Thank you
Caroline
for this .. .. .. .. ..
There's a longing in me to be whole
To be secure
I'm told that "everyone" feels the things i feel
So why do I feel so isolated in my feelings?
There's a longing in me to feel secure
To know I can cope, to know I have defeated
this demon depression.
But no-one can tell me
if my longing can become reality
The statistics say otherwise....
I'm fighting, always fighting
To be the best I can
But now I want to be that best for me, not just for others.
And I don't even know why I am writing this
Or writing it for you to read
Only that it needs recording
And that it needs an audience.
I want to break the cycle.
There's a cycle in my family
Of mothers rejecting their daughters
And I WILL NOT DO THAT.
I will do all I can to let my daughters know
that they are precious
and loved
Always loved.
I don't want them to be searching (like me) ever searching
for love and acceptance
For they are beautiful human people
Even if I cannot feel that for myself
I feel and know it for them
and want them to know and feel it for themselves.
Beautiful human people
What must if feel like
To know
that you belong
to that group?
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