Wednesday, November 26, 2003

Someone leaving next week and looking good ....... from a hell of a life.
Someone messed up and ugly ..... feelings that is. I think beautiful.
Someone not speaking but involved in everything else.
Someone chocked and saying, gagging on the words, "my mother died".
Someone stumbling to link words together without making any sense.
Someone looking rough but mind still alive and saying real things about life.
Someone with eyes that match the chemicals of the day.
Someone fresh from spliffing plenty.
Someone, no two, hanging around within earshot but walking all the time.
Someone who said I am happier now than ever.
Someone once an addict to heroin, and a street sleeper, last week a drunk and this week looking smart and clean and clear headed..
Someone who has been rejected by parents and determined to get life together.

A group of late night humans sitting around with me and me trying to forge some sense of cohesion. Young uns age sixteen and a few a little older. They have lived a life too vivid for a soap opera. I know so many have never been so close to humans in such a mashed state and I love em.
We talk, I facilitate with all my might to have them settle down and focus, and we do .... eventually. Out comes real stories, life experiences, of a 'down time' in their life. We all have them eh? This was facilitated by a new blob figure drawing sketched today by my own hand. But anyone can read this paper ..... no words you see!
Once the first person opened up and was honest, the rest followed with ever increasing honesty and openness. We ended again with sharing a positive each. Never do I want to re-enforce the negative and hopelessness ...... hope is a vital concept and essential dream even though it maybe only one step, the next step.

I feel good because it was tough going at times but a developmental experience for all of us including me.

I hope all this makes some-sense to you rather than non-sense!
I write this stuff to unpack and trust it will interest you ass you interact with groups in your daily life.
One thing from me now. I found myself sharing with the group that the best peak in my life was packing in my big job to be with them. I feel so accepted by them. I feel so worthwhile and ........... a becoming beautiful human.