🅱eautiful✅
