Thursday, August 10, 2006




..... hot on the London Tubes ....... like an oven ...... not feeling happy about losing e-mails from my inbox - never happened before grrr .......... but had a good day.. .... an feeling ok ...... bit strange having Mother-in-Law here .......... dear Joyce asks the same question about three times in two minutes ........ every morning I have porridge for breakfast and never with sugar - just honey.
Every morning she says
what's this?
where do you get it from?
it won't come out?
"squeeze it"
where do you get it from?


We all may be like this when we are older - it is not a happy state. But of course she does not know she is asking the same questions all the time ...... it is tough on Joan because she stands alongside her all the time .....

Feeling ok as a human
Lots to do and that is good - other than the boring, admin, bits
Diary quieter than any other month other than December - but gigs coming in which is a good feeling.
Feel a bit 'not ok' about Greenbelt. The Festival programme and plans and sales and all that look fantastic but not so content about my input this year - it leaves me with feelings ..... ..... ... but I know the festival eaxperience will cut my heart out and replace it with a new one and I will never be the same again .......

Miss my Sheilas - just spoke to Joy in Majorca and she is doing well ............ and Ann having an unpleasant job at the moment - but we will be seeing her Saturday as she comes home to see her Nana.

Feel I want to read and soak in all of the things I don't know - all the people things - all the God things - all the awareness things - all the relational things - and love things

I want to be a great lover
not for myself only
but to experience - and see and hear love being experienced and multiplied and passed on and .......
..... it is late night and I want to dance ..... inside ........ interior .......

I have tried my best to express my feelings right here above.
I have no extremes going on.
The deeper ones need a scratching to get them disturbed so I can be in touch with them ... and that is what I have tried .......

Last - how are you feeling?
Do you know?
Not only the surface ones
But the below ones?
Interior ........ it is a a journey we have to do ourselves but I believe it is important to share them too .................... hope you don't mind?

you are beautiful


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